HELLFIRE AND BLESSINGS

To Jesus, who is my personal Lord and Savior, not to mention we are BFF!

I thank You so much for this opportunity You have given to me, in sharing the material You have set and charged before me. The Father's Will be done!

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Hello, my name is Sciantel, but in my ministry I am also known as CASI: It means simply:

CHRIST'S

ASSISTANT

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IMMEDIATELY. It states it all, of who I am and Whom I work for. I am putting together a cyber book for you. About a few cases who have had a near death experience, including myself. I suffer from a serious illness called Lupus. But for right now it's not about me.  I wanted to put a book together for you. A book that isn't afraid to speak the TRUTH. The truth is simply this. That Jesus Christ is the Son of God. He was born in a human body, just as you and I have.  Only He never sinned because, He is God. He was tempted, just as we are tempted on a daily basis. The whole purpose why He came? It was to save us from our sins, and the eternal punishment we all face if not for Him. Sin is all those negative things we do, that does not, in any way, please God. See, He is perfect and without sin.  Those awful things we do. We might do them for attention, jealousy, greed. But all of it leads to one conclusion. It is REBELLION against God. God gave us the 10 Commandments in the book of Exodus, in the Old Testament of the Bible. He gave it through Moses, His servant. Well I am His servant too and He has chosen me to give these stories to you. It is true things. Not made up. Extraordinary things that have happened to very ordinary people, just like you and me. God wants us, His children, to be a holy people, just like Him, because He is Holy.  When we do something, that isn't a righteous thing, God calls it SIN.  And the Bible states it very plainly that sin separates us from our loving God. From being able to be His Holy people. So what then do we do? Are we beyond all hope? NO WAY! All we have to do to be right again with God, is accept His Son, Jesus Christ, who is the Messiah that He, God the Father, has sent. ( John 3:16)  We must accept Jesus and believe He is the Son of God, and accept His free gift offered to us by His death. That completely erases our sins, from the very first time we have sinned, to the last time before our death, that we will sin. If we do this, accept Him and His gift of taking our sins, we will then have eternal life with Him in Paradise. That means Heaven. Some people have had glimpses of Heaven, myself included. Some have had glimpses into that other place which is opposite of all good. That is Hell. Unfortunately, some will be spending their eternity in Hell just because they refuse to believe in His Name, and His free gift. For what reasons I cannot comprehend. It is sad. No one really ever wants to go to Hell. God has room for us all to go to Heaven, but He wants no puppets. We all must chose willingly, where we want to spend our eternity. I want people to know right here and now that God does not send people to hell. People send their own selves there because they get rebellious and stubborn, thinking their sinful lives better than the Paradise He has waiting for us. The lies of Satan need to be exposed. He has chosen me to expose them. I guess you could say I am on Satan's hit list. He doesn't like me or what I have to say.  It's up to you as the reader to believe these true stories or not. If you hear the truth and turn away from it, you will have no excuse on Judgement Day. If you turn away Christ you will be condemned. It is impossible for you to be without error. No good deed is good enough to get you into Heaven. You need Jesus Christ. None of us can climb that last step up. That is when we ask Him to lift us up. Some people think they don't ever sin. That they are just imperfect cause God made them that way. Be careful of this thinking. It will lead you straight to Hell. The Serpent in the Garden of Eden told Eve that she would not die and her eyes would be open if she disobeyed God and ate of the tree forbidden her and Adam. (Genesis 3)

God knows you were born imperfect. It is the curse of Adam and Eve. We all were born into sin. It's just the way it is, but you do not have to give up. Just turn to Christ, who God sent, to save you from the fate you never intended  being your afterlife. God never intended it to be your fate either. It's you who will actually make that choice. I hope you decide right. I really do. If you think I am just full of hot air, I hope you will read on, because Hell will not be a picnic to live in, and it will be eternal. Those of you who think there is no life after death, Satan is just fooling you. Would you like to gamble then, your life to see if I'm wrong? What if I and countless other Christians are right? Of all books written about religion, why is it the Bible has lasted the most despite impossible odds? Look at William Tyndale. He translated the first English Bible, and he was put to death for it. But it lived on even after he died. Why then has all the prophecies of the Bible come true, except the future related ones yet to occur, more than any other people's so called true book of  their false god? In fact, you can't live there in Hell at all and have any kind of life. It is the absence of life. God is Life. Hell is Death.  Choose. Life, or Death? One such man, who belongs to Jesus, was given a taste of Hellfire. Just a taste of what Hell is like. For 23 minutes. Here is his story... 

Bill listed his encounter with Hell, in a book called, 23 MINUTES IN HELL, if you are interested in purchasing. I am just going to briefly explain what he saw. For more detail, look up his name on the Internet. Bill Wiese, or try 23 Minutes In Hell, Bill Wiese. I want to include him in my book because his testimony had such a strong impact. So much so, God wants me to list it mostly in mine. Bill explained that the actual Hell is located somewhere within the Earth.  He also states in his book that there is also another place besides Hell, that is inside the Earth, where all the faithful went after they died, before Jesus came and died on the cross, then after He died they were freed to go to where the Father is.  Because they were righteous by faith, God kept them separate from the other part, where Hellfire is, and where people are being tormented day and night. Jesus described it in a parable of his. About the rich man and the poor man. The rich man lived high on his money and wealth while the poor man sat at the gate with sores the dogs came and licked. The rich man died and went to Hell. The poor man died too but he went to where Abraham was. They could see into each other's realm, but a great dividing darkness separated them from each other, where none could cross over into the other's realm. ( Luke 16:19-31, 1 Peter 3:19, and Ephesians 4:8 ) God is our Eternal  Loving Parent, and He does not want us to come to harm in any way. The world is so screwed up because He loved us enough to give to us a free will to do what we want.  It isn't His fault if we let ourselves perish to a terrible place. It is our own! 

Some people refuse to worship a God that is like that. That would allow people to go to Hell. They say He is too judgemental. But the truth is, it is the complete opposite! He loves us so much. Did you know that He does not hold children accountable for their actions until they come of age. That is the age of accountability. Bill stated that he saw no children in Hell. Of course not! They are not all grown up yet. They are all automatically covered by His Blood until they reach adulthood.  It is amazing how He gives us chance after chance after chance to come to Him and simply repent. He does not want us to perish after we become adults, but He can't make us believe. We will believe what we will believe. Free will is a beautiful gift. A gift you can surrender and give back to God.  Take our freedom for example. That is a wonderful gift from God too. But if we abuse these gifts, we will lose them forever! The experience Bill went through, by no means did he ask for it, or even wanted it. None of us wants to purposefully go to Hell. To purposefully suffer there in unmentionable horrors, forever.  But we have to choose. It is why we are here. To decide. To be on the side of Life, or to be on the side of Death.  On a personal note, I am so thankful for His warnings! He has given to me eternal life, and also to anyone else who will listen to this warning and do the simplest thing before it becomes too late.  It isn't painful. It doesn't hurt at all!  All we have to do is accept the free gift the Lord Jesus Christ is willing to give you. An eternal life in Heaven with Him! Too awesome to conceive! But you have to be willing to walk away from your disbelief and your sins. Hell is not worth you hanging onto it. So let them go right now and come take His hand. Ask Him right now to have His heart inside of you, instead of yours. He will do it. One time I was at a point where I had to ask Him to do this for me. I was becoming too bitter.  Bill's horrifying trip into Hell only lasted less than a half an hour.  You cannot imagine what eternity is going to be like there, without God.  It is as it states, the endless state of agony.  It has become Bill's urgent purpose to tell others and it has become mine as well. I had a vision. In it I felt unexplainable terror of what people were awaiting even though I didn't see it as Bill did. But it is my duty to get this book out, as important as it is Bill's.  He and I are here to tell anyone who will listen, what they are in for if they deny Christ. He and I both hope that your reading this will be the only thing of Hell you will ever come to know.

Bill was in his bed. He had gone to sleep. But then suddenly he was hurled out of his bed! He was cast down below the Earth, into a cell that was 15 feet high, and 10 feet wide.  The walls were of a rough stone with rigid bars on the door. Bill felt at that moment he was in a temporary holding cell.  A place in Hell that a prisoner would await whatever amount of time, until an even more horrifying destiny would come. ( Isaiah 24:22, and Proverbs 7:27 ) refer to it as being said: CHAMBERS OF DEATH, in Hell.

As Bill laid there inside his cell he was extremely weak. He had a body. Not his physical one like before, but a body just the same. It appeared to be the same as what he had had on Earth.  He lifted up his head to look around.  He became aware then that he was not alone in his cell! He saw two enormous creatures, unlike anything he had ever seen before! These creatures were awful and stood over 10 feet tall! These two creatures were far from being intimidating. It is one thing to become threatened by someone bigger and stronger than yourself. These two creatures were far beyond anything naturally found on the Earth. They belonged here, not anywhere that had any good in it.  Bill knew that they were the very presence of evil. They looked at him with a unrestrained hatred.  Bill by now was paralyzed with fear! Evil and Terror were standing right before him! They were a very intense and concentration of what evil is. Bill, still having no idea where he was, felt utterly panicked. This was so unfamiliar with anything he had ever known before, with no understanding of how he got here, wherever here was. Still he was faced 

with the realization that a torturous death was still to come.

I do not know anybody overstating the terrors of Hell. In fact, I believe that it was even more horrid than Bill could describe. In his book he also said that when he had first arrived in his cell, he was naked, and it was so hot that, he knew he should of just burned up till nothing was left, but was amazed at why he did not instantly crumple to ashes. Know this for sure, that hell is a prison system God keeps the lost in, away from His people or His Paradise.  When we all die, we must go somewhere. If not into the loving arms of Jesus because they had denied Him in their life, than straight downward into the very bowls of Hell itself. The Bible has so many places where it describes Hell. It is called the Pit. The Grave. Hades. So,  if  after this life on Earth is through, not into the protection of the Lord, a soul will go to the only other choice. Down to its merciless chambers of unimaginable terrors. Where there is no justice of any kind. No guards to see that the prisoners are not harmed. A place most foul, with the foulest of inmates. Like Hitler, murderers, and rapists, not to mention the worst of these, the fallen angels who tried to rise up against God. They absolutely hate Humanity.  All who arrive in hell will fear and tremble from dread. Even the most evil of men who thought they were invincible. Anyone would recoil from its awful reality! So why do we deny it exists when we are alive? Jesus died so He could keep us from ending up in this place, and His dying wasn't an easy one. He did it because He knew how bad it was there. He is God.

Bill knew these creatures were not animals, and they were not human either. Each giant beast resembled a reptile in appearance, but the ability to take on human form.  Their arms and legs were not equal in length. Out of proportion. No symmetry. Lacking beauty and balance in the arrangement of their form.  Grotesque in every way. The first one had these bumps all over its horrid body, full of scales. It also had a huge, protruding jaw with gigantic teeth, and large sunk in eyes. Bill knew this thing was very powerful, even here. Bill was so weak but this thing would not have any problem breaking him in half. It had thick legs and abnormally large feet. It paced around the cell in a violent rage, like a caged bull out for blood. Bill knew it was extremely ferocious, and he had no way to defend himself if it should decide to attack him.  The second beast was taller, and thinner.  It had very large arms and razor sharp fins that covered its body. Protruding from its hands were claws that were nearly a foot long.  It had a personality that differed from the other one. No mistake, it certainly was not less evil than the other.  It remained still. Bill could hear the creatures speaking to each other. Although he could not identify the language, somehow he understood their words. Terrible blasphemies expressing extreme hatred towards God. Suddenly they turned their full attention to Bill! He felt he was instant prey to the most hungry, ready to tare him apart, predators.

This same thing goes on in our movies and television. How we just love to watch creatures with no love or concern for people, just tare them up. People don't even realize that this is happening in real life! In a place unsafe for anyone. I will never again watch a horror flick the same as I used to.  God has made me wiser by Bill's testimony.

Bill was terrified! What were these creatures going to do to him? In Hell no one can help you. Your all on your own.

Please try to understand that people who have gone to Hell and experienced what Bill has, are dead, so in the first place, they cannot die again. God said that we shall die but only once, some will experience Second Death. ( Romans 6:23 states that the wages of sin is death. ) That means all who die without Christ to intercede for their sins will experience its awfulness. ( Job 16:22 states that we are all going to die one day and not return. ) So those who have died and are in Hell, by no means are going to return to this life to tell how awful it is there, and they are never going to get a second chance of the good things in life again.  Obviously Bill got a second chance cause he is alive to tell his story. ( Hebrews 9:27 states that we all will die once, then be judged. ) Doesn't state how long we might have to wait to be judged. Just that we will be judged.  Those who accepted Jesus Christ into their life, like me, will not know this judgement, because Jesus was judged in their place, and took their punishment. But He is God so He defeated the power death would have on their lives. Thus He overturned death into victory. Death has no more power over them. But only for the ones who believe and trust on His name. ( John 3:16 )

Bill felt like an insect compared to the enormity of them before him. What could he possibly do? He had never felt more helpless, trapped, and utterly frozen in fear! He knew he was the object of their hostility.

God never wanted any person on Earth to end up in this place. It was only intended for the angels that turned away from Him, who followed after the first angel who had rebelled. Who now is known as Satan. Certainly God does not want anyone to perish in this awful place, but He did give us free will. You may question why it is this way. So first we need to take a closer look at God. 1. He is sinless. That means without sin or a flaw. Innocent even though people are falling into Hell every day. He doesn't cause any of that. We do! What if someone gave you a credit card and said there was $500 on it. To go and spend it wisely. Beware though, that you would have to pay it back one day if you did not invest in the stock he told you to. As long as you invest in this you will never get in debt. It is a sure thing. But you do not listen to him. You instead think you have a better way to invest than his system, but then you run out of the credit and he comes back demanding his investment. Are you getting the picture now? Is it his fault if you made the wrong choice and went into debt, where you had no way to pay it back to him. You have to now go to prison for a long long time. As long as it takes for you to pay back every cent, and you know in prison you will ever make 1 dime!  So please, I beg,grow in Him, for to fear the Lord is the way to wisdom. In Him you can overcome anything. Any debt. ( Revelation 21:7) 

We are born here mainly to get to know our God, and learn of His Truth. Or we can simply turn away from it. We will be without excuse if we turn away from His Truth, to believe another because he gave us the Bible as our map leading us to His Eternal Life. That is only done through His Son Jesus Christ. Of course I know that not everyone is going to believe the Bible as the set Truth on the subject of God and a life after death. But they will be without excuse none the less! ( Romans 1:8-32 ) Whether they intentionally wanted to go to Hell instead of standing with the One True God of the Universe, He gives them no excuse. The Christian is not excused from their sinning. No, by all means! They simply had to trade places with the One God sent, His Son, to take away the sins of all who believed. We were not guiltless anymore than those who refused themselves Christ. That is why they are in Hell condemned. They stubbornly turned their backs on His Salvation, for whatever purpose they thought important. Lucifer, the first of God's angels to fall, started this sickness. It's like this: A man had many sons. This man's house was big. In it they all ate 3 kinds of ice cream. Strawberry, chocolate and vanilla. Besides these flavors there was no others. One of the man's servants to his house decided he didn't want these 3 flavors. He wanted a flavor he could call his own. He wanted to eat ice cream the flavor of poop. This is how I perceive Lucifer turning away from God. And he got as many as were willing to turn away from the wonderful 3 flavors of ice cream, to eat the most disgusting new flavor, the man had never intended for his servants, let alone, his children. Lucifer, and this story are one and the same. It is how I see sin. Look at it like this also: The universe is God's body and we are all one individual cell inside that grand body. If any of us do not want to live by His law, we become abnormal. Just like a cell turning cancerous actually. a cell that was once normal turned to an abnormal cancer cell.  Lucifer was the first cell to change, but it was all done by his free will. Not accidentally. Not that he was flawed either. It is a mystery to me. Whomever he got to listen to him, changed from normal to abnormal as well. Angels and humans both. God therefore has no choice but to cut out and throw away any cell in His body that rebels.  See, we are connected to God through the body of Christ.  But all who rebel will be dealt with most harshly. They will be cut off and die.  God is the immune system that gets the job done.

Bill felt that this place was the most evil and horrifying place in existance. It was only death here, not life.

If we only die once, meaning our physical bodies, than what Bill was experiencing was like a different level into being dead. Revelation refers to it as the Second Death. The first death is of our physical bodies. The second death is what occurs to our soul when entered into Hell. ( Revelation 2:11, 20:12-15 ) ( Also is the state the Lake of Fire will cause the lost. ) 

Bill knew a worse death awaited him. He felt the fear of death much stronger in Hell, than anyone could ever have known on Earth. Because this death is a new and different one that goes on and on with the person still conscious!

I remember a movie flick I saw, about a man who was lying in the morgue. His body was dead but he was still aware. Despite the fact that he could no longer move in his body. He could still see what was happening around him and hear, plus feel pain when they cut into him! Bill faced this kind of torment too from the ones who roamed about his cell!

Bill knew that those creature's hatred was entirely directed at him now! He could not identify what those beasts were at the moment, but he knew they meant to hurt him in the most horrible ways!

I am utterly convinced after Bill's story, that all who die have a body. Not their physical one anymore but still have a body. A different body but one just the same. Bill mentioned he noticed he had no bodily fluids, like blood, urine. But he knew those beasts could tare him apart if they wanted to.  Beasts could repeat this too because I believe that every one's body can regenerate so to speak. If their leg is ripped off, another would grow back, but not perfectly because in Hell is found no perfection. Lizards have that ability you know. To grow back their tail if it gets cut off. But the pain while having a limb torn off! I cannot imagine it! None here can. Only those in Hell know. Also, they no longer have the ability to faint or fall into unconsciousness. These things God gives us the ability to do in our physical bodies, and it is a blessing. To be able to pass out. But in Hell is found no blessings. Bill also spoke that no one was quite to the point of being insane because that is a protective ability our physical bodies have too, when faced with too much. Not in Hell. It is faced, period. They are dead to begin with, are they not.The same rules do not apply! 

Bill wanted despertly to get up and run for his life! But as he lay there on that wretched floor in his cell, he had absolutely no strength to do so. He could hardly move! Why didn't he have any strength?

I am wondering about that. First off, have you ever been so wiped out on a very hot day? No energy. The heat has that effect, so why not in Hell? Also gravity might be much more dense at the Earth's core, meaning it would make it harder to move. Certainly a person's soul is subject, even after death to these conditions I would think.

Bill kept thinking how defenseless he was!

( Pslam 88:4 states it as a man counted with them who goes down into the Pit, that has no strength. )

Bill knew it was much more than a physical weakness he was feeling. It was a weakness in every form. He was mentally and emotionally drained, despite the fact that he hadn't been there that long. Only a few minutes.

Every one of us has encountered a loss of strength or weakness from illness or shock. Distress and grief, but we always in time, spring back. But Bill noticed that he wasn't. Jesus our Messiah viewed Hell as the banishing place for fallen angels, and that it was not ever meant for Mankind. Mankind was made in His image to have fellowship with Him in Glory, for all eternity. Such awful creatures that now were who once had been His angels, were to be banished away from Him forever, into outer darkness with no means of escape. This state should fill us with horror!

With the dread of him never regaining his strength back, Bill feared he would remain like this for all time! years would go by and he'd still be the same as he was this moment. Never able to recooperate. He felt a crushing despair at the thought of this.  Hopelessness came upon him now as a mighty physical weight even, crushing his spirits. No hope no hope no hope! Two more creatures then came into his cell. Bill felt they had been assigned to him, but not for anything good at all.

God assigns Angels to us. For protection. So in Hell Bill was assigned 4 demons to administer deaths to him.

Bill felt the 4 creatures were sizing him up, and that his torment would be their uttermost pleasure. Merely for their amusement. A light had occompanied Bill the whole time he had come here, then suddenly it now went out! It was absolutely pitch black now. Bill did not understand why the intense and utter darkness had begun now? He had felt before, that the light that had been there, had not belonged in this place to begin with. That now Hell had returned to its normal state of darkness.

Lamentations explains it as: He has set me in dark places like the dead of long ago.

One of the creatures then picked Bill up, and the strength of that beast was unbelievable! Bill compared his weight as being a glass of water in its hands.

( Mark 5:3-4 states the abnormal strength of a man possessed. No one could bind him. No chain could do it. The chains had been pulled apart by him, the shackles broken in pieces.)

Bill knew the creatures' strengths were 1000 times greater than a man's. Bill did not know how he knew that bit of information, just that he knew it. He had a keener sense of things here.  For instance, he knew he was actually 3700 miles deep into the Earth.  The beast then threw Bill against a wall. He crumpled onto the floor. It felt as if every bone in his body was broken. Bill felt pain, but he also felt like he hadn't received the full impact yet, for some reason, he did not know why?  

He wondered how it was being blocked? The full impact he had not received. The second beast, the one with razor sharp claws, and sharp fins, this one was with the first one he had seen right after arriving here. Not of the other two. This one was the taller and thinner of the first two. It grabbed Bill now from behind, in a bear hug, and as it forced Bill into its chest, its sharp fins pierced into his back! Bill was the equivalent to a rag doll, in comparison to the creature's enormous size. The creature then reached around and plunged its claws into Bill's chest, ripping them back outward. Bill noticed what appeared to be some flesh from his chest, was now dangling onto the creature's claws. Flesh also hung like ribbons from his chest, as he fell to the cell's floor. These creatures Bill knew, had no respect for the human body whatsoever.

Sound like some horror flick to you? You finding this all hard to believe? It was really happening to Bill Wiese of southern California. A realtor, who was no differnt than you and me. Someone just trying to make ends meet. He had his good days and bad, just like us. Do you think he deserved to go to Hell and be treated in this inhuman, ghastly way? Do you think you do? God did not want this to be Bill's fate anymore than He wants it to be yours.

How remarkable the human body truly was. But these creatures could care less, possessing no such emotions as love or remorse. Only a constant hatred for Bill. Bill had always taken good care of his body. He ate well and exercised, but none of that mattered now. His body was being destroyed before his eyes! He knew this was a death come to him, beyond the physical one already experienced. He was fully aware. No bliss of unconsciousness. He could not escape this! That was not an option for him. Death was happening to him, except oblivion was not present, as some might think happens after death. These awful creatures' main purpose was to destroy Bill, while he was aware and could feel. They lived to torment and terrorize him. ( Psalm 116:3 ) How Bill wished he could just now avoid all this terror. To not be aware any longer would be his highest blessing. But he was not in the presence of Grace any longer. He felt this. It is part of what makes the hopelessness so bad. He pleaded before them to show mercy but you see, they hadn't mercy in them. They were just not capable of that feeling. That is what pure evil is. See, mercy comes from God. The absence of mercy was what this place was about. The absolute separation from God. The mental anguish Bill felt was indescribable! Asking such beasts to show him mercy only egged them on to do more harm. It was what they wanted in the first place. But Bill knew that to give them what they wanted could never make them torment on him any less. There was no pleasing them. No favors done in Hell. There is no order. No blood came from Bill's wounds. No fluids, not even water was found here. The negative realities of Hell is so far beyond us humans here on Earth. Bill could hardly describe it even if he ever did get away. Bill couldn't stop wondering at this time, why his body had no fluids now? He was however, extremely nauseated from the foul smells coming from those awful creatures. It was absolutely disgusting, foul and rotten. By far the most putrid smells Bill had ever encountered. But 1000 times worse here than any bad smelling things on the Earth's surface.  Bad odors was what this place was about. That and the strength of these demons, not to mention the loudness of others screaming and in constant torment. The dryness and the loneliness felt.  Somehow Bill managed to move a bit. He dragged himself across the ground toward the barred door.  He couldn't see mind you, but somehow knew what direction it was in. He came to find it had been left open, but he also felt these things had done that on purpose playing with him. They let him crawl, for now, out from his cell, but in his weakened state he couldn't get anywhere far. 

As soon as Bill made it out the door, his first instinct was to get as far away from this place and these creatures as he could.  He desperately just wanted to get up and run, but that was not possible. All he could do for the moment is use every ounce he had just to get up to his feet.  Every move took such effort. He wondered why it was so difficult? To do something as effortless as getting to one's feet. After tremendous exertion he finally got up and stood.  He was, at that moment, so overwhelmingly exhausted and frustrated! Simple steps felt like pulling lead! He could not run. That was no option whatsoever. Fear was bound around him like a snake never going to uncoil itself around its prey.  Bill was horrified at the untold number of screams he heard.  A multitude of people crying out in torment! It was absolutely deafening! The terror filled screams seemed to go right through him, penetrating his very being.  Bill remembers a television special where a news reporter spent a night in a prison to experience what prison life was like first hand. Some prisoners were crying, while others moaning, and yelling all night. It was nerve racking!  The news reporter had said that he could not sleep that night. It was just too noisy.  Well, Hell was far far worse to Bill, and he only spent 23 minutes there, not all night!

God chose Bill to stay in Hell first hand for 23 minutes, so that he could then tell people what he saw, felt and heard. God chose me too. To write a book about some of the near death experiences that I have heard about. One of them is of my very own experiences, but unlike Bill's, mine are positive, but I will get to mine later. There are countless people out there in the world who do not know Jesus Christ. These people are going to end up where Bill went, but they will not be rescued, unless God makes a way for them to be able to be revived to talk about it. Do not risk your eternity and deny yourself the truth. People die every day without the protection of Christ.Churches do not like to preach that. But mine does. Mine tells the truth, even when it isn't popular.  

Through the panic, and deafening noise, Bill struggled to gather his thoughts.  " I'm in Hell! This place is real and I'm actually here! " He frantically tried to comprehend.  But him being here in such an awful place like the eternal Hell everyone has heard about at least once in their whole lifetime. It was just too inconceivable! But here he was! " Not me! I'm a good person! " He thought. The fear of this was just too intense, he could not bear it! But again he knew he could not die, again. Not in the sense that he had known of. That was past. He knew he could never leave here. Bill also knew that the people up-top, on the surface of the Earth, most did not even believe that this place existed. But a whole other world down here was real! This place before Bill was more terrorizing, so intensely hostile. It was impossible for him to exaggerate the horrors here. Bill wondered 

how he had got here, and, the fact that Bill knew God through His Son Jesus, was being kept from him! The scriptures do state that God can keep things from Man's mind. But the Lord would reveal all He had in store for Bill.

See, God had to send someone firsthand, to know literally what it felt like, first, to be lost. To die without Christ. Christ used Bill so that he would come back to tell about how bad it is down there! This is so you, the non-believer, will have no excuses and know just what your getting yourself into if you should turn God's Son away. You can't state to God one day that you were never told. I pray this explode on the internet to reach so many more than I could ever hand out personally a month. I am limited, with my disease and all, but this means in which I am ministering is not. I will reach a lot of people for Christ each and every day. They in turn can lead people to this webpage. On and on, reaching a lot of people! Satan will not stop this.

Bill, as he stood outside his cell, felt the actual darkness all around him, like it was a substance. ( Exodus 10:21 ) It was not like any darkness on Earth. Bill was once in a coal mine in Arizona, that was completely void of light, but this place was even darker. More than just a blackness, but a presence.

When I was a child I went down into this deep dark cave up in the Black Hills. They turned off all the lights just to show us how dark it got. I will never forget how it made me feel. I didn't like it! I want also to state that God chose the least of His servants to write this to you, because I have abnormal fears, and yet here I am, writing about the very thing that scares me the most. Pitch black darkness! Monsters in the darkness! This you should find very fascinating, that someone so scaredy cat would have the guts and courage to let themselves be placed right smack in the midst of the most horrid place and experience a human being can, and do encounter. I get my strength from God, my Redeemer! I was called to do this. I even hesitated but you see, God is a perfectly good NAG, at getting the job done, and, He would not let up until I agreed to do this for Him. I love people even though most have been very cruel to me. God in me, does not wish anyone to perish. I am trying to overlook my own fears of dark things, to get this done. For I see Angels, and they come to administer to me, but because of this I also see demons who'd like to have me dead! I love the Lord with all my heart, and that is my greatest weapon against this enemy. He gives me my strength. I require special strength, more than the average person, just to make it through one day. I have a serous disease. It's called Lupus. It is like arthritis but it can be much worse. It attacks my connective tissues. Of my organs, cells, and my brain. It becomes a struggle just to leave my house. I have these bad spells where I can pass out, but I do not let it rule over me. I have to watch my blood sugar so close whenever I go out. I have to carry on my person at all times bubble gum, and peanuts for protein. Candy with high sugar. See my disease takes away nutrients from my body, nutrients I need just to have the strength for day to day living. I get fevers and headaches. Joint pain. Colon spasms. My life has not been an easy one. I  get infections very easy. This disease starves me so I have to eat many small meals every day. I have to watch my sugar and protein levels very closely. If either gets too low I will pass out. Many times I've had to go out to get something. Like needing to go to the store. I walk or ride my bike. God never had me learn to drive. With my disease I could pass out at the wheel. On my bike if I begin to feel faint I can stop and lie down on the side of the road or street. If I drove it would be harder. At the mall I have to lie down on a bench till it passes when I get faintly. I've had this condition since I was a little girl. I've had to live with it all my life. But God still had great things planned for me. I have to rest a lot and not get over tired. God had to give me the strength to endure Bill's story.

Bill states that the normal darkness of a cave is nothing compared to the darkened state of Hell.

It was as if the darkness here was a power all its own, and it had nothing to do with God whatsoever! It was a world separated from God. With its own way of things. This awful power here totally defeated all whom it captured. It consumed Bill. This darkness wasn't just the absence of light, but it was more accurately, the absence of God's Light! At least on Earth, anywhere you go, even out into space, God is with you. But not here! God absolutely could not be felt here. He was being blocked!

I had a vision myself years ago, about a very dark, evil underground place where I could not feel God present.  I write horror stories that are Christian, and sometimes my dreams inspire me to write my stories. It does not feel good being outside of God's Presence. It is like a bubble. A universe all its own where God completely shut the door to His realm. Like a black hole that can't let even God's Light go forth.

Bill felt only evil and death. A place cut off from Life Itself.  Bill looked off to his right, and he faintly saw flames from way far, that just dimly lit the skyline.  He knew the flames came from a large pit.  It was a gigantic raging inferno, 1 mile in diameter, and about 10 miles away. This was just one of the many things he somehow knew.  The flames were intense, but this darkness just swallowed up the light. The skyline was barely visible. Bill knew that this darkness was somewhat like a black hole. In a black hole, the  gravity is so strong, it actually stops light from traveling, and it cannot escape from the hole. The darkness in Hell, was like that.

I believe the intense gravity was too. Was why no one could hardly even move about.

The only visible area was that in which the flames exposed. The ground was all rock, barren and desolate. Not one green or living thing did he see. It was just a complete wasteland. ( Ezekiel 26:20 ) Even in the deserts on Earth, contain some kind of life, that can adapt to the harsh environment. Not so in Hell.  Even a desert has natural beauty. Not there in Hell.  God was just not there, period.  One of Bill's most painful thoughts was that he could never get to his wife. She had no idea of his awful existence here. He would never, ever see her again.

God had to let Bill feel what the lost in Hell truly are feeling. That was why God blocked Bill's memories of his faith in Christ.

Bill could never begin to explain his doom here to his wife if he ever did see her again. People just don't believe such a place exists, let alone its terrors. Bill knew that Hell was a place of unrelieved torments, and horrible misery. A place of total darkness without God. A place of sheer terror and pain for both a person's body and soul. A human body could never last long here at all. The soul goes on and on, but in a state such as this, it is not life any longer, but the continual existence of death. Hell had different punishments.  But the least punished here would not be able to take it, or have the strength to. It could not be tolerated in any way, let alone the worst torment here. For Bill to never see his wife again. They had been so close. In Hell Bill experienced such intense anguish and loneliness.  There is also the realization of the separation from God. From any kind of a good thing. That it was permanent. Hopelessness crushes the individual.

People who commit suicide think it can't ever get any worse than their pain in living so why live. If only they knew! Oh they enter an even worse state of being, one they will never get away from. Anyone reading this that is deciding suicide, please reconsider. There is somewhere worse than  your life here on Earth. I do not want you to end up in it!

Bill understood that he was never getting out of this place. He was never going home.  ( Psalm 140:10 ) Bill couldn't even tell his wife what had happened to him.  The knowledge alone was a crushing blow to his soul.  Too much to endure.  The air was filled with smoke. A filthy decaying odor hung in the oxygen depleted atmosphere.

If you are thinking how can a person breathe if their dead? A spirit. ( Genesis 2:7, God breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and man became a living being. ) It didn't say that man's body became a living thing. That man's BEING became living. I know our spirits breathe.

Was as if all the oxygen had been sucked up by the high leaping flames in the distance. He could barely breathe.

Accept Jesus Christ right now and He will reserve you a place in His eternal Kingdom of bliss. Not to end up in Hell, in that very uncomfortable state of existence. We require more oxygen in our human bodies but our souls require the breath of God for our comfort. Deprive yourself of God's Blessings and you deprive yourself of any kind of comfort, cause God is comfort.  Being just barely alive even for your soul is not living. It's not life as God gives. It's only a living eternal death.

The lack of oxygen in the atmosphere left Bill gasping for every little bit of air. It was exhausting just trying to take in one breath. One of the worst sensations that Bill felt in Hell was he was so extremely thirsty! 

His mouth felt so dry, it was as if he'd been running non-stop through a desert, for many days. His eyeballs were dried out. There was absolutely no water or moisture whatsoever in this place.

I don't know about you but eyeballs so dry they hurt, every blink painful would be absolute misery!

How Bill longed for just one drop of water. It's like that parable that Jesus spoke of, about the rich man who went to Hell. ( Luke 16:23 ) Water had always been very precious to Bill. A world where there was no water would be misery indeed. Never to feel cooled off. Those little things that we all take for granted every day. The little things we don't count as blessings. All them come from God. To be apart from God means to be apart from any kind of blessing. Oh how Bill missed what he once had on Earth! 3 elements make up water. 3 Persons are One God. We cannot live without water and we cannot live without God! Bill feeling totally hopeless now, looked out at the barren desolation before him. He saw flames off in the distance. Memories flooded his mind then of the wonderful things he  had just had, not that long ago. Now all was taken from him. In its place, this misery, as far as his eyes could see. A huge cavern he was in. How long could he hold onto his good memories? In a place like this where only misery and torment remained, it wouldn't be hard to easily forget the good life that he once knew. There was no work here. No achievements or goals to make. To PERISH, means simply to become useless, and to become destroyed. When people die without Christ, they go to Hell, and they are stripped of every blessing they once had known. It's sad. It's just the way it is. Bill was lost in his misery and despair. How it was all he knew now. How could one have any time to stop and think about what he once had, if you cannot ever rest or relax. Not a moment to reflect on past good things. No cheering him up in any way. No one would ever help or comfort Bill here. Might as well be like they were all holograms, not really there. He felt totally alone despite the fact he heard the cries of others. No opportunity to speak to someone. He'd never get to know anyone here. His purpose in life was now non-existent. All life was over. A uselessness, a wasting away Bill felt now. Bill wanted his life back! Right now! He was powerless to change his surroundings. He thought about the ocean now, with its waves crashing upon the shore. The cool breeze and blue sky that he would never know again! He wanted to talk to someone so desperately. Anyone! But to have an intelligent conversation, any conversation for that matter, with a human being, would be a luxury. A blessing, and Hell doesn't have that!

I am going to recall for you now a dream-vision I had during my ministry services I was preparing to do with Bill's story. In my dream  a huge werewolf type creature was after me. It was horrid with horns coming out of its head! It was brown colored and had claws I just bet were a foot long. It kept coming after me. I went through door after door shutting them but it just smashed through them all and I knew it would get me. In the Spirit of the Lord I just knew there was no getting away from it even though I seemed right now to be staying ahead. I went up into a cupboard, past door after doors, but the thing was gaining on me. During this time I was crying wondering who or what could possibly help me? I could think of nobody! I believe this is how it is in Hell too. The Lord let me feel that kind of fear, just a little. But not like Bill did. Then all of a sudden, in my dream I recalled a Christmas song. It spoke about the Offspring of the virgin's womb. Then I remembered it was Jesus! JESUS. I remembered Him! The great awful beast then knew it had no power over me and began to die! I was free. I woke up then. Bill too, his relationship to Christ was kept from his memory during the time he was in hell.  Some people do have near death experiences, where they are able to be brought back. During their hellish experience they can recall Bible verses pertaining to Christ. One such man I will tell you about, was a heart patient of Dr. Maurice Rawlings. This doctor wrote a book called, TO HELL AND BACK, which I distributed for a while. But then I came across Bill's story and wanted to write a book myself using people's stories, including my own. All to the Glory of God! Anyway, Dr. Rawlings' patient had a heart condition. He one day was at the office on a treadmill. He began to run into trouble and the doctor lost his patient's pulse. While the doctor preformed CPR on the man, he kept coming to saying, " I'm in Hell! Please don't stop! Help me, help me what to do! Tell me how to get Jesus into my life! " Now the doctor at the time did not know Christ either. But he knew the scriptures well enough that he told his patient between chest compressions, " say, I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God. Now say it! " So the man did and the expression of fear changed to peace on his face. The doctor got the message too that day! Two lives were changed. The man recovered by the way.  I saw in my dream that people just do not know or remember anyone that could help them. They are past that point of receiving help. That is why hell is referred to in the Bible as, the land of forgetfulness. They will hold no conversations. ( 1 Samuel 2:9, Psalm 6:5, 88:12, Ecclesiastes 9:10 ) It is also referred to as the grave. Believe me people. It is worse there than having alzheimer's disease here. Jesus just will not come to mind for them. If they did not know Jesus when they were alive, why would they know Him when they are dead?  That is what Bill had to face firsthand.

Bill knew it was futile to entertain any good thoughts or have hope. Nothing good would happen to him ever again.  This was his new eternity! But an even worse one was to come for him in the future. The Lake of Fire. This was now just a place to hold them till that time came.  The lost will be punished with everlasting destruction. 

Away from the presence of the Lord. ( 2 Thessalonians 1:9 ) No one lives without God.

I wish to take a moment to speak something on my mind. There are so many things wrong with the way people believe in Jesus Christ these days. Let me first tell you a story about a nurse of Dr. Maurice Rawlings. She was into stuff she ought not be. Stuff that maybe you too are into. Stuff which you think gives you the edge to use the forces around you for your own benefit. To use nature as a tool to gain popularity, financial gains, and maybe to get you the one you love. It is very DANGEROUS what you are doing and it is Witchcraft! The Bible forbids you to practice in such affairs. Dr. Rawlings nurse. He called her brown eyes. She was so chipper and perky. But she was doing things she thought harmless. She began to become very ill very quickly. It started out her needing surgery, then after that she went down hill very fast, and she seemed to just waste away. Nothing the medical field could do. It was as if she cursed herself unto death.

Another case I am thinking of. Emily Rose. Remember that story. About a Catholic Priest who tried to preform an exorcism on her. First off, the family and her church should of treated her condition as a medical one the moment she stopped being able to eat. They should of hospitalized her at once. Then to bring the priest or minister in to pray for her. I will tell you this. If she really was possessed, you CANNOT be possessed if Jesus is present in your heart! A house cannot be divided against itself. So that first off discredits her for being called a Saint. She was no saint if the devil did dwell within her. To be a real Saint you have to have a personal relationship to Jesus Christ, and the devil or devils cannot enter to possess you, in the first place. People wake up! It is impossible! I see the Catholic Church as one of Christ's weakest of churches because they pray to the saints and have pictures of saints. Figurines of saints. Idols of Jesus. It falls into the category of idol worship and worshipping other gods besides the One true God. God said, YOU SHALL HAVE NO OTHER GODS BEFORE ME. YOU SHALL NOT MAKE ANY OTHER GODS. ( Exodus 20:1-5 ) Mary is not to be prayed to. Only God fits that, and Him alone.  I do not believe Mary comes in visions to people. She was human just like the rest. She was not a super human being. All fall short of the glory of God, this means all the saints too! ( Romans 3:23) So when Emily Rose saw a vision of the virgin Mary, she was being fooled. Satan also used this to fool the nations all the more, to have them believing in the spiritual realm, anything to keep people from the real truth, that you need Jesus personally in your life. Going to church doesn't automatically save you. Having your family believe and pray for you does not save you! Only Jesus Himself can save you, and you must go directly to Him your self. It does not work to have a priest do it for you! When you accept Jesus as your personal Savior and Lord, the Holy Ghost indwells, and if He is there, Satan sure cannot. A lot of people who think they are saved because they know who Jesus is and even believe, but it is not a PERSONAL relationship. What do you ask is a personal relationship then? You say, hey I believe in Him too. My family goes to church. I have all my life so I am saved. WRONG! Let me put it to you like this. Do you like pizza? You know pizza exists right. I happen to love pizza so it is a personal favorite in my life. I eat it often. Now let's say tomatoes. I know what they are. I know they exist but I personally never have eaten one cause I just don't want to. Doesn't fit with the foods I like. Jesus is the same way to people. You MUST make Him a personal part of your life. That means you ask Him to come into your heart, and your life. You do it. No one else can. No priest or minister can pray Him to you. You must partake of Him, like I partake in pizza cause, I LIKE IT! You've got to love Jesus to have Him a personal friend of yours. It's as simple as that. Just saying, oh hey yeah, I know of Him so I am saved cause He is what I've believed all my life. Well, is it a personal thing? Do you partake of Him every day? Try to do what He wants cause you LOVE Him? Do you love Him? Is He everything to you, or just something off from a distance that you do believe in. Do you LIVE for Him? Do you live for you instead?

In Hell all good things are taken from you. God is love and Hell is the opposite of God. All in Hell blew it because they did not have a personal relationship to God's Son. It must be personal! All who wants an eternity with Christ has asked Him themselves. You must because Salvation isn't given to us automatically. We have to ask Him for it. A priest cannot do this for you. You must ask Jesus yourself. ( Matthew 5:45 ) God is the One whom all good things come from. All the dignity you now have on Earth will be taken from you in Hell. The wicked will burn with fire but it will by no means consume up their bodies. But they will burn. They will feel great pain.

Bill was faced now with endless days filled with pain, terrible loss, loneliness and fear. A most miserable state he could not undo. It was impossible for anyone to be able to bear it. He had no mental escape. His memories of the good life he once had fled away very quickly because he was reminded constantly of where he was. He did not have the blessing of being able to call out to God any longer. That was only given to people who are still alive. Bill knew only this, that he was here in Hell cause when he had lived, he had not known God. The Lord didn't even come to his mind. It is by the Spirit of God that brings Jesus to our thoughts. It is by this same Spirit we are able to announce with our mouths that Jesus is Lord. ( 1 Corinthians 12:3 )

Jesus did not come to my mind in my dream when I was trying to get away from that terrible beast. Only when the Spirit reminded me when it was time. He put Him on my mind then because I belonged to Him. Bill belonged to Him too. But all in Hell no longer have that ability. So if your not sure that your relationship to Jesus is a personal one, just go to Him and say, I want a personal relationship with You. Come live in me Lord Jesus. I give up my sinful ways to follow You instead now. No one in Hell have that opportunity anymore. For that personal bond to God through His Son.

One of the demon creatures then grabbed Bill and carried him back into his cell. It threw him on the floor and another horrible creature grabbed Bill's head and began crushing it! Then all 4 of those hideous creatures were holding him down, each grabbing an arm or a leg, Bill all the while was helpless to prevent this. Bill was so far beyond being normally afraid, he could not describe it in words! They were just about to pull apart his body when all of a sudden Bill was outside the cell, and put next to that great pit of fire he had once viewed far off. I can't tell you the relief Bill felt to be away from those creatures and that fate he would of had! The enormous pit before him raged with such intense heat and flames. They leaped high into an open cavern. As Bill looked up into that dark, eerie, tomb-like atmosphere, it seemed as if it were a mouth that had swallowed up the dead to God. For the living dead in Christ were not here. He heard an untold number of people screaming. The heat was far beyond tolerable. Bill wanted to desperately escape before he found himself too, thrown into this mighty inferno. Bill compared it to what happened on 9-11. People had actually preferred to jump to their deaths, than to face the insane inferno that had become the two towers with them trapped inside. No way to escape. You either faced the heat of 2000 degrees or plummeted far down below. A person in that sort of heat would be incinerated in about 15 seconds. Some scientists speculate that the Earth's core temperature is 12000 degrees! To endure that sort of heat even for only 15 seconds would be impossible. Can you imagine burning for an eternity in that kind of heat? No incineration, just constant burning on and on. It is unfathomable! Bill could see the outlines of people through the flames. It appeared to be very physical despite he knew they all had died. The screams from the condemned was ear shattering! Not to mention relentless. There just simply was no safe place in hell. No safe or brief relief moment for anyone. You have heard it said about the merciless acts of terrorists. Imagine their victims knowing they were about to die in the most horrible way. In Hell this state of fear never leaves the person.

Can you imagine being afraid all the time, for an eternity besides the physical pain and agony? Bill saw that there also were people inside the massive pit. Horrible creatures surrounded the perimeter.  The people are too weak and can barely move, let alone try to revolt.  The beasts are stronger, taller and bigger than any human who has ever lived upon the Earth. No human can withstand them on Earth, especially those who get possessed by them. They completely lose to these things, let alone poor helpless, much weaker humans in Hell. No way out! These poor people were without any hope. Bill was so afraid he would be next to taste what they were now, their eternity had already begun. Had his?  At least people could still help each other on Earth.

I was helped once. At highschool I was being picked on real bad, this other teen told them to leave me alone. But in Hell no one gets that anymore.  We always get defensive if we see someone being hurt. Most of us are courageous enough to lend a hand.

Bill, despite what he saw, all these people tortured and in so much pain, he couldn't even help one of these lost souls. It only deepened his despair. He knew they were in an endless torment, an agony state. He only saw desperation and terror in their voices. He could not bear it.

I have cried many tears writing this. So try to recall your most fearful or painful moment. Indeed, all in Hell will meet fear with great intensity, with no one to rescue them. God had tried to reach them time and time again while they had been alive. But they never turned to the only Person He sent to help them, to keep them from ending up in this most horrible place and state of being. People do not think of later in their life. They just live for now. Forget about their futures or what could happen.Just live for the pleasure of right now. But be warned, your tomorrow will become you now, today, and it will be a permanent one! ( John 3:18, Matthew 11:16-19 ) They would not listen. Will you?  Do you have good eyes, good hearing here on Earth? I was not born with strong eyes or ears.

Bill could hear their screams and see their torments all the better than he could while alive.  All senses were heightened here.  He had a nose that could smell the rotten odors so much better. Bill also noted that he was completely naked after he arrived in his cell. Clothes are a luxury you will not have in Hell. We come into life naked and naked we shall return! Only shame remains in Hell though. It increases a person's  vulnerability being naked, and the environment of Hell is so hostile! There is the pain factor, fear, hopelessness and grief. To be without clothing too. To be stripped and exposed publicly.  Let us recall when all those Jews were stripped naked, for all to see, then sent to be gassed. Some were cast into ovens.  Just a mere taste for  all the ones who deny Christ. Bill also was experiencing the total degree of exhaustion in Hell.  The continual mental, emotional, and physical trama feeds this vicious cycle of sleep deprivation. No one can ever rest, not even for a second here! You desperately long for just one moment but are never granted it. That would be a luxury, and luxuries come when your in the presence of God, not outside it.  How awful would you feel if you went 48 hours without rest? Imagine adding fear and pain to that. Bill was only exposed to it for 23 minutes! A trama for him not even getting one moment of quiet. How we all long for some quiet time. It is heaven. It felt to Bill though, like he hadn't slept for weeks.  He knew it would only worsen in time.  This was why God's Son was willing to suffer and die for you by the means of the cross, if you only accept Him and His free gift, this would be avoided. God came in the flesh, and died a painful death, but people in Hell are dead on and on in a continual state of agony. Bill could not get away from it.  The fear, the thirst, the lack of sleep, even breathing in and out was so difficult and uncomfortable.  The hopelessness, the isolation from people.  Not being able to speak to anyone.  You were kept away from fellowship of any kind. Conversation and interaction. Relationships are so valuable and people take them for granted up above. The duration of no luxuries in Hell is endless. At the moment of death, a person never merely wants to just be around his things of achievements, but they want the people they love there. No one wants to die alone.  And alone is all those who die without Christ will have to look forward to. It will be a permanent separation! Never to see your family and friends again. It is beyond the capacity to imagine that you will never be able to relate with anyone again.  All there will be exposed to the hideous creatures, the heat, stench and pain of Hell. 

Some people say, I'd rather reign in Hell than serve in heaven. The only thing they will be king of, is all the horrible exposures in hell! Or they say, It's ok if I go to Hell, as long as you'll be there. "  I say wake up, you will have no one there with you! They don't realize that if another of their family goes to hell, or a friend, they will never see them or interact with them. Do not think your sins are worth it! No fleeing moment of what you think is bliss but it is a sin, will grant you the strength to take an eternity in that hot firy place! It is not worth it being a liar, or someone who steals. They think they deserve what they steal. You won't like Hell. Repent right now and turn to Jesus. His arms are open waiting to receive you!

All of you who are gay need to repent of this sin, and yes, it is a sin. You were not born this way. It is a demon deceiving you. Almost a possession I'd even go as far as to say. God hates the sin, not the sinner. If you are willing to accept this and come to Him, He will receive you. He can heal you so you no longer desire what you should not. All you have to do is want to. Demons give humans false feelings for one another.A man for a man, and a woman for a woman. That is where gay-ism comes from, straight from Hell, not something wrong in your body. Demons are very good at fooling people.  Sex before marriage isn't worth becoming spiritually dead either. Or having affairs. So do not be unfaithful. It is a sin too, and not worth the eternal punishment waiting you. Just acknowledge the sin and repent, believing in God's Son as your personal friend and soul saver. All sin is rebellion against God, I don't care how good it makes you feel! You won't feel good in Hell, I assure you!  ( Romans 1:20-32 ) Jesus was willing to trade places with you. You, to receive His blessings while He received your judgement.  It is worth it to give up the filth in your life.

Bill saw masses of people thrown in together, but they were not together at all. Only together in the same sense that they were being tormented together.  Each person is extremely isolated emotionally, in agony and terrible pain, in fear as fire and brimstone rain constantly down upon them.  They are only together in the same way that cattle are, herded into the slaughterhouse. No one is wiser than the cows, of how to get out of this constant situation. No wisdom is found in Hell.  They all might as well be cattle! A soul in such extreme agony could in no way communicate with another, or be able to soothe someone else.  It just isn't done.

I am going to tell you of a certain terrible pain I get. It is my personal hell on earth I go through every now and then. I suffer from a serious disease called Lupus. I suffer severe colon spasms. They are so bad when they come upon me, that I cannot act or think straight while they are occurring.  I have to sit on the floor and rock, trying to concentrate all my energy just to try to get through the minutes it takes till each spasm subsides and this can go on for a full 45 minutes! During this time I do wish I were dead.  God is there and the only One who helps me to even begin to cope with the pain.  People in Hell are in far greater pain than me. If I can't function during my pain, I sure know they can't!

Bill stated that in Hell, everyone is just on the verge of insanity, but however, they just can't quite reach it, because to be insane would be a way to cope and escape. He believes you can never actually go insane. 

As Bill stood there watching that huge pit of fire, he knew there was no escape for these people mentally. Like going insane or into fantasies. That can only happen while you are alive.  It's how our minds cope, but not in Hell.

I believe people in Hell are simply beyond any imperfections now. That is I mean, to go insane or pretend. That is all imperfections of our flesh here on Earth, so when we die that is corrected.  We just cannot go insane or make-believe because those are human things we did when we were not perfect.

Bill possessed the ability that there were different levels of torment going on here in Hell.  Various degrees of punishments. He knew that some people had it worse than others.  But don't misunderstand, the least suffering person there can not withstand it, let alone the one with the most punishment going on.  It's like, what would you rather have: Your arms and legs torn off continuously? Or to have fire poured upon your naked body in a continuous rain? Not to mention those suffering in total darkness and loneliness. Or to be placed in a pit where it is over 2000 degrees! Name your torment, it's all eternal just the same.  Bill also felt that Hell was currently, at the center of the Earth. He knew he was at the lower parts of the Earth. He remembers falling to get here.  He knew that there is a tunnel that arrives here.  It states in the Bible however, that after the Judgement, Death and Hell will be cast into the Lake of Fire. ( Revelation 20:13 )

I believe that the Lake of Fire might be some distant sun far hotter and bigger than our own, with the capacity to never burn itself out, so it will burn on and on forever. ( Revelation 20 :10 ) But like a sun in a black void with no other planets around. ( Outer darkness )

Bill also notes that there is a shaft somewhere, but God keeps it hidden from us. It leads from the surface of the earth down to Hell itself below. His testimony will speak further on that as he exits Hell from the passageway leading out from, or to it.  Bill stood by the mighty pit with no immediate threat of attackers. It gave him a moment to look over his surroundings.  It was raining fire and burning rock, similar to the way lava flow falls from the sky when a volcano explodes.  The smoke from the flames was very thick.  Only allowed him to see in short distances.  What he did see was horrifying! He saw many people reaching out from the pit of fire, desperately trying to claw their way out. But they could not escape.  Bill saw that he was standing in the middle of a great cavern.  The wall wrapped around him and led to the vast expanse of the pit. As he looked at the walls he discovered that they were covered with thousands of demonic entities. Hideous beyond words to describe!

I had a bad dream once. More like a vision dream. I went down to this underground place. First it was like a underground tunnel going farther and farther, and the deeper I went, the darker it became, and more fearful. I felt the complete absence of God. It was like I went past a barrier. I recall a wall of rock that was wrapped all around, but then farther into that cavern I felt there were even worse unspeakable things. I cried out to God but a terrible thing told me that God was not there! I remember how dark it was and it went deeper into even worse regions. It was just awful! I'll never forget it! Bill speaking about the curved wall reminded me of my vision. I believe I had a peek at Hell myself, and it was ready to be spoken of when Bill's story came into my hands.

The demonic creatures that Bill saw were of various shapes and sizes. Some of them had four legs and were the size of bears. Others stood upright and were the size of gorillas. They were all very grotesque, and disfigured. It looked as if their flesh was decomposing. All their limbs were twisted and out of proportion. Some displayed abnormally long arms, or large feet. They seemed to Bill, to be the dead being conscious.

Like night of the living dead I'd like to think of. I have seen very gruesome looking things in other dreams that I could myself describe to you as the living dead.

Bill also describes that he saw gigantic rats. Huge spiders as well. Not to mention snakes, and worms. Ranging from small to enormous in size. He was petrified! His gaze followed the beasts up the sides of the wall. He noticed now the hole in the top of the cavern. An entrance. This is where Bill would leave Hell from. This was the way in.

People have stated in near death experiences, ones that do not know Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Savior, that they remember going through a tunnel and seeing a light at the end of it, only to find it is the reflection of flames! It isn't the true Light that all believers in Him see.

The hole Bill saw was 35 feet in diameter. The fiendish creatures lined the the tunnel walls as well.

In Dr. Rawlings book, To Hell And Back, several cases who had near death experiences, say before they were revived, that they saw hideous creatures lined upon the tunnel leading toward the light, then it turned to flames.

Bill felt the evil of these creatures lining the tunnel that went into Hell. Their eyes were cauldrons of wickedness and death. Bill sensed that these creatures really had a hate for Mankind. These creatures he said, seemed to be chained, attached by some means to the walls. Bill was relieved beyond words that they could not get at him. There were so many of them too! Bill began to go up into the tunnel that led either into Hell, or out from it. He did not know why he was being pulled out now. At first he rose slowly. As he went higher he could see into the vast wasteland of Hell. He could see more of the enormous pit which looked to be at least a mile across. Of course this was just a fraction of Hell. To the right of the huge inferno were thousands of smaller pits, as far as he could see. Each pit was no more than 3 or 5 feet across, and 4 to 5 feet deep, each holding in it 1 single soul. All lost to God. ( Psalm 94:13 ) These pits are dug for the unchosen. As Bill went higher, the fear of those horrible creatures was all around him. He thought, who could fight off just one of them? They were so massive and strong. Continuing up the shaft it seemed about 30 seconds went by. Then suddenly there was a burst of Light! It lite the tunnel clear up! It was a pure and white Light such as he had never known! It was too bright, for he could not see the Face of the One who was before him. But he knew who He was! " Jesus! " Bill said. " I Am, " He said. Bill fell at his feet. Words can not express how Bill felt being in His Presence! Just moments before he had been in the bowls of Hell itself seeing the torment of the damned. Bill remembered Jesus now, and that he had been a Christian. The Lord had hidden this from Bill while he was in Hell. But he belonged to the Almighty. Bill was given this assignment by God and he literally had to live it as the lost do, so that he could become the witness Jesus needed him to be. It is why his memories of the Lord were blocked so that he could experience it firsthand.  The terrible torments of the lost separated from God. Peace now replaced Bill's terror. All the feelings of worthlessness, shame and humiliation left Bill at the realization of the value his soul was worth to God. So much so that He sent His own Son to save Bill! ( John 3:16 ) Bill knew at that moment that God loves us so much! That gift awaits all who reads this and heeds this warning, repents and turns to Jesus Christ for their eternal Salvation.  Bill now was comforted.  He was under God's protection.  He was so relieved! But he knew no one in Hell got that second chance whom he saw suffering, so please don't chance your eternity! Turn to Christ today. This very hour. Bill was so grateful to know Jesus,

as am I!

All he wanted to do was worship Him. Bill realizes now, that after he was dropped off into Hell, the Light that enabled him to see for a while was the Light of the Lord.  When He left, it then went back to its normal darkness.  Just as Bill relives how real Hell truly is, so will be the Lake of Fire.  Bill felt dirty and shameful before the Lord.  Jesus reached down and touched his shoulder. His strength then instantly returned to him.  He rose to his feet. He wondered at that moment why had He sent him to Hell in the first place?  Before he could ask the Lord replied, " Because many people do not believe that Hell truly exists. Even some of My own people do not believe that Hell is real. " Bill was amazed to hear that.

I have always believed that Hell exists. I did not know exactly where. I preach about it too in my church. I am not afraid to admit its real. I want people to know the truth.

How can a Christian believe in Jesus and then deny there is a Hell? That Heaven exists but not Hell. How can a Christian then believe that Jesus died for them and not believe in the main reason why he died? HE DIED TO KEEP US OUT OF HELL! What is the reason for Jesus to die for us, go through all that pain, dying for our sins if there is no bad place to go to after death for the lost? If there is no real threat of Hell for us, why did God go to the extreme for? Think about it. 

Many people think that the wicked just are annihilated after death, that there isn't really a hell. That that's as far as it really goes. Some state that Hell is just a state of the mind. But it is a real literal place just like New York City is a real place. You may have never been there but it's real just the same. So there is a New York City. There is also Sacramento, and there is Hell. Surprising Bill, is the fact that even though people just deny the existence of Hell, it states it in so many different places in the Bible. Heaven too! Heaven is a real place. Some people do not think even Heaven is eternal, but boy are they wrong! Hell is a real place of eternal torments. The teachings of the Bible state it so plain so that none would be ignorant. Bill sensed the Lord's deep love for people, and for them to know the truth. Knowing that Hell exists and that people are actually there right now, deepens our gratitude towards the Lord for saving our hides! Hey, people are right now, in Kansas City, and people are living in Hell. Well, not exactly what would be called living, more like DYING every second, over and over. Jesus has literally saved us from it. He rescued Bill. Jesus saves by His great love for the world. He has seen to it that everyone knows about Hell and its sorrows. He has seen to it we all know about His great gift of keeping us from Hell. It is not meant for all who accept Jesus.

Take a moment and pause right now. If you don't know Jesus yet, please reconsider all I've written and accept Him! Accept His gift of Salvation and you won't go anywhere near that horrible place when you die.

It is a SIN not to acknowledge the Savior of Mankind! A SIN not to accept the truth. To stubbornly turn away from it cause it does not fit your plans and beliefs. So believe Him. Do not sin and deny Him. ( John 5:12 ) He who has the Son, has life. He who does not have the Son, has only death. Bill could hardly speak being in the Lord's awesome Presence! But he answered Bill before he even spoke. ( Psalm 139:2-4 ) God understands our thoughts. There is not a word left on our tongue that He doesn't already know. This deep relationship the Lord wants with everyone. Those in Hell willingly did not want to know Him.

You want to hear something funny? It's strange how He sent someone like Bill, who is a neat freak, like Adrian Monk, to the worst most NASTY place in existence! It is also hilarious that He also chose someone who couldn't be more afraid of things! Even stupid things get me petrified, let alone having me create for you this book about Hell, of all places, which happens to be the SCARIEST place in existence! Worst place for some scaredy-cat, such as myself is! But God used us both, Bill and I, to the Glory of the Father through Jesus His Son. Bill doesn't know exactly why the Lord sent him. I know it was to wake people up!

Jesus told Bill, " Go and tell them about this place. It is not My desire that any should go there. Hell was made for the Devil and his angels. " Bill told Him then that he would. God's Will is for everyone to get saved through Christ. That was the Plan. But He forces no one into receiving this wonderful gift. Bill had the strongest compelling desire to do His Will.

The Holy Ghost pushes me so strong at times I feel like it's a locomotive force! A invisible wall pushing me on. The pull can be very great.

In His Presence, things which once seemed important to Bill, no longer were. He felt so honored to be able to do something for Him that is pleasing to the Lord. Bill did think that no one would believe him. They'd think he just had some sort of bad dream.

Well here is someone who does believe and God is using to fulfill a purpose.If I responded, others will too. Out from my own Ministry, I've written my book with his story in it! If we really believed in Hell, we'd do our best to get the message to others.

The Lord told Bill, " It is not your job to convict their hearts. That responsibility belongs to the Holy Spirit. It is your part to go and tell them. "  Bill was glad he didn't have to try so hard to get them to believe it. Just to tell it.

That is what I am here to do as well. Tell it. And perhaps someone else will feel it upon their heart to tell it also.

The Father draws everyone to His Son, by the Holy Ghost.  Bill asked the Lord, " why do those demons hate me so much? "  Jesus answered with, " Because you are made in My Image, and they hate Me. "  You see, the demons cannot harm God directly, but they can His children and His creation. It saddens God to see His creation suffer.  That's why demons want to ruin as many lives as they can. Because we were made to have an eternal life with God. So they trick whoever they can, and then they end up in Hell to be tormented forever because God made us to have an eternal life. But God gave everyone a free will, as He did the angels that fell. They chose to do harm. Some of the people reading this will not listen. Not all who read this will believe it. So they will perish. They will see Hell first hand. Some reading this have already made their choice to follow the Lord. Some will make that choice after reading this. What do you choose? Life or death? " Demons are so powerful, " Bill tells the Lord.  He replied, " All you have to do is cast them out in My name. " Suddenly there before him, all the demons seemed so powerless.

At the mention of Jesus in my own dream, that demon began to die.

To Bill the demons appeared to look to him like ants on a wall. The most important thing revealed to Bill was not the power to overcome these demons, rather to rejoice, that your name be written in Heaven. ( Luke 10:20 ) Bill saw a steady stream of souls descending down through the tunnel, going into Hell, continuously. One soul right after another Bill saw, into the open cavern. Into the terror Bill had just rose up from.  Jesus also allowed Bill to feel the sadness upon the Lord's heart, that people were perishing before Him.

I too have found myself many times crying over this.

Bill could not take it.  God's love for people is far greater than our own capacity to love. If we don't really want people ending up in Hell, how do you think God feels?  When a single soul is lost to the devil, and ends up in that place of torment, it saddens Him so much because He made them!  " Why didn't I know You there? " Bill asks.  " I kept it from you, " the Lord replies. He had to so Bill could truly get a true taste of it there.  If Bill would of remembered that he belonged to Jesus, and had since 1970, he would of had the hope that he would of been rescued eventually. It was vital that Bill experience the feeling of being lost forever. People just are careless and do not think about such things. They do not think about their life in the terms of consequences. The feeling of being lost there

forever. Only the damned truly know that, not the ones being saved by Grace.  Feeling lost forever was one of the worst things Bill had faced in hell.  It was done so he could express it to all who reads this. So that you will have no excuses when it comes your turn to die, and believe me, everyone dies. The sole purpose for this is so that you will come to accept Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior, so that Hell for you can be avoided. It's the sole purpose why Jesus came, hung on a cross, and died for you! Be warned, that Satan will do everything to keep your heart closed to the truth, especially if your one of those who does not believe in Jesus, the Devil and Hell. All Satan wants to do, day and night, is see to it that you too, are forever separated from the One who created you. Just as he is damned and will never have or know anything good ever again.  He and his minions hate Mankind. They know they are lost and they want to take as many of you as they can with them into eternal damnation! Their sole purpose is to lay claim onto your soul after you leave your body, so that they can get a hold of you and drag you down to that horrible prison that has no justice system, to be forever away from the Presence of the Lord. Satan and demons hate you that much. But God through His Son Jesus, loved you so much, He made a way for you to be SAFE after you die. But not if you deny yourself Him. Who would in their right mind, deny themselves eternal Salvation through such a beautiful gift from the Father? God made you to have an eternal consciousness, encased inside a physical body. But a lot of people do not realize, that that body inside your physical one, is a body of its own. It can feel everything you have in your physical form. It will feel the torments and loneliness of Hell if you still decide not to listen to this. God one day, to everyone, will give a new eternal physical body as well. No one will be just a soul forever after they die. We will get a body back like the one we had on Earth, but it will be a better body. It won't be able to taste death again. But by all means, it will feel the eternal discomforts of Hell, and the Lake of Fire. Do you want your new body for Salvation, or damnation?  The Lord told Bill, " Tell them I am coming very very soon. " Bill felt the urgency to that too. To tell as many people as he can.

Myself too!

All who are still alive have hope.  Even if you have to eventually die in order to get away from a bad situation.  At least here on Earth, you still have options.  In Hell there are no none.  Those who kill themselves to get away from life's sorrows, if they end up in Hell, their real sorrows have only just begun! Please do not take your life! Don't take a chance even if you say you know Jesus. It is not certain if any who takes their life can go to Heaven. It just might be a one way ticket to Hell because the person who commits the act cannot go to Jesus to ask for His forgiveness. Do not take that chance. Ask Him to help you. I know it's hard living here. I know there is pain. He never said it would be easy.  Time is running out for people.  At least here on Earth you still have a choice to make.  I hope you make the right one.  Bill describes his ascent up through the tunnel as, " we kept ascending up the tunnel until we came to the Earth's surface, and we went high above, ( we, is referring to Bill and the Lord ) until we were past the Earth's atmosphere. "

So to me Hell sounds like a very real physical place, where every lost person is physical, and physically kept, despite they have died and left their earthly bodies behind. That it is at the center of the Earth.

Bill looked down upon the Earth and it was breathtaking! He said that if anyone was in outer space, they could not deny the existence of God. He felt that the whole Universe was completely in God's control.  That He has a plan for every life.  It is a sin for you to refuse to believe that there is a God, and that Jesus is God. All the proof is there. Read the Bible. It is the only book in existence that is 100 percent accurate. About the Messiah, and where He would come from. This is the truth, and for someone to purposefully believe something else is a sin. Because it is a lie and to lie, even to yourself, is a sin. For the wages of sin is death. ( Romans 6:23 )

Here is something I challenge anyone to do. This is especially for the ones who think they just do not know what the real truth is. But want to. They just are lost. I want you to willingly pray this simple prayer right now: LORD GOD, I DO NOT KNOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE, BUT I WANT TO KNOW THE ONLY  TRUE ONE WHO MADE ME. PLEASE DO NOT KEEP THE TRUTH FROM ME, OR LET THE ENEMY TAKE IT FROM ME.  I SEEK AFTER YOU, AND YOU HAVE PROMISED, WHOEVER SEEKS SHALL FIND. KNOCK AND THE DOOR SHALL BE OPENED. I AM ASKING FOR YOU LORD, AND I AM KNOCKING, PLEASE, I OPEN THE DOOR. COME IN. OPEN MY MIND NOW, AND MY HEART TO ACCEPT YOU: I believe that He will then show you that it is Jesus of Nazareth, who is the Christ. You will be able to perceive this, that He is the Son of God. You will believe this as the truth, because He will give to you His gift of the Holy Ghost. All are drawn to Him by the Holy Spirit. 1 Corinthians 12:3. All God's children seek His Face. If you truly want to believe in God. If you believe in God, believe also in Jesus. ( Matthew 7:7-12, 2 Corinthians 5:21, Romans 10:9, Acts 17:2-3, John 1:1-12, 14:1, 17:20-21 )

Bill remembers as Jesus brought him back to his house, that he went through the roof, as if it wasn't really there. The same laws of physics are not the same, for you see, he wasn't there physically. His physical body was laying on the living room floor.

Please note that Bill had said he was in his bed when this strange thing happened. So what happened to his body? It is unknown. But it was moved away from his bedroom. I do not believe he sleep walked. I believe God moved him. See when Bill awoke cause he was finally back in his body, he screamed very badly then. God had to care for his body I believe. God cares for mine but I'll get to that a bit later.

Bill was returned to his physical body now. The Lord had left him. The memories of Hell came crashing back on Bill! All the horrors so fresh in his human mind. As long as the Lord had been with him, he did not fear, but now he was back in his physical body. The Lord had gone. All the memories flooded back into his mind. Bill started screaming as the real fear began to creep back into him. How he had felt while being in Hell. He just lay there traumatized. Just like anyone going into shock from a bad trauma. Bill's was worse!  He had been in Hell for 23 minutes! That's about as worse a trauma as a person can go through. Nothing is worse. The human mind cannot do good upon remembering such a trauma as that. Bill cried out enough to awaken his wife back in their bedroom.  His wife describes it like this:

She awoke to hearing screams coming down the hall. She saw Bill was not there in bed. The clock read 3:23 AM. She got up then and went down the hall to see what was wrong.  There in the living room she found her husband in a fetal position with his hands gripping the side of his head. His breathing was erratic and he was

screaming. He said, " I feel like I'm going to die! " She thought at first that he was having a heart attack. She asked what was wrong, and then he said, " the Lord took me to Hell! Pray for me, that the Lord will take it from my mind! " His wife had never seen him like this before. So out of control. It just wasn't like him. He was a very rational man. For him to be acting in this sort of manner, and it took a while for it to register to her. She felt peace inside, that he was going to be ok. She believed him. She began to pray for him. After some time Bill began to calm down. Soon he was more composed and asked for a glass of water. He felt so amazed just to have that water to drink in the first place. How much it had meant to him. He gulped it down and asked for more. He never wanted to be that thirsty again.

Bill told his wife, that when his experience had begun, he knew it was 3:00 AM. After his wife had prayed for him, God left him with the memories, so that he could witness, but the fear He took away.

God has to help me with my fears too. I am aware of demons, especially at night.

Bill had a chance, not long after his experience, to witness to this old lady. She was very sickly. She had cancer and was going to have surgery. Bill tried to witness to her about his hellish experience because she didn't believe in the Bible at all. She thought it even quite silly and to not bother her about it. She was dead by that next morning. Bill fears she is in that terrible place of the damned. Unlike him, she will not be leaving there. Bill because he is human, doubted once if he had really gone there. So he had a confirmation from the Lord, that it really did happen to him. Bill had stopped his car to reflect on his event that had happened. He prayed and asked the Lord if He could please just confirm it to him. That he was there last night. He asked the Lord to just show him a glimpse for a moment. Suddenly he states that he was in Hell again! But this time he was not an active participant, merely observing.

The experiences I have had were more for observation too, and nothing like what Bill went through. I think I did however, one time, seen Hell through the eyes of a young woman. She was pulled into this place that got darker and darker. Like the worst medieval castle place you ever saw. Something very decomposed dragged her further in and raped her over and over and over. All the while she said within herself, " I'll just have to bear this somehow. " Then I woke up. It was awful and I will never forget it! It impacted me. I also had this dream once while at my sister's apartment where she lived in Colorado Springs, Colorado. I was on a plane, and in the back was this thing. It was so hideous, I hope I never remember it or see it again! I feel in my spirit that it was so bad I forgot it's face. Or God took the memory away. In that dream I felt I had nowhere to go, or to get away from it, then I woke up. I know people are experiencing this kind of ugliness right now, in Hell. Every second!

The tour only lasted him 10 seconds, this time, in Hell. But it was enough to utterly terrify him again! It took him 20 minutes to get over it. The shock and all.

In my visions I have felt the awful separation away from God, and the darkness. I remember one vision I had. I was falling down this dark hole. I believe it was the actual tunnel Bill was in when he left Hell. The tunnel people travel when they are going to Hell. I knew it was very deep. It was pitch dark but somehow I could see the awful looking thing coming after me. It was like this. Imagine a black piece of construction paper. Then paste an animal onto the black. I saw it clear as a bell. You might be thinking this is all baloney! That good people just do not go to Hell. No way you'd ever end up there. Please do not talk yourself out of the redemption power of Jesus Christ. You are being tricked and lied to. None are good enough compared to God's standards, to make it into Heaven on our own merits. Some people think Karma is all that matters. Do not go there. It is of the devil. You do not have karma. There is no such thing! You need Jesus. He has what you need. So if you say you have to have a good vibe process to get into Heaven, than vibe in the Lord! He has it all for you to be saved. Please, read the Bible. See for yourself that Jesus Christ is the only way. A lot of you just do not know enough about the Bible and the Messiah. The qualifications for entrance into Heaven, and even Hell, is not based on how we compare ourselves to others. It's all based on how we are compared by God. He is Holy, we are not. We cannot be. It is impossible for us on our own. But not through Jesus Christ. Please do not talk yourself out of believing this. That's exactly what Satan wants! We were all born imperfect, but there is One who was neither created or imperfect. He is perfection, in every detail. Yes Jesus was born, but not of a man. Of God through a virgin, because He is God. He, because of that, is called the Second Adam. The first Adam brought us death. The second Adam brings us life. His life was fragile, but He did not sin. He was perfect before the Father. We never have been. That is why we need Him for our eternal Salvation. If you stood on a hill overlooking many white sheep. To you they'd be white. But compared to God's white they would look filthy! We compare each other like that. We see each other as white sheep. No need for salvation. We're good enough to ourselves, but not in God's eyes. In His eyes, compared to His standards we are all black, not white, and He has to have white sheep, not black. His Paradise is so lovely that He has to have His sheep white, not black. He has that right, to make the rules the way He wants them. He is the Creator, you and I are not. Compare yourself to Him as a worm. We are all worms compared to His knowledge and power. If you have a bone to pick with God and cannot worship a God that would allow innocent people to go to Hell, first off, no one here is innocent without the blood of the Lamb, and that's just tough on you, if you can't accept God on His terms than you will not be sharing eternity with Him. See, His thoughts are not our thoughts, and His mind is not our mind. He is who He is, so we, the created, it is our responsibility to accept Him who He is. We are to accept truthfully who and what we are. We are sinners. We were born this way. God didn't intend this for us. It happened because Adam and Eve sinned the first sin. It was passed down to us. We can all be saved by one Man. Jesus Christ, but not all will accept Jesus as God, or accept Him mainly on the fact that He is who He is. God, Just and Holy. Some cannot accept, that people who do not accept Him go to Hell. It's a hard fact but it is the truth. Some people cannot swallow this. Ask God to help you to. Maybe your thinking in terms of, how to live forever without having to be righteous. A man named Danny is the perfect example. He went to jail for simply not paying parking tickets. It

was no big deal. Well, to Danny anyway. He didn't think he'd get hardly any kind of sentence. But instead of what he expected, the police showed up at his door and then arrested him. He was treated no different by the police, as any worst scum bag! During the time he was in the holding cell, it was no picnic! He finally stood before the Judge then. He thought he had it covered, that his sentence was just some misunderstanding. He told the judge he had brought $700 dollars with him to pay the fee he owed for the tickets. But the judge wouldn't go for it! Danny could not persuade him either. He sent Danny straight to jail. Danny, who thought he could do no real wrong! Sin is so much the same as Danny's tickets. Every time we commit a sin, it's like a ticket being collected. None of us has the funds to cover just one of those tickets, let alone 50, or 100! But Jesus came to take our place. A fair and righteous Judge has free willingly decided to take our place in payment! He sure did not have to do it, any more than that judge over Danny, free willingly had sympathy to bail Danny out himself, and we all know people just do not do things like that. I do recall a true story that touched me very much. About these two young girls. They were on vacation or something over seas. Where the prison system might as well be Hell. Well the girls got set up to put it short. They were sent to this horrible prison that the United States Of America had no way of getting them released. One of the young girls saw that her friend just was not going to last in this place. She went before the one in charge of the prison and begged him that if he would just let her friend go home to America, she would not only serve her own time, but her friend's as well. This moved the man. He had never seen a sacrifice made like that before. She knew she would never get out of this prison alive. The true movie about this was called, BROKE DOWN PALACE. Jesus too, saw that our existences would waste away in Hell. He knew we could never endure it there. So He willingly came to Earth, to become one of us. It was the only way for this to be done. As a human Himself He sacrificed his own good life he truly had a right to live, instead He out of love, laid down His own life and died for each and every one of us. Even those in Hell He surly did not neglect. They neglected themselves His Salvation. They thought their way was better. Just like Danny thought his tickets were nothing to be concerned about.

Here is another story I will set before you. Not a true one. This one I have created to help you comprehend sin. Once upon a time there was this cute little dog. Now I don't know about you but I myself cannot have a dog simply because they poop. I do not like them living in my house and pooping all over my nice carpet. I cannot stand poop. I cannot stand what it looks like. I love dogs, I just don't like what they do. God looks at our sin the same way. He loves us but does not love our sins, ( Poops ) He is like me. He cannot have us living in His house because we sin. Just like I cannot have a dog cause it bothers me that it poops. I don't care if it's house broken. It will make a mistake and poop in my house sometimes. Jesus came and He took the poop, ( sin ) that came out of me, and He alone flushed it away. Only He could flush it. I have no way to. He has the authority by God the Father to take away my sin. Some people I know do not think sin no big deal, but God does. He cannot have us living in His perfection with Him until we are able to turn our sins over to His Son. Then we will be made anew never to sin again. Someday in Heaven I can have a dog in my house cause then he won't have to poop any more than I will have to sin! People just do not realise what God is protecting. What beauty He wants preserved forever, and He wants to share it with you. It is of such proportions of righteousness that He went to great pains and stakes to bring you to it. But only the ones who truly want it through Jesus Christ the Lord.  But in order for us to live there with Him, we must become like Him, without sin. He is a gentleman and will not make the changes in you unless you ask Him to. If you'd rather go to Hell, there is nothing He can do, and He will allow you to do what you want. You think you know what is good for you, but you don't at all! He will fix you in death so that whatever made you sin before won't be present. All these things will pass away. Please accept His Son's gift and don't put it off. You may not be here alive tomorrow. Or even in just an hour, you may be dead. Once that occurs, and you are without Christ, than your dead without God. It is forever. Your new eternal life.  Ask Jesus now to take your heart, and give you His. He will do it. I asked and He did for me, and He set me free. 

You all who do not believe in sin. The things you do are not sin. Well listen to this. God will judge you one day by the acts you made. Everyone lies. So have you at one time in your life. You may have stolen in your life too. You may have deceived others. All liars will take their part in the Lake of Fire. ( revelation 21:8 ) What we believe or don't believe, does not change God's reality.  Let's say you stole only a little thing. Not worth much.  Sure not worth you perishing in Hell, but God says otherwise.  All sin lands us in Hell without the Son of God's free sacrifice. Ok, so you may not believe in Hell. Well it sure believes in you, and wants you! If you don't believe in Hell, you might as well say you don't believe in jail. God does keep the universe in order, and He will keep that order not letting any personal feelings get in the way. Despite that He made you and has great love for you. You commit a sin, you are lost to Him without Jesus Christ. All will go to Hell who do not keep Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Savior. That does not mean you are alright if you were brought up a Christian. Even go to a church. If it does not preach that Jesus had to die for your sins you sinned, and you have to receive Him on a personal basis, than they are deceiving you. A lot of people are in Hell even though they once said they were a Christian all because they didn't put Him personal in their life. They believed in Him. That He was who He said He was, but they did not practice it. They did not fit Him into their daily schedule. Surprisingly there are a lot of people like that that think they are safe when they die. They are not. You have to be willing to walk away from your sin and have Jesus take your hand in a personal day by day friendship, making the effort not to sin day by day or your not getting it at all. Some people do not consider some things to be sin, but God sure does. Men, have you ever looked at a woman with lust in your heart? Maybe you think your clean because you never committed adultery with a woman physically, but Jesus said that if you even think about a woman that way, you are committing adultery in your heart! You will go to Hell for that without repenting and receiving Jesus. Same with the women of today. All I see on the TV  lately is lust, sex and nudity. It is all sin! God is going to deal with this very harshly and it is going to be soon! This world is so wicked. Which do you prefer. To be a child of God, or a child of Satan? All who practice adultery and look at porn and these terrible adult shows are committing great acts of sin against God. ( Matthew 5:28 )  Have you used God's Holy Name as a cuss word? That too without repentance in Jesus Christ on a personal basis will land you into Hell. This is called blasphemy. It is a very serious offense in God's sight. If you can be honest enough to admit that you have been a lying, thieving, blasphemous adulterer in your heart, you will go to Hell without coming clean before the Lord, and meaning it. Wanting a personal relationship with God through His Son Jesus, willing to have Him help you change your ways, than you have no hope of a good eternity. Now don't give up! With man it is impossible but with God, all things are possible! ( Matthew 19:25-26 ) God did not leave us in a hopeless state here. He did send Jesus so that not a one has to find their eternity starting in Hell. In a bad place they cannot comprehend or endure. He took all who would accept the Blood of the Lamb. But it has to be personal, people. Not having Jesus far away from your life! I used to think I could sin because I believed in Jesus. That I had my bases covered. I could have my cake and eat it too. Boy am I sorry I used to think that way! With tears I write you this.  

Jesus, when He took my punishment onto Himself, was beaten beyond recognition.  He was severely whipped 39 times. Usually twice was all it took for a man to die.  The Roman whip consisted of bone and metal. He was Almighty God in human flesh and He could feel pain. He showed us all the way back to God, which we all had lost. It is our fault if we wish to pay Him no mind. We are on our own then. Who in their right mind would turn away such a gift? He offered Himself up as a bloody and torn up sacrifice to take the place of all our sin. I do not know about you but I am so thankful He cared that much for me!  He Himself was completely innocent, and no sin was found in Him. His life was His to live and He did not have to do it. But He did not come to live for His will, but for His Father's Plan, for all our lives. He was the perfect sacrifice pleasing to God. He bore our guilt, shame and misery unto death. He knew that in Hell we would be severely treated and shamed.  He was stripped of His dignity just like we would of been in Hell. Here is the difference to being religious or being a Christian. A Christian appreciates all Christ has done with tender love and adoration for the Savior.  There are people out there who do not take their sins seriously at all and do not realise that there is a Judge out there who does.  They are in the dark about the Judge's ruling. They do not consider at all that they are going to Hell after they die because they just did not give Jesus one thought. They did not believe their simple crimes anything at all. They are very unprepared.  They think them doing good will outweigh the bad things they have done. They could not be more wrong! They think they can buy their way out of any situation. But the one thing they lack is a personal relationship with Jesus Christ.  Us being able to save ourselves is as futile as a man trying to row against the current.  It just cannot be done. If it could of been do you not think the Father would of spared the Word of God such pain and anguish?  God has given unto us a Savior. A life Preserver, who will keep us from going over the falls into Hell. That is Jesus Christ. He is the only One who can prevent our true death to come in Hell.  So let go of your own pointless efforts trying to make it in this world. Just live for Christ and He will do the rest! While we were still sinners Christ died for us. He defeated Death when He arose. ( Romans 5:8 ) It is by Grace we are saved and not of ourselves. So no one boasts. ( Ephesians 2:8-9 ) It is not God who will be sending you to Hell. Without Jesus Christ, it is you and you alone. You are the one who will either accept Him or reject Him. You are your own worst enemy then if you end up in Hell. No one to blame there but you. God made us to reign with Him as His Heirs. He gave us a free will. Some will go into eternal damnation for making the wrong choice. Not God, but the choice of oneself. Free will is a gift from God, but not all will use it wisely. I am amazed why anyone would purposefully choose Hell over the bliss of Heaven, but it is your life not mine. I have my own and I made my choice still as a child that I wanted Christ. I knew about Hell. I have always been concerned for people even when I was 11. Be careful. Satan makes his lies seem so good. Jesus saw his destruction to come, and He will see yours too if you decide against Him. ( Revelation 20:10 )  Some people think they have done just too many wrong things for Jesus to ever be able to forgive them. That is a lie from Satan so beware. Jesus came to give life, even the most wretched of persons. A prostitute will become a Queen in His Kingdom if she will only turn away from her sinning and receive His forgiveness.  Psalm 86:5 states He has enough mercy for everyone seeking forgiveness from Him.  He will not only forgive but forget. It's ok. Let it go. Give it to Him.  If you seek to be forgiven here is a prayer to recite: I confess that I am a sinner.  Thank You for sending Your Son Jesus Christ into the world to forgive all my sins.  I believe He is the Son of God and the only way to You. I believe He not only died for my sins, but rose up again defeating death. I repent and place my trust in Him alone for my Salvation. In Jesus' Name I pray this. Amen: If you have just prayed this you have made the most important choice in your life! Begin reading the Bible for a better understanding about God and His people.  The New King James version is excellent. Go and tell someone what you have done so that they can come to the Lord too. In all things pursue Him and His righteousness and you will find purpose for your life. ( Matthew 10:32 )

Sometimes I wish to not have to suffer this, and certainly not have to be this kind of a witness, but I know I soar higher, and am far greater the witness because of it! I choose not to live the normal life, and took the chance to bear up in the storms of Life this responsibility I believe God has given me.

I came across this beautiful pamphlet one day a few years ago while on my bike doing recycling. It talked about the story of the eagle. I will explain it to you. I was amazed at how this story fit together with my own true story of my struggles with Lupus and a neurological disorder I suffer from. Ever since I was hit by a car and sustained a head injury when I was 8 years old. God has chosen me to deliver a POWERFUL message of love, courage and hope. I hope my story will inspire you. Especially if you have your own physical illness to deal with. I hope your faith will be strengthened as mine is every day. If you don't already know the Lord, I hope after you read this you will accept a personal relationship with Him. This is what He wants most of all from us.  

First off I will go over what was found in the pamphlet the Lord had me find. It begins talking about the main reason why people do not put their trust in God. It is because bad things can happen here. So many people wonder why, if God is all Loving and Merciful, why does He allow such awful things to happen to innocent people here on Earth? It is a good question and my hope is, this will clear up some things. First off, I am not a bad person. It is not why I suffer from Lupus. I am a sinner who needs the Redeeming Blood of the Lamb just like anyone else. Stuff happens here because our bodies are not perfect and we all fall subject to disease. God never said life here would be easy but He did state that He would be here to see us through it. The Bible is full of those true stories of people just like you and me in which He helped. So why does He allow awful things to come into our lives? Let me tell you this from my own experience, that God will either shield you altogether from something, or give you strength to face it. He will not put you through more than you can handle. If your going through something bad right now do not turn God away. Ask Him to come and take your hand. I could never get through even one day without Him. I would be dead already. He will give you the Power to bear it up. He knows your frame. He made it. Yes, bad things do happen to innocent people. Helpless people. To even children, and it happens to me as well as it will you. No one is immune here from troubles. John chapter 11 tells of a hard struggle that even a woman very close to Christ while He walked the Earth as a Man, had her own deep troubles. Mary and her sister Martha. Despite that the Lord was physically with them, their brother got sick and he died. Jesus did not answer their prayers in the way they thought or wanted. He had a better Plan. He rose their brother from the dead in the end. He has an awesome Plan for your life as well, and He has one for me. So what storm of life are you suffering from right now? Are you feeling trapped? Helpless. Did death enter into your close family? Disease maybe? Does someone you love have cancer? Did you feud with a friend? Has a betrayal occurred in your marriage? Has your child rebelled against your parenting? Was it the misfortune of a miscarriage? Did you lose your job? How exactly do you react to your storm? Are you yelling at God and blaming Him? He knows that life can be unfair. But He is good. Are you asking Him, " why me Lord? Why did You let this happen to me? "  Do you find yourself withdrawing into a shell, or are you in denial, and depression?

I am going to tell you a true story about the turkey and the eagle.  They both react to a storm very different from one another. A turkey will run and go hide under a barn when the storm comes, but the eagle, it is a whole different matter. Did you know that the eagle leaves the security of the nest, spreads forth it's wings and actually rides the storm. It knows that the currents will carry it higher than it could otherwise if it decided not to take the chance and ride it.  Now based on your own reaction to a crisis. Are you the turkey or the eagle?

I will now tell you about my own self and the crisis I have to face each and every day. Like I said earlier during Bill's story, that I have suffered from Lupus for a long time. It becomes a crisis for me just to leave my house every day but I don't let the fact that I could collapse somewhere, keep me from enjoying my life. You see, with this type of disease I get so very drained easily, and I have a very unstable blood sugar disorder. I have had many times, when I've left the safety of my home, have had to endure colon spasms in public and fainting spells, but I still smile each morning when the sun comes up because I love the sunshine, and if I'm feeling strong enough I like to take the chance and go somewhere. I do not drive but I have a bike I ride when I need to go out or for errands.I like to walk too, but as of late my right knee has been bothering me. I used to go out finding recycling to turn in for a bit of pocket change, but in the past 3 years my health has deteriorated enough that I just cannot go out every day like that. People who have Lupus, it can feel like the flu coming on. They have fevers and muscle pains, aches. I get bad headaches and fever. Nausea, colon spasms that could stop an elephant in its tracks. They hurt so bad at the time I have them I do wish I were dead. It is the only time I do because I hate dealing with that kind of pain. But God is right there. I feel His Presence in a very special way and I know I would not if I did not suffer this. I know I would not be as close to Him.  I also suffer from a neurological disorder that I know God has to intercede for me in a supernatural way. This brain condition has developed since I was 8. I was hit by a car while on my bike.  I have real episodes that I cannot control when I go to sleep. I stop breathing. I am aware in my spirit, not my flesh, that God walks with me in a type of angelic form. He and His Angels get me breathing again. I am slightly aware that I am lifted and even taken somewhere that is not on Earth, until this condition passes. Then I am brought back. I wake up in my bed.  I usually can know when a episode will come upon me in my sleep because a few hours before, I have unusual weakness in my arms. I can have headaches and fever too. Sometimes the seizure, as I call it, or SID SYDROME, means, Sudden Immediate Death Syndrome. My heart at times stops too, which like I said, God in a special form, and His angels I am aware of, have to revive me. But my body is wearing out and I know this will more than likely be the means in which I do die from, when it's my time. One time when I was fully awake. I was maybe 20, my heart just stopped. Just like that, and I was alone. No one close by to help me. I hadn't time to call out or get someone. I knew I was dead. But at that time I do not recall in my spirit, being helped.Or aware I was being helped.  I just was surprised when I woke up. When I became aware in my spirit that things happened as I slept, I was in my 30s. I have so many times thought myself nuts! But God has given me many dreams of a confirmation, I do still have to take this to faith. This thing occurs in my sleep. It is a sleep disorder.I cannot control it, or do anything to prevent it. Only that once when I was 19 or 20, did my heart stop like that, while fully awake. The only other time I recall was once a few years ago, I was sleepwalking I believe. I was aware of Jesus being before me in special form, then I passed out and He rushed up to me. I went into that disorder then immediately.

This neurological disorder, I feel is very rare. I might be the only person who has ever suffered from it. I do not know. I just know that Man cannot help me. Only the Lord. This unusual sleep I enter into I cannot wake myself up. It is like a seizure in the way that it has to run its course. They have to use machines to breathe for me, give medication, etc. I am never conscious, just slightly aware in my spirit, that I cannot breathe. That is the main thing I become aware of. I have thought myself crazy, and have plead out to God on many occasions, but He has given me many confirmation dreams that this is indeed real, to ease my heart. I know beyond my human understanding that something is going on beyond my control. I keep the faith that He does interceded for me. The pamphlet I found, about the eagle, did not come into my hands by accident, or was it a coincidence. Just when I am feeling like giving up on this thing I must take to faith, He had me find this from Anne Graham. It sent my soul soaring into the storm once again! I was able to then continue in my faith with this. He has helped me with so many things in my life. I feel that if it wasn't true, He would of helped me. He has said to follow after Him and His righteousness, and He will make your path clear. I became aware 13 years ago about this. It was also during that time I became aware of Him in a special way. An Angel told me I would. Before all this started. The Lord has told me time and time again,to have doubts is ok. Just don't live by them. Live by faith, not my doubts. I walk by this every day. It is a part of my daily prayer. To not walk by doubt is to truly place your trust in Him alone. I cannot count on doctors. I have to trust Him every time I go to sleep. It doesn't happen every time I go to sleep. But it can occur any time I close my eyes in sleep. I find myself growing stronger in my faith in this, not weaker.He told me to put this on my hub pages. At first I said no. I wouldn't. But He has worked my heart. I am deeply in love with my Savior! He takes such good care of me! I am to be a great witness. Angels have told me this. Once in church, I was told by someone in the Spirit, that Angels surrounded me. So I take it to faith that I bear my disease to Glorify the Father. That is why He allows me to become a little bit aware in my spirit at times when this strange thing occurres. He wants you to trust Him too. God's original Plan never intended for any of us to become ill during our life here on Earth. He never wanted us to suffer one moment, or have to die. But because of sin we must. But we are not alone. We are born, and just doing the best we can is not good enough to let us enter into Heaven. It is why God's Son came. To ask Him to lift us up all the way! We do this by knowing we have sinned and asking His forgiveness. Trusting and loving Him in a personal relationship. It is the only way to Salvation. An eternal life lived with Him. If we accept this, when we die, we will ascend into Heaven to live with the Lord forevermore. The moment we are born, into sin, our relationship was severed between us and God. Babies belong to God because they are not aware of such things. But when we become old enough, and aware of God, but reject God's Son, we are condemned. But He cared so much for us He sent His own Son, who is and was the Word of God. All things were created by Him. Nothing that is could ever be without Him, the Word. John 1:1-10. This states that He was always with God, and that He is God! All fall short of the Glory of God. All sin. Romans 3:23. THE WAGES OF SIN IS DEATH, not life. Romans 6:23. Therefore, if we live a life without Christ, when we die, we are dead. It is eternal. Jesus loves you. He loved me so much He came special to me and met me at my need. He treats my lupus on a supernatural note as well. If you do not believe what Bill and I have been through, remember this, that other people state they have been abducted by aliens. That it was not a good thing. They were experimented on. So why is this happening? We are in the last days I believe, and Satan will fool many. The Bible describes that strange things will happen in the last days. Those so called aliens are merely demons sent in some physical form to fool Mankind. Ushering Man into the age of Lucifer. Believe this or not but people actually worship him. I, on the other hand, have been taken someplace too, but never to harm. Only to help me. Can you explain that? Why I am helped and people abducted by aliens are harmed. It is simple. I belong to God because of the Savior. Those who do not, anything can happen to them. They are not protected and can perish at any time. What I am about to tell you next was more than just a dream, and I believe it. I take it to faith. Once, I had terrible kidney pain on my left side. I remember vaguely, in a dream type state, I am never fully conscious, I was taken someplace and given a transplant. It was not on Earth, or given to me by another human, my transplanted kidney. Do not believe me? Well all I know is, before It happened, I was in severe pain. They took me in my sleep. I was a little aware. Afterward, my left kidney never hurt again like that. The doctors just cannot help me.They have abused me even. The Lord took pity and treats me Himself. One time I even believe I had an appendicitis, and I vaguely remember being somewhere not on Earth. Jesus told me in this dream type state, I would pull through the surgery. He told me truthfully it was risky. I was very sick. But I woke up again.Was it only a dream? I felt it was more than just some dream. But you judge for yourself. I take all this on faith. I am a messenger sent to merely tell you what I believe has happened to me. Knowing this and that He cares for you too, let Him into your life. You are dead without Him. He took our sufferings on the cross. So that we might die to sin but live for righteousness. By His wounds we are healed! 1 Peter 2:24. This is a promise that I am healed. I will have a new body one day as a result of what He has done for me on the cross. He is waiting to do so much for you as well.

Jesus understands your pain. He suffered in terrible pain and it led to His death. He did it all for you. It is personal. If you were the only person in the world that God created, and you sinned, He would of come and not spared Himself one thing less what He suffered, even if it was just only for you. It is that personal. Are you able to bear up your own pain now and trust Him? He will look after you. I am a perfect example of that. He does not love me or favor me more than you, and He never will. He just meets me at my need. He will do the same for you but you have to give your life to Him. Are you willing to leave that old sinful person you have become, and join Jesus in a brand new relationship? If you are ready now here is what you have to do:

1. Admit that you sin.

2. Be willing to have Him in your life now in place of the sins you once took pleasure in.

3. This is important. The other 2 will not work if you have no faith in this 3rd. Believe all Jesus said He was when He came to Earth. Believe that He came from a virgin's womb. Is God in human form. Was sent to die on a cross and that God rose Him back up after He died in a Glorified body. Believe that you too will receive a body like His one day.

4. Pray and in your prayer invite Him into your heart, and let Him have the rest of your life. Do what He asks and be obedient to Him. Lack of obedience to Him will only lead you to sorrow and discontentment. He will take a righteous hold over your life then through the Power of the Holy Spirit.

5. Get yourself baptized. Not sprinkled. Jesus was not sprinkled when John the Baptist baptized Him. He was submerged. This you must be too. It seals you to God. Laying back in the water represents Him dying for you. Getting back up out of the water represents you being raised from the dead just like He was. It is VERY important you get baptized, submerged.

Jesus loves you and He wants you to take a leap of faith. Come on, give Him a try. Go ahead and soar with His help. He will take you higher than you can ever go on your own. He will help you in whatever storm comes into your life. He will renew you. Even revive you if He has to. He will do whatever it takes. You cannot hide from Life, but in Him is a safe place to go to. It is an eternal place where you will be forever with the Lord. Isn't that much better than an eternity of death? I am not perfect and it is ok to have doubts. At times I have doubted this so much but I feel He is drawing me on and on with my testimony growing and growing, not shrinking. I want to so badly let go of this mortal life I must live. He is worthy to be praised, and I praise Him all the more if my testimony can make you stronger, and a better person in Him. The pain this has caused me hasn't been done in vain. God bless!

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