I was diagnosed with having mild bipolarism about 5 years ago. I never had to take medication fortunately, but I think that it really has affected my decisions in life. I feel that not all my desicions were made wisely and not all but some of the desicions were made due to my personality disorder. I was mentally and physically abused as a child and some times wonder if that was what triggered alot of my mental actions. I don't come from a very wealthy family so I was never with insurance once I turned 18. Now that I am not available for the doctor I try to stay on task and remember not to bring emotions out like in my younger days. So how do I know if I am mentally stable to carry out life?

I did finally get my relationship that I had been looking for and he's more than I could have asked for. He's trusting and approves of my desicions and treats me like a queen, not like the previous ones. I do have a passion for gardening unlike before when mixed with the wrong crowd. Well, Oh My God! Could it possibly be that maybe I am growing out of this thing that was once diagnosed to me? If God is willing and ready for me to be mentally ready to determined the correct emotions at the right time then God I am ready! This is exactly the reason why I right the things that come about. Thank you for reading my article of fate and please feel free to comment on my story or the topic.