Binge Eating Disorder

Dear readers,

Soon you will find content here related to the struggle of thousands of people, if not millions, from all walks of life.

The first article will revolve around the moment of decision - that split second between craving and response, the choices we have in that moment and solution oriented advice.

Over 4 years of intense research has provided me with a wealth of knowledge on all aspects of the subject, and I believe the most important moment we have is the aforementioned one. What will you do in that instant? I am here to help you, but ultimately, as with all of the most important, spiritual questions in life - you are the one with the answer inside, and the power to change your behavior.

With love and more words coming soon,

Juliana

To Know is To Love <3

It's late. It's time for bed. But I really want to order some food. I am not going to mention the substance in case it triggers you. Did you know that places deliver around here all hours of the night? Incredible. A food addicts dream / nightmare. So... I have this choice... in this moment... take action on my behalf or let the craving brain take over. Earlier this evening I binged on another sugar based food item. However, I had protein before and after, like my nutritionist suggested. More specifics on that later - but in an action-packed nutshell here is the deal: protein mitigates the "priming" effects of sugar on the brain - basically it makes the future cravings not as strong, and other effects of the sugar high/low not as extreme.

So, a part of me knows I have already far exceeded the proper amount of caloric intake for the day, and I have had a look in the mirror to confirm the fact that my winter coat just added a bit more wool lining, so... the shame creeps in. Fear of never stopping, the cycle never ending... THEN, a positive thought arises - right NOW is the First moment of the rest of my future!

I can decide. I can choose my course of action RIGHT NOW. Do I choose life - a shower, some meditation / focusing work, perhaps some journaling or reading for school, or... Do I choose Death - calling the place, the delivery guy who I recognize when he comes to my door with death in hand, salivating like Pavlov's dog, not even trying to pretend there is someone else who is eating the food with me at 2am...

I gave in earlier tonight to the craving brain. "ED HEAD" as I affectionately name that part of myself. So, for now... I think I will choose LIFE. I am asking whatever universal force is out there, or neural synapse in my brain, to create a new thought. Ok, I'm READY FOR THE NEW THOUGHT..... eyes closed, WOW look at me, typing with my eyes closed!!!

What will my next thought be... yawn... how can i help myself right now? What is my next right action?

Answers: I'm tired. I'm thirsty. My need is for sleep, water, and my night time vitamins. It would feel really good to have some water right now and lay my head on my pillow and cozy up in my flannel sheets. I don't need the delivery guy or his drugs *sugar/flour* for companionship! (ha)

Well friends - today's score: ED 2, ME/HP 2 (earlier today there was a mocha (ed) and a healthy wrap (me/hp).

And with that I am off to bed! Much love and more on tools for in the moment next time. I'll cover good questions / affirmations to slip into the space between craving and response, as well as physical actions - one really great one from a friend of mine - to change the craving brain into a sane brain.

Yours in recovery,

Juliana, To Know is To Love <3

p.s. now im craving something else.... I'll report tomorrow on what happened.