Why does life have to be so confusing and troubling and sad no matter what some people do and even say it never works at all?

Have you ever just taken a walk in the park or city and seen someone in your position and how you feel? I guess not because everybody is different, sometimes they say they are fine and smile but really they are in pain and their dreams and life is filled with pain and yet they never think that if they get it off their chest and try to get over it  it might go away.

Maybe they are just scared or think they can handle it. Some people can handle it and some cant and conflict pain on them self’s because they think it was their fault so they would hurt and cut themselves in every direction and as the blood falls to the ground they feel a sudden relief and peace that their pain inside  is gone for the moment until it comes back again.

You might wonder why or how i know this kind of stuff it’s because i use to be one of the people who thought i could handle everything no matter what it was and then it back fired and i turned up to be the person who caused pain on themselves, it has been a while since i have done that now when i am sad i draw something or write poems or even lastly talking to someone about it. And even now i am sometimes sad because i feel like there  is someone inside that can’t come out i wish i had the hair i wanted i wish just once that i could be that person i wanted to be  and even if i do make mistakes in life at least i know that i went out there and did something instead of  imagining what it would of looked like or felt like if i tried i still wonder what it would be like if i had done the things i didn’t but then again i think to myself  i wouldn’t be here i wouldn’t be the nice kind love giving person i am today i wouldn’t be the person to come too when you were upset or needed some advice i wouldn’t  be any of those things i guess some things are for the best.

BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN YOU SHOULDN’T TRY NEW THINGS AND JUST SIT THEIR AND WONDER!!!!! DO SOMTHING DIFFERENT EVERYDAY AND BE THE BEST YOU CAN BE NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS AND MOST OF ALL NEVER GIVE UP THERE IS ALWAYS A CHANCE TO TRY AGAIN!!

A lot of people have had a hard year or life like i have out there i just hope they have read this and know they aren’t the only ones out there in pain or sadness.