Creative minds don't think alike

When it comes to love and getting hurt by love, I am one of the many who know what it feels like to have your heart ripped out, used, stepped on and thrown away multiple times! Now you may say, well sense everyone goes through it, why should we listen to you when there's probably some bum on the street who could help me just the same? This may be true, but I doubt some bum on the street could tell you what i have experienced, and trust me, I have learned a lot about the pains of love and I have helped many through my experiences. All experiences are different. Take mine and that bum on the street I was talking about for example. We are not a like! But what I have to offer to this pile of the knowledge of hurt and its coinciding with love, is something unlike anyone Else's, cause all experiences are different.

Now, to start off I have had many boyfriends who have used my heart to their advantage and have just thrown it in my face without so much as a thank you. This may sound very common, but one thing you've got to know about me is this, when I get into a relationship with ANYONE, I always give 100% of my heart and my good hard work into the relationship. Many of you are like this and many of you have probably had relationships where you give 100% but only receiving 60% from your partner. This is always very very frustrating! But you don't realize that this is going on DURING your relationship! You find out either at the end or way after you are broken up, or maybe you have beaten the odds and have seen it during. And some of us are just to scared to tell the other person this because you love them and you don't want them to get hurt, but while protecting the other persons heart, you are crushing your own in the process.

Sometimes its hard to remember our own happiness when we are so wrapped up in our loves happiness. But what I have learned after many many MANY times of doing this, is that your heart and your feelings are just as much or if more important! Cause in order for YOU to be truly happy, you have to BE happy!!! I'm not saying, forget about making the other person happy, it's all you! I'm not saying that at all. You need to be happy while making the other person happy as well. And if that person is not doing there share of making you happy, I saw dump em'. I know, "It's just not that easy." But seriously, if the right guy/girl comes along, they will make it a 50/50 effort. Trust me! And you will be much more happy by waiting and finding that person.

I am one of many human beings who just want to settle down and get married! It's been a desire of mine for quite some time, so when it comes to bad relationships, we are the kind of people who get into them A LOT! Take my last relationship for example. He was a very attractive guy, very smart, funny and not to mention a pretty good kisser. At first everything went great! My hormones were all a-racin and the world was turning the direction I wanted it to turn. Life was great! But as the months went by, I started to really see him for who he was, and I also realized that he wasn't giving much back to me. All he ever wanted to do was make out and that started to bother me. Lets just say he was one horny son of a B.

I had realized all to late that that's mostly what we did, and I wanted so much more then that! So I tried to slow down the making out and started seeing who he really was. When he didn't get a make out for a certain amount of time, he started to get antsy. The more we just talked the more I realized what this guy was like. The first time he revealed his true self was when we were driving and arguing about religion. He hated my religion and would remind me often. I said something that set him off and while he was driving he reached over and grabbed one of my breasts really hard. He didn't let go until I started to yell in pain, and when he finally let me go he just kept on driving in silence. I had a huge bruise the next day.

I thought he was just angry and got a little ouf of control. It happens to everyone right? So I let it go. Yeah, I was pretty stupid. A few times he would grab my wrists very hard and shake me, screaming at me to shut up when we got in fights. And even worse, he would get annoyed with his nephew and twist his arms until he begged him to stop. This was getting to much. I mean, I could care less about him abusing me, but when he hurt a 6 year old little boy, that was just way out of line. But I was scared of him. So I didn't say anything. He also sexually tried to abuse me, but I would NOT let that happen.

As the days went on we decided to get married. But when I really got to see who he was, I wanted to call it off, but I was scared he wouldn't like that and hurt me even more. But finally I called it off and I never saw him again. I couldn't sleep at night for the fear that he would come and kill me or something. But he never did. I was very lucky.

So there are many ways you can get hurt, that is one of them. Another kind is hurting because you don't feel loved mentally and spiritually. I've had many boyfriends who wouldn't want to be seen with me in public cause other girls might see that they have a girlfriend. I've been cheated on and I've been used to get other girls. It was no fun.

But then, after searching and searching, I found the most perfect guy who has a 50/50 attitude. It took a road of broken hearts and years of learning to find him, but I did. And I couldn't ask for anything more! Good things come to those who wait, and boy was he worth the wait!!!

All I'm saying is, be patient. Don't just settle for someone when you could find the most perfect guy/girl for you! You may not think you deserve the best, but I mean, come on! Who does? No One! Cause all of us are not perfect and all of us make mistakes. Its about finding something better to make YOU better. Cause when you have negative things surrounding you, you also become negative. But if you find that someone who makes everything seem right in your life, your life will feel and be right! Everyone deserves the best, no matter what you've done, where you've been or how you see yourself. EVERYONE deserves that PERFECT someone.