For some people, it is hard to fathom that there is a dimension to being human that is devoid of technology, urban jungles, and that many nuances and categories of thought that is expressed through our "individual" behaviors in modern civilization. Yet, as I contemplated my life, in retrospect of all the many things that seemed so meaningful to me, I realized that there was something elusive - there was some "thing" pervading my intuitive "gut feelings" that the person I had come to know as the "I" and the "me" was precariously empty. I had filled this emptiness, like so many others, with more of the same hoping to find solace in the fact that I can classify my "individuality" as its own "reality" in many ways that could be defined and accepted as tangible and concrete. It is my microcosmic worldview that is a reflection of the macrocosmic world involving man's preoccupation with itself. I am "I" and "we" at the same time, and "I/we" belong to a group of "advanced" people who are the democrat and the republican; the liberal and the conservative; the white racist or the nigger; the buppie and the yuppie, the blue collar worker and the white; the slave and the former slave; the rich and the poor; the secular and the religious, the average and the exceptional; the mentally handicapped and the gifted; the Christian and the Muslim; the American and the terrorist.

These designations, categories, and classifications of human being-ness are all the made-up fictions of a world prefabricated and sorely removed far beyond the vissitudes of the natural. And, it is through this that I have realized that I am what we all have made ourselves to be: that WE have made ourselves to be. The world of the large urban jungle I live is filled with work and entertainment, death and life, but it all seems to me so fragile; so nuclear powered and precariously dependent on the fuels of consumption. It is through this consumption that I have been defined by the "corporate trusts" - that I am intimately attached too for every single mundane need. Is this reality? "Am I a consumer ?" I thought to myself upon this reflection. Maybe. I know that I live in a world where the most essential things needed for the purposes of living are commoditized - where money is life. Is this how things should be? Should we not consider for one moment, that our ancient ancestors lived in a very simple way in which who they were was not so much a question of purpose in the pursuit of life, than it was an unspoken but accepted understanding that life and all that surrounds its authentic nature, self-evident and beyond comprehension, was a connected truth - a superfluid truth that must've resonated with a peace totally appreciated no matter how hard the toil of nature seemed.

We can argue that this characterization of our ancient ancestors is an oversimplification, but can we really say that our artificial reality affords us the insight to really know for sure? Should we not be compelled just on the strength of the sheer fabricated "essence" of human civilization, to not believe that such an existence was probable? But I can tell you now, there is some epiphany that occured to me because of this speculation by looking at the artifacts of the past; and that is, that it is not the fact that things exist for some reason or purpose, no, ladies and gentlemen, it is the simple fact, that anything exists at all.

Man's preoccupation with himself has created a peculiar arrogance that is apocalyptically ignorant. This ignorance is the basis for a peculiar type of confidence that defines an individuals self-centered purpose: It is not mine, and I come to reject it as an illusion of "knowing." Really now; how does the "scientist" gather the gumption to attempt to explain the nature of existence? How does a "religion" attempt to define that existence itself has a creator? And how in the hell do "cultures" attempt to artificially guide and construct an alternate reality that is not natural? And lastly, who was it that attempted to make me, a human being, evolve a synthetic mental personality that was no more than a mere phatom of what I have come to understand as a series of abstracted concepts and ideas. "Things" really; that are so nebulously mental, that "they" cannot be said to be attribitable to a human experience! These are all connected, and, I realized that my entire life had been super-saturated by the fantastic arrogances of man. It shows in everything modern civilization does, and I, will attempt to explain that for all that we are suffering as humanity today, it began with a simple but profound genesis: the genesis of Mind.

The human being is more than mind - more than the cognitive and the intellectual. It maybe true, that if it were not for the fact that we exist that such phenomenon would not be possible, but this reasoning on its own as a realization of cause, does not explain what mind actually is or what it should be used for. It is said that the human brain uses less than twenty percent of its "potential." But what does that mean? The brain is not seperate from the human body - I know that much without being a "rocket scientist." And it seems to me, (if I simply accept my experiences as representing real inclinations towards "common sense" understanding) that If the brian is using less than twenty percent of its capacity, then that means that artificially constructed "man-made" environments, i.e., civilization created through the human body, is fiiled with the metaphysical "energy" of this very limitation. Civilization so constructed, is a catastrophe in the making.

The excuses of "imperfection" and that "I am only human" are becomming justification for "things" known. That is, that knowledge has become its own reward, and as such, when members of our human family say these things, they are inconspicuously pronouncing arrogantly and with great irony that "I know who I am!" So, in the days to come, I will venture off into the world that was once my constructed reality; I will reveal to you a critical departure from what is known - from what is accepted to be true and knowable by what we have come to irresponsibly believe what has been heretofore taken for granted and supported by the demagogues of civilization, as an "organic" progessive evolution of our "species." I will traverse the realm of the only thing that has catapulted humanity this far. And I will do it in a way so shocking, that you will never look at who you are, and how we have come to mentally rationalize the way we live, the same way again.