No! No! my mind screams – it is as a misprint. I am the dancer, life is the dance! That’s how it is supposed to be. I direct my life and life conforms to my will. Isn’t that what the Secret tells us – all I have to do is ask?

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I so want to say this is so, but then I examine my life and see that it has danced me. In fact, every time I tried to take over the lead and make life dance to my direction, well, all I can say is “it hasn’t been pretty.” Let me explain with examples.

Several times in my life, I’ve fell into situations that have worked out to my benefit. I was allowing life to be the dancer and synchronicity happened - the Universe conspired for my good.

For example, I arrived in Seattle, fresh out of graduate school. I was truly a poor student with $50, a paid for car, and a box of clothes. I stayed with a friend who provided not only a roof and bed but food. I needed work so I went to a temporary employment agency. They had just received an order for a technical writer. They asked me if I could do technical writing – I held up my master’s thesis and said with the utmost confidence – YES! I had no clue what technical writing meant. I interviewed and started the job the following Monday.

That was the beginning of an 18-year technical writing business. But for years afterwards I wondered whether I had taken the easy way out and not looked for my ‘real’ life’s work.

In graduate school, I was introduced to computers by seeing people spend hours punching in data. How boring can life get! Underneath that facade, I was terrified of my poor spelling ability and consequently poor typing skills. If spelling was a creative sport, I’d have a gold medal. Plus, secretaries typed and I was not going to be anyone’s secretary.

Back then if you made one mistake, you had to start over. I refused to have anything to do with computers. I was playing the role of dancer – you can’t make me!

Now, isn’t it funny that at the height of my tech writing business my company had over ten on-site computers. During the last few years of ownership of my tech writing company I saw a movement towards computer software and hardware documentation. The No! No! reaction was so strong in me that I sold the business.

Well, guess what I’m doing now – running an internet based (computer-based) business. And, let me tell you my dancer-ego is in overdrive, maybe even, hyper drive. Can’t, won’t, life’s against me! It says “Colleen, you are in the wrong profession!” Every step is like climbing Mount Everest without oxygen. Then, there’s an avalanche, and I have to dig my way out just to be able to begin retracing my steps upward.

Give it up. Let go!

But I know I’m on the right dance floor, I just need to let go and be danced. I enrolled in an internet marketing class. I thought that was surrendering – NOT! My turbocharged ego is in opposition to computers. That feeling of opposition is a norm for me, an old dysfunctional thought pattern. And a persistent one at that.

To help me learn the dance of my life, I know I have to let go, surrender my ego.

And to do that I guess I better use my own ‘Total True Love’ process and find my true ‘computer’ nature or keep fighting myself.

The Total True Love Process

Step 1. Rewire my old pattern of thinking. Tolle would say dysfunctional thinking.

Step 2. Surrender into the possibility. In my case, that I am a successful internet marketer using computers rather than being frustrated by them.

Step 3. Get a new definition of me and computers

Step 4. Be that new definition in my everyday world.

Step 5. Do what comes natural for me. (Writing Hubpages comes natural for me.)

In week two of this class I’m taking, many people were voicing their overwhelm. I knew I could help, so I wrote and recorded a meditation for them. Note the last two words in the previous sentence – for them. No! No! I can see that I wrote that meditation for myself. So now I am listening, everyday for 30 days just like the astronauts and their concave glasses.

I’m in for a dose of my own medicine, and I need it.

The 5 steps above are also the same 5 steps for finding true love even if you are overweight, divorced, non-trusting, or widowed.