Healing My Bruises: Why I Write

I entered the blogosphere for the sheer pleasure of doing something I have always wanted to do but never did get into doing it – write. I could not pride myself as having excellent writing skills but I have always loved putting my thoughts down on paper.

Writing opened to me a way to escape from a world that can often be harsh. My frustrations, anger and pain found their expressions in words I wrote down. At the start, it was all I wanted to do - immortalize the feelings of rejection in ink. My early writings spoke of a woman drowned in self pity and seething with rage. I saw the warning signs as at it blinked. I know I needed to pull the brakes and I did. Soon, I began to see myself in my manuscripts emerged from the shadows of self-flagellation to the lights of self-redemption. I was writing not simply about what I felt. This time it was more focused on why I felt the way I did and what I needed to do to get myself out.

Healing my bruises maybe a big push behind my wanting to write but while I write as a way to seek joy so do I write to celebrate the joys that come into my life. Knowing more about the pains that are thrust my way has a way of making the joys I encounter magnified.

My granddaughter sitting beside me as I write this piece says I give her the impression I lived a sad life. True, like anybody else, I had my share of down moments but I also had my share of walking on paths strewn with roses. But writing, as I have said, was the straw I grasped on each time I find myself gasping for breath.

Writing down my thoughts helped me know myself better. It made me discover the person that I am. It helped shed light on the flaws of my person I did not want to see. It brought out the strength in me I never knew I had. This has helped me to rise above being a victim to the sadness and pain I went through to being a winner by prodding myself to move on believing that being down does not define your life. It is what you do to get yourself up that counts.

I write because it is my way of making the most out of living. I write for the joy it brings.

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trish1048 says:
2 years ago

Hi Julia,

I too, enjoy writing. In my case, I find I can better express myself in the written word. It helps get all my thoughts out, whereas, when engaged in conversation, sometimes things get left unsaid. My best friend led me to hubpages, and I'm glad she did. After my husband died, a few weeks later, I started writing about what I was going through, etc. I showed it to a grief counselor, and it made him cry. Made me wonder, is the pen mightier than the sword? (hope I have that right lol),,,,,

Writing can be therapeutic, certainly. It is also, as you mention, a way to get to know yourself better and to be able to see yourself perhaps in a different light. Other people who have been priveleged to read things I've written tell me I'm good at it, that remains to be seen lol,,,

Thanks for writing,

Patty