Being Yourself
71I've met a lot of people. I've studied in a boarding school that was in a whole different state from my home (and not the neighboring one either!), my family is spread across random parts of the country, I've MOVED like a half a billion times, and in doing all of this, I've met a LOT of people. And, being me, I've watched these people and analyzed them and figured out what their lives and feelings and sentiments are, for all they're worth. So, I'm pretty convinced that I know a lot more than other people my age, considering I have only eighteen years' worth of life experience, and I can only remember sixteen of them. And what I've realized most often is that people are fake.
It's true. More than seventy percent of the people I've met are faking something or the other about them. You could say I'm cynical. I'm pretty sure I am. Also, I mostly only meet people who are drama-obsessed teens who're still trying to figure out who they are - if they've even thought that far. But I can sniff out the fakes from the genuines from a mile away now, and I know what I'm talking about. No, it's not the diamond industry.
I think I can say with some conviction - a lot of conviction, actually - that people who fake things about themselves and their personalities are by far the most insecure. I don't mean people who lie. If you've told people things about your ‘wealth' and ‘status' to impress them, you're outright crazy. No, I mean people who pretend they're a lot more confident than they truly are, or a lot smarter, or a lot ‘cooler'. (I think the word ‘cool' has gotten so much attention in high school lately, I might write a hub on it. "Why the word ‘cool' is so freaking overrated".) You could say it's a normal part of growing up, but I would beg to differ. If you want some examples, here they are (If you DON'T want ‘em, here they are anyway):
- 1. Oh-my-god-I'm-so-pretty-and-feminine: I have five purple hairbands, one with sequins, one with fake gemstones that do a better job of pretending they're real than I do, one with a satin surface, one that's plastic yet less of a manufactured product than I am, and one that my ‘boyfriend' (guy I'm dying to date but doesn't look my way so I have tell people we're going out because I'm SURE he'll come to his senses in a bit) chose (looked at in passing). I delude everybody, including myself, into thinking I'm an airhead, and suppress my inclination towards anything remotely intellectual. I value my supposed popularity far more than my intelligence.
- 2. Screw-you-I've-read-Plato: I know ‘everything' about philosophy. I write long, cynical articles about how the country is going to the doghouse, and how all politicians must be shot. I support communism just because everybody else hates it. I've read high-flying literature, and I enjoy writing criticisms because what could be more fun than proving that Shakespeare was a racist punk and every thing Walter De la Mare wrote was crap? I hope and hope that I get the attention my superior intellect craves, so that the cute jock from my History class (yeah the one who sleeps in the back when the lights are turned out for movie presentations) asks me out already.
- 3. Heh-heh-I-have-a-forehead-piercing-you-can't-mess-with-me: I have bored holes in all parts of my body. I race around on a motorcycle and can't say ‘no' to challenges, especially the dangerous ones. I'm outright rude to authority figures, how dare they tell me what to do? I'm surprised I know the word ‘authority'! It has, like, one, two, three, syla... syna... syllaboos! I have a band, our name is "Satan Killer Evil Beasts From Hell". I'm tough. Except when Mommy yells at me because she pinches my ear and it hurts. Ouch. Nobody loves me and I'm sad, so I pretend I don't love anybody.
I guess those examples prove how insecure these pretenders really are. And guess what? Faking isn't getting them anywhere! Now they have appearances to keep up, and lies to balance. In the meantime they're getting more and more confused about who they are and who they want to be. They say things and mean other things and take really really long to grow up and grow out of it, losing any ‘friends' they had in the process. Of course, they never made any real friends, being far too busy making sure they were ‘popular'. Because, of course, that's how popularity works, doesn't it?
Which is why being yourself is such a good idea. No pressure to maintain a façade, no unnecessary pains to take such as watching what you say, eat, wear, do, nothing. People like you for you, and that's the biggest self esteem boost there is! You get to actually air your real opinions, and that's always fun. Relationships work out, because to be true to somebody else, you have to be true to yourself, and to trust somebody else, you have to trust yourself. There's nothing cool about being insecure. When you accept yourself, you'll be able to take care of yourself, and then you can throw out that purple hairband :)
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That certainly sounds like high school as I recall it.
Its beautiful how the purple hairband has become a metaphor. So funny. You rule.
Purple is the color of enlightenment too 8^x
life is full of colors as you explore the wonders of it all. go and be and become.












Jerrico Usher says:
17 months ago
I love it "I’ve diluted who I am to just about everybody" that’s rich (in a GOOD way)!
Thing is if you put yourself out there in all your glory you leave nothing to improve upon in their eyes that's genuine..
When you do that anyway people get intimidated thinking that they couldn’t measure up to you and become snobbish to you.. jealousy..
But when you dilute yourself you can come out in stages and show them in a more efficient way that your a valuable person to know..
They think you just developed gradually but the truth is you were already that cool, you just had to allow them to absorb all your greatness at their speed!
I do this myself mainly because most people can't comprehend things at my speed.. I have a low tolerance for stupidity and ignorance..
I don't like to repeat myself and I hate when people judge me based solely on their own insecurities! I've found this to be a whole hub subject all its own... but good thing to put in this blog- Kudos!
It is true that being yourself is liberating as hell, but think of this.. being confidence actually takes less work than having low self esteem- why? because low self esteem makes you work harder to chase what we naturally need just to breathe, happiness!
Self confident people are simply not going to bs to make "ratings" with the "cool" kids. To me in high school especially being cool was just a synonym for work, plasticity, and unhappiness.
Their is a difference for being cool to being popular.. theirs even species of popular, one being short lived if you stop "working at it" and one that never stops kicking, the one where your popular because of who you are and how cool your uniqueness makes others feel.
True popularity is when you don't intimidate you inspire.. I think of those clicks they had in high school as ridiculous because they were like most bosses, parents, and authority figures..
Trying to rule through fear, the kind of popularity that is truly powerful is the one where people like you simply because you remind them of the better parts of themselves, when they can be anything around you and never fear banishment..
That kind of popularity never dies because it is truly what makes people feel comfortable..
I have to laugh at most of the popular kids after high school and college, or even in college.. they lose their coolness because their a nobody where they end up.. they survived on the popularity drug for so long they go through life suffering like a heroin addict who needs a fix..
They chase the fix so harshly that they make themselves look quite desperate in the process.. no one likes them because they become bitter at everyone because they don't worship them..
They learn quickly that what worked in high school only worked because adolescence usually breeds insecurities and the popular kids were simply the ones who's parents had the means to make them look good i.e. the clothing, cars etc.. but inside these kids are really empty for the most part..
The other thing they don't realize was that in school unlike real life your forced to go to the school its required by law.. so insecurity is not a reason not to go.. this means if your insecure you have to kiss up to the idiots in the popularity race if you want to be left alone, or you bond with another group. In real life when people learn to live on their own, get a job- break away from the parents paying rent and clothing etc..
Most people grow a back bone and the high school bullies don't exist (well maybe at work called boss) so the power of popularity is in a different demension now.. the successful rule here not the weak people with daddy's credit cards..
Even their buddies in high school who did actually get a clue and found love later abandon them because they say to them, look buddy that was high school and we were just stupid kids.. grow up!
I think the way I did things was powerful because I didn't rely on one groups approval, actually I didn’t really rely on anyone’s approval, they relied on mine, but I never judged, I always tried to shake people out of their ignorant shell...
I always gravitated to those who could make me a better person, not those whom would make me feel bad about who I was, how I was or whom I wanted to be. I had confidence because I wrote off anyone who wasn't in line with me, they didnt matter.. those that did had my respect and I had their back.. its basic networking and powerful synergy.
Another great hub from maylinda!! whoohoo!!