Have you ever had those days when you feel your stars are aligned? That's where I've been lately. I'm ready to jump into the deep end head first, and I'm not the least bit worried.

I've been so unhappy in my current job that I started believing I couldn't do better. I suppose that is what a battered woman feels like in an abusive relationship: like there's no way out. I always said of these women that it's their fault if they stay and enable the abuser.

I get it now though. You become dependent, even in an unhealthy situation because it's all you think you can do for yourself. What will happen if I walk away and start over, and how will it effect everyone else in my life? Wait a minute now! This is my life, and I deserve better. So does everyone else in my life. If I don't move to better my standing in this life, then it is my fault.

My grandfather told me to never stay in a job you don't enjoy because life is short. That makes sense. The managers I work for now don't have my best interest in mind. I am no more than machinery to them, and they don't care what my resume holds. I could do so much more for that company by using my full potential. I've proved that with the proposal for domestic partner benefits proposal they adopted, and the PowerPoint training program I wrote for new employees, in which the engineering manager took interest.

Now I have the opportunity to make anywhere between $75,000 and $100,000 a year with huge bonuses and incentives. I make nowhere near that now. I have to say, I'm not feeling too loyal to where I am now since I've been looked over for professional positions.

You know how you feel it in your heart when you have to say bye to a place and people you've worked with for eight years? I don't have that. I haven't made many friends, and the ones I have are in my personal life too. Therefore, I won't miss them because I see them all the time. As for managers and supervisors, I don't have a feeling whatever: no one to thank and no one I owe.

Within the next two weeks I'll have two to four interviews, and I will fight hard for those careers. I don't belong where I am now so I'm finding where I belong, and along the way I'll increase my salary threefold.