Amazon Woman's Reproductive Rampage

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By Tannars


Honest--I was not on a reproductive rampage or maternal vision quest.

Accidental Fertility should be a warning to women that are not ready for a baby and a reasonably strong case for hopeful women that have been trying unsuccessfully for a baby.

My story is true and credible. It could have happened to just about any woman. Penicillon was discovered by accident and so was my own fertility.

I was not planning to have a baby--I began to study natrual, herbal remedies as a hobby when I was about 16, worrying about everything from my complexion breaking out to water weight. Over the counter pills and topical creams just did not seem to work with my body chemistry. I found I had a lot more success using natural, herbal teas and supplements.

For years I managed everything from my weight to my monthly mood swings with herbs, diet and exercise. I seemed to always have my nose in my Herb Book which I still consult regularly. In fact it is still in heavy circulation and can be found in every Health section of book stores. In addition I have collected a few others but I still have my favourite.

I had spent the majority of my life managing birth control and really trying to avoid conception at all costs. Even after I was married my husband and I were busy getting through university then trying to establish our careers and having a baby was the last thing on our minds.

At 36 years of age I decided it was time to take a stand. My husband, 9 years older than myself had never expressed a desire or need to have children and nor did I but at 36 I knew I was at a cross road. After a philosophical reflection I arrived at this juncture:

" to be a mother....or not to be a mother..that is the question." I began contemplating my destiny mortality, biology, fertility and mobility. Ultimately the unverse delivered this verdict--"if I never have a child I can not gaurentee that I would or would not regret the decision..but, if I did have a child I am sure I would not regret having a child." After sequestering myself for days wrestling with the enormous responsibility of this question my personal jury delivered this verdict yet I still felt that the case of me having a baby was no closer to being solved--it was 50/50 and I felt like I stood before a judge that handed out no sentence, but simply dismissed the case due to a hung jury. Do I appeal? I wondered. I did something radical. I consulted my husband. He said something profoundly moving, "it's up to you! Your choice--I'm happy either way."

I took immediate action. I did nothing. I suppose you could say I left it to the universe, come what may. I was 36 years old with one tube. My 2 year depo-provera prescription had expired and so I did not see myself as a fertility Goddess--I mean statistically speaking I wasn't exactly in my prime child bearing years.

I decided to go on, business as usual. In fact--I out the whole notion of fertility right out of my mind. I did not practise andy birth control nor did I think about the possibilities of conception. I lead my busy, demanding life as a teacher and wife. I did however plunge myself into a weight loss, diet and exercise routine and became vigilant about what I ate, drank and the closely montitored my intake of herbal, supplements. I followed a regime that my herablist precscribed and a diet that my personal trainer recommended for toning and weight loss.

Within 3 weeks of deciding I would just carry on--I went for a pregnancy test and lo and behold I was! I began to research my diet and learned that the supplements and food I was eating were loaded with baby-making properties! In my decision to just be healthy and fit I had inadvertently turned myself into a fertility Goddess--everything I ate primed the canvas for conception--I was a hot bed, so to speak of baby making potencial!

Now, upon reflection. Motherhood, no matter how non-linear the path to get there--I can say, I've been there, but can I say I should have done that?

Well, my suspicians were right--I suppose my return home from the hospital was followed by some post pardom depression--but did I suffer from buyers remourse? Well, no more than anyone making a huge life changing, high risk for return life investment does--but, overall--no regrets--now I wouldn't want to repeat the performance or add to my investment--but, let's just say, I'm glad it's over with and I'm glad it's done.

Infact, some days I really don't know what I'd do if I hadn't outgrown that size 5 dress--my little boy's is pretty sweet. Motherhood, I'd recommend every ambivalent, well-adjusted woman feeling social pressure and something resembling maternal instinct, try it--at least, once.

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If that is what readers are interested in well I'll write all about it--no problem! Just ask--and in closing, happy recreative and procreative endeavors, one and all whomever you are and where ever you may be..

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