How I spent my 54 Million dollar Lottery Winnings!

Before I get into how I spent my Lottery winnings I want to tell you the fascinating story of how I came to win the lottery for 54 Million dollars (US) just before my 34th birthday...

I don't think it was by pure luck or chance, but more so self fullfilling prophecy mixed with destiny.

I hope my story enlightens you and inspires hope...

When I was 18 years old I went to a grade school fundraiser fair where their was a psychic giving tarot readings for a quarter. I thought it would be fun to get my reading done and although she said it was just for fun, everything she said came true.

I was pretty impressed by this but didn't realize it until about a year later when everything she said played out. The question I asked was will me and my current girlfriend Dawn get married soon. We were having troubles financially and getting along but we loved each other.

She said with a worried look on her face that it doesn't look good, but reassured us that if we worked at it, it may still happen. (We kind of chuckled because we thought we'd be together forever but we also worried because everything she told us was true, the difficulties, the friction etc...)

We wanted to change the subject and walk away with some good news so I ponied up another quarter and asked her a fresh question. Little did I know at the time that it would change the course of my life drastically over the next 16 years!

I asked:

"Will I ever be rich". She said well you can't ask a yes or no question, but you can ask "how can I become rich" which I thought ok, same difference.

I shuffled the Tarot cards and handed them back to her and she spread the cards out in the Celtic cross (pronounced Kel-tick) formation. She smiled and said this looks promising.

Excited I asked her what she saw. She said it looks like you are destined for a great deal of wealth and from what she could see it looked like it was going to happen somewhere in my thirties.

She said it would probably come in a windfall and pointed at the abundance card the wheel of fortune card and one other card I can't remember, I believe it was the card where this guy was giving what looked like two homeless people money (generosity?).

I was like, wow that's cool... and I could see myself as a philanthropist, as I was always more concerned with helping others than having a lot of money to blow on myself. I've always thought it more enjoyable to watch people come out of what they thought was a hopeless situation and into a position where they could see the silver lining. I had always saw myself helping people because I enjoy watching people become happy.

I tend to get excited pretty easily and it's mainly just because I have a lot of passion, but I started to talk about all the things I could do with the money and how I could help start places where people could get funding to accomplish their dreams and so on.. I went off basically in an excited stooper :)

"This is just for fun I think your taking this reading way too seriously", then she said she wasn't even a psychic she was just someone who read a book and learned how to interpret the cards, and that this was just for charity to help the school.

She could have fooled me I mean she had the whole maddam crystal ball look going and in a tent :) I was a bit nieve at 18 but I wasn't gullible I just enjoyed the positive flow of thoughts that this all provoked. I always believed that if you truly believe something with all your heart it can happen eventually- I think this concept came about in the early days of sunday school, lol I remember thinking that I could walk on water if I just practiced believing it haha, (no seriousely I tried for months hehe).. I loved wishful thinking and didn't believe anything was impossible just unlearned abilities.

I figured if Jesus could do it and he was just a man (with a pretty big reputation) with all our humanly potentials "kicked in" because he learned how to access the true human potential (I still believe we can do all that stuff but must evolve our thinking, body chemestry and other things to actually pull it off.. we may be centuries from this though)

As much as I tried to believe her I was very inspired by this information. I had learned that how you think, what you think about becomes your reality (what you believe becomes what you achieve because you set up your dominoes based on what you believe) if you make it real in your mind. I decided to make this my destiny and started to boast to my family and friends about the psychic and her prediction.

3 years later when me and Dawn broke up after I enlisted in the Airforce, I told my family and friends that this just shows it will happen (and it reinforced my own belief in it too!) Everything else she said came true so maybe the cards were actually showing the future potential.

I also thought that even if it wasn't true and my belief in what she said made it true, made it happen, that was still a powerful motivator that we actually do control our destiny and I could be rich if I wanted to be, just by believing, talking to others enough would reinforce it.I don't think you have to be a skilled psychic to use tarot cards and years later I learned how to read them myself and realized they are pretty powerful.

When I was 19 (or many 20) years old I called a psychic on the psychic friends network (I know but I saw one too many commercials and thought I'd call for fun) and the psychic made some fascinating predictions that at the time I thought were just a bunch of hooey.

That call cost me about twenty bucks (Dawn was not pleased with the phone bill.. we were barely scraping by at the time and I was not working). What the phone psychic told me was to ask her some questions and she could answer them, (I could hear her shuffling cards).

I remember thinking about how the call was costing like 4.99 a minute so I had to hurry, my first question was again will me and Dawn get married, The psychic after a short pause to deal some cards said,

"it's not in the cards, I see a lot of friction and a very unlikely chance that this relationship will last much longer" I didn't like hearing this but based on current circumstances I couldn't see it lasting long either.. Thinking that she just figured that out because after all if our relationship was a sure thing for marriage why would I even ask? lol,

I asked her next, what kind of work I would be doing ten years from now. She gave me an answer that made me think but again I thought she was fully of crap none the less. She said "I see you working with your hands"

Puzzled I said, working with my hands? like how, I don't understand" She said it seems like you will be doing something using your mind and hands, not like labor but like typing, or an author, I see you typing" I thought about this a second and thought, what the hell?

I don't know how to type, at the time computers were so new I never even played on one, and I thought she was way off base here, I simply couldn't see myself doing this kind of work.

I shrugged this off and then asked her one final question out of curiosity. "Will I be rich in the next 10 years?" Again she shuffled and dealt the cards and their was a long pause, probably about 10 seconds but to me it lasted much longer.. I was biting my nails at this point...

She said "I see wealth and abundance in your future yes, it seems that you will have some kind of a windfall, an inheritance or some kind of a contract" I smiled but wasn't clear what she meant by contract..

she said she wasn't sure but it seemed like I would either win the money in the lottery or I'd have it given to me in the form of some sort of a legal inheritance... that the contract card, wheel of fortune card (cycles), and some other card was drawn which to me meant nothing as I never even knew what any tarot cards meant anyway.

She then consolidated the reading for me and said that maybe I will write an amazing book and get a writing contract for a lot of money, the book I write may bring in so much money it will feel like free money... she then asked if I wanted to know anything else and at that point my mind was blank, and I thought about how long the call was going and said no thank you and hung up.

I sat and pondered everything, even wrote it down and when my girlfriend came home I told her about the call, I thought she'd be more upset but although she was irritated, she was also curious as she said she thought about calling them. I told her what the psychic said and we talked about it, but came to the conclusion that it was a bunch of BS.

So that ironically jumpstarted my thinking about writing books for a living. I thought what could it hurt? I fancied myself an author for years and started learning how to type. By the time I was 23 I had become proficiant on the computer and wrote alot of books that were never finished, often unfocused, but fascinating to read none the less.

I had discovered this writing thing for me was a fun outlet and over the years honed it into what it is today. I didn't think this would get me rich and in fact abandoned the idea that this would be my doorway into wealth, however the irony of what the psychic said coming true regardless of if she fed me the ambition or if it just happened to be my destiny, I did find myself eventually making a living 10 years later as a writer. I don't write books, but I do write for a living and love it!

I started blogging and even have written over 106 hubpages articles to date, now I write blogs for backlinks and am looking seriousely into adsense sites as my next step there by completing the prediction that I'd be a wealthy writer in a windfall type event somewhere in my early thirties. If the adsense sites go up and become successful they could generate a very healthy windfall income (passive income).

So to date everything both psychics said would happen have happened;

• Me and dawn broke up for good when I was 21 years old
• Within ten years I would be working with my hands and mind "typing"

But the one thing both psychics seemed to fall perfectly on was the windfall/lottery type event that would make me rich. But it did just short of my 34th birthday.. but were not there yet.. so keep reading..

Since I was 18 I have been telling my friends the story of how the psychic said I would win the lottery before my 34th birthday. Over the years I added to it and made up my own lucid version of this "tale" so that it would happen the way I told it.

I truly believed that if I kept the story alive told people with conviction and believed it with all my heart and soul that I would be in essence asking the universe to make it happen. The funny thing is over the years I started to believe it so much that I almost forgot which parts of the story were elaborated and which parts were what they psychics actually said.

I went above and beyond this by actually trying to convince myself every day that I am wealthy and that I'm just working in the trenches to maintain my gusto. I believe if you want something you have to put yourself in the future and believe its already happening.

This way you do things based on the desired future and the universe will move the rest into place to match up with your ideals. My little brother does this, he was wearing expensive suits and driving nice cars long before he was doing as well as he is today. I watched him mimic the lifestyle he always wanted for so long (making fun of him for living beyond his means to a ridiculous degree) but I'm not laughing anymore since I watched his world sync up with his personal goals.

It's like he put on the clothes, and NLP trained himself to a degree where he truly believed he was there and all of a sudden he was, no longer was he pretending, he was actually there. A movie called "Somewhere in time" with Christopher reeves shows this concept all too well and although his time travel experiment was not realistic the concept is very real and works as well (I saw Jay do it!).

In fact athletes use this in a format called mental rehearsal where by they actually practice succeeding in their mind while meditating and when they get out there their mind has built the habit and they succeed. The mind doesn't know the difference between mental action and actual action, to it its the same thing. This is why watching a scary movie makes you jump, your mind thinks its happening to you, its called mirroring neurons (look it up/Google it).

"Three psychics told me the same things, that before my 34th birthday I would win 54 Million dollars in the Lottery, -BUT by the time I won that I'd already be rich and I'd have no dire need for the money, so I'd put it to use helping people (philanthropy)."

My dream has always been to help people with great ideas fund them into reality, help those poor people who want so badly to own their own business to acquire capitol to get the ball rolling full force, and things of that nature. With all my struggles I have to say I'd of never made it where I am today without the generous help and financial backing of some people whom believed in me, so my dream is to give back.

The irony of this story is that for years my lifestyle has been upgrading consistently as I continue to tell the story and prepare myself to meet my destiny, remember according to my story I have to already be wealthy before I win the money, and although this is not required I'd love to have earned a fortune myself so I am responsible about how I spend the winnings. If I were to have my way I've always thought using the lottery winnings to help others is the most incredible use of it.

I want to put it into an investment account and not touch it for a year, this would generate interest (a lot of it if I invest it properly) my idea is to keep the principal money in investments as the engine to generate constantly the money I'd give away to the various people I'd help through forming foundations.

The moment you've all been waiting for... How I won the Lottery for 54 Million (that's $54,000,000) and how I spent it.

Well it seems that all of this has been an amazing journey and I don't know to this day if those psychics were telling me what I wanted to hear or if they truly saw my destiny, but now it's all happened just the way they hinted to and the way I imagined it happening.

As my 34th birthday was getting closer I was spending alot of time pondering this money. It was about to happen and I was convinced of it. I even started planning my life around this event. I bought a lottery ticket every day until the day I won the California Lottery. When I saw the jackpot was at 54 Million dollars and some change this only reinforced my ambition and excitement.. could it be? I thought as I bought my tickets. I had even saved up for years to buy an enormous amount of tickets to assure I hit it.

I knew when the jackpot hit 54 million or higher this was my sign to drop the entire savings into tickets. I had amassed over 300.00 for tickets and I had a deep intuitive feeling that today was the day and with that I went in to get my tickets. I did take some time with my family to come up with numbers to play. Here's where it gets interresting.

First I asked all of my friends and family to give me their numbers. I would buy them a ticket and myself a ticket for those numbers they supplied so if they hit we both won. I then played my special set of numbers which I figured would be the winning set. It came to me in a dream one day and I never could get it out of my head.

In the dream the number 23 which by the way had been following me for several years always positive had me asking constantly what it meant. Was the universe trying to tell me something? Then one day I had this dream that I played the number 23 and won the lottery. I just knew this was the answer to the 23 stalkings :)

In my dream when I looked at the numbers (which were a quick pick!) the numbers I played were all derived from 23:

2, 3, 5, 10, 20, Mega number 23

When looking at the numbers on the ticket I realized that the mega number was 23 and that the other 5 were created in line using 23 as the base starting point, in fact this is how I remembered the numbers when I woke up, I just had to remember how the addition went and it was very simple:

Start at 2,3 (base number) then add those together 2+3 = 5 then add all of those together 2+3+5=10 then 2+3+5+10= 20 giving us the first 5 numbers and the mega:

2, 3, 5, 10, 20, Mega 23!

When I bought my tickets I used all the accumulated sets of numbers from family and friends, and I bought one from the above set of numbers. This left me with about 250 tickets left and for all of those I decided to cover my "destiny" bases and do quick picks. I figured if my numbers or my family or friends numbers weren't the ones that would win then I'd leave it in destiny's hands to pick the winning set!

In all the time I bought tickets I always got quick picks "just in case" and along the way those were all generating 1.00 tickets but no winnings. I started to lose hope but kept buying my tickets anyway. Some days I had to do some tricky maneuvering to get the dollar to buy the ticket. I went so far as to recycle cans and bottles to generate the money!

It is pretty disheartening however to go through that only to see none of your numbers hit. This I think was the universes way of testing my resolve. I was tenacious!

One month I was so broke because I was behind on all my bills, things were getting pretty bad financially but I always justified buying that dam ticket! Then I ran into a month when I couldn't. I was completely broke and just didn't have the strength to hustle for that dollar. I had given up, thinking I'll just pick it up when I do get some money.

I worried that my numbers would hit though and sat thinking about this a lot. I needed some air so I went to the mailbox about a block away to walk off the stress I was going through because this would be the first week in my entire goal that I didn't buy a ticket.

I remember walking to the mailbox praying, and I'm not a religious man, but I looked up and said "God, please give me a way to get just one frikken dollar, please!" then I arrived at my mailbox and got the mail. I found a piece of mail from Google, and thought what's this?

When I opened it it was my first Google Adsense check ever for 102.00!!!

My heart sank then exploded as the adrenalin jumpstarted my blood again, YES! I yelled as I jumped up and down. I ran home got in my car and went to cash the check, then bought my lottery tickets. I bought about 20 tickets that day. Whew, I thought... thank god I wrote all those hubs! This was money derived 100% from HubPages adsense (the only place I had adsense code at the time).

That night I watched the numbers come up and the first number was 10, second was 3, third was 5, fourth was 2, fifth was 20 and mega was 23.

I had never been in as much shock as I was that night, I didn't even believe it, It thought oh I get it, now I wake up right? (I had many dreams like this and even in my dreams I caught myself saying this and every time I actually did wake up and thought how cruel is that?!)

Thinking this was a dream, as the feeling of winning 54 million and some change in the lottery makes you really feel like your in a dream state, its hard to describe but trust me, you don't feel awake, nothing around you seems real, and you sort of hallucinate a bit, enough to think its really a dream.

Then someone shows up at your door and reality sets in- OMG I just won the lottery!

Well the thing about this being a dream was over, it was real! Over the next month I would wake up and go down to the bank, or call and check my balance and I can't tell you how good it feels to hear "current balance 54,284,100 dollars and zero cents!!

I had been preparing for this moment for over 12 years and I watched dozens of those Lottery nightmare shows, read all the lottery winners stories and Googled a lot of stories all over the united states. I knew if I reacted the way every bone in my body wanted me to I would lose control and become another broke millionaire lottery winner.

That wasn't going to happen to me, no way. I did after a week of pure adrenalin discipline find the currency in not spending a dime and having the money. I got through it by continuing to work at my blog job and SA adsense site efforts. I had no plans to stop just because I had money, I would however use the money to merge with my current boss somehow and help them grow their business to unbelievable heights they never thought of before.

Three months passed and I had sat and planned out every way I'd blow the money to get it out of my system. I got to the point where I realized I could do just about anything but just having the choice was good enough. I made a plan of action that would include investing every dime of the money and never spending a dime of the principal.

The only exception was I pulled out 100,000 to reward myself for all my patience and persistence. I budgeted it like it was all I won. I paid off all my bills, and even paid all my bills for two years. I was renting a room with a wonderful angel of a woman who owned the home I lived in, I continued to rent so assure I didn't get swept away by my wealth. Humility was the key to surviving with my 50+ million dollars to the point where I earned so much interest I could spend that 50 million dollars 5 times over and still die with 54 million dollars to pass on!

Over the next three years my plan worked. I made over 12 million dollars from my investments in the first year! Score! I have since paid off my parents bills, debt, ALL of my friends too. I took this list I'd been building over the last 20 years or so of who I'd give 10,000.00 checks to when I made myself successful in business and the list over the last 12 became who I'd take care of when I won the lottery.

The list consisted of all people who'd helped me in any meaningful way over the years. If I had a girlfriend and she was generous like say I didn't work and she supported me, then our relationship went to hell and hate and animosity brewed for 3 years, that didn't matter, she got taken care of. One such girl who fit this description got 1.25 Million dollars even though she did me very wrong, cheating on me and all that. I'm a man of my word and it wasn't them as a person, or their current actions I was paying for, it was the moment in time they were compassionate.

My list had grown to about 300 names, but the people who came at me when the news of my winnings hit the television and papers were mostly the people NOT on this list. I had to hire someone to explain to them why they were not getting more than one dollar. I hired security to deal with these people who all of a sudden wanted to be my best friend but when I was in need were nowhere to be found, as much as that insulted me, I think my dollar given to them with the story of how they had an opportunity to get a lot more, was karma enough :)

I set my parents up in a new home, and every member of my family. Over the years I'd parlayed the money and interest into much more money. It's been 6 years and I have over 200 million dollars in my bank accounts (one thing I learned pretty quickly was that you don't put more than 100k into any bank. You distribute the money across several banks so its federally insured. I put most of it into investments however.

The major thing I did with my money besides having the lifestyle I always wanted was creating over a million new organizations. I didn't do it myself I just funded people with dreams so they could create them. The only thing I asked of them was to pay it forward and email me once a year with how they did it. If they ended up broke I hired a team of people to help them regain their motivation and to start over.

If I were to tell you how I spent the money over the years I'd fill a hundred thousand hubs so I'll just tell you the major points:

I invested the money and compounded my investments to turn 54 million dollars into (so far) over 200 million, growing at a rate of about 12 million a year compounded annually. I gave people seed money to start their own businesses (requiring them to have nothing more than a good business plan and if they couldn't do that I hired people to help them make one).

I acquired by contract stocks in many of these guys/gals businesses but only if they surpassed 2 million a year in revenue, so most of them the pay it forward was all that was asked.

I turned their pay it forward emails once a year into books and paid writers to ghost write the books using the pay it forward emails for inspiration. This yielded over 100 volumes of the Pay It Forward book series which the company that made the movie that inspired me got a peice of for using the name. We even got the kid who did the movie to put his picture on the front of the book with the chalk board drawing in front of him!

The money I got from those stocks (roughly 12,000 of my seeders reached 2 million dollars in their corporation and I amassed ALOT of money from those stocks, whcih I would sell after a year and used the money purely to fund MORE people's dreams. You could say that if they reached 2 million dollars they got to pay it forward to others to reach the same zeniths.

I had to hire a team of people to keep all of these organizations together and moving, and other people to govern these people (people tend to try to rob you if you let them).

Personally I have turned the 54 million dollar initial winnings into 200 million not counting the other ventures I funded over the years (described above), all of those ventures actually earned 3 billion dollars collectively of which about 8% were recycled back into giving others the same opportunities (through the stock donation program).

I swear in my next life I'm going to be made not to suffer lol! The money is not even what I consider makes me rich, all the good in the world that this money has generated is the true wealth here.

When I die I have generated trust funds which are in effect now for everyone I've ever known who has shown compassion and love for their fellow human beings, and all of these trust funds (including to my family and friends) will divide up what ever is left of my money. My properties (mansion, cars vacation homes etc..) will all be given to the maids, butlers, and gardeners, cooks etc..

You could say when I won the lottery I did something nobody else did- I shared it with the world.

So... I was born January 12, 1975 at 4:01am in Brunswick Maine to a very poor family. I will be 34 in apx. 4 months, and if everything goes according to plan this hub will serve as proof that the mind can manifest anything it believes.

This is not just all made up, of course I didn't win the lottery yet, but I think before my 34th birthday or on it, maybe even as far as 2 weeks after, I will hit it, I am buying lottery tickets, I did talk to all the psychics, all of that is true, I kid you not. The only part of this hub that's fabricated is that I have not YET won the money. The plans in this hub are actually drafted on paper awaiting the funding. I believe it will happen exactly like it is written in this hub. and yes I do have that list, currently at about 300 people.

I wrote this hub to write down things I'd been thinking about for many years and this lottery thing I have only told family and some close friends. I thought it would be awesome when I do win that this hub will show I knew it was going to happen as this is time stamped :)

What would you do with 54 million dollars? I hope this entertained you, for me its more than that, for you its a great story isn't it?

Have a wonderful day. Thank you for reading my hub :)

p.s. before I go I want to say that the moral of this hub is that we are powerful beings, we can manifest ANYTHING we can imagine, if you don't sit around thinking in minute detail about what you truly want, you won't make it happen. If you want to be wealthy some day you have to define EXACTLY what being wealthy is, not just money but how you would live, who you'd help etc..

You don't first make the money they plan how to spend it, you plan how to spend it as if you had it already, then hold that focus in the minds eye as vibrantly as you can and the universe will reorganize your world to provide a fertile ground to make your dream a reality. It doesn't know its just a dream, it thinks these are its orders.

You dream it, then you utilize the furnished opportunities. There are no free lunches, even winning the lottery is the result of my dreaming big and planning out how I'd spend the money. The lottery winnings won't be a free lunch, it will be my reward and resources for setting such a plan in motion and helping so many people.

The beauty of the universe/god is that it knows the outcome of actually giving you the money and if you were to deviate from your plan after it would not give it to you (unless by doing so some other plan would stimulate the same goals i.e. you get the money blow it but your blowing it although puts you back in the poor house does help the same amount of people and makes the world a better place etc.. Its a bit complicated I know)

It would find a way to give you what you really want in a way that will work better for you (as arrogant as we think we are we don't know everything that works best.. most of the time money is the opposite of the answer!) I've heard of lottery winners who were millions in debt after 3 years not just 20,000). It's not about greed or compassion, these things mean nothing in this ploy with the universe, its about reaching your dreamed goals.

If getting the money would not take you to the goals you set then the universe would save you from your turmoil by not giving you the money via the lottery for example. The lord works in mysterious ways mainly because we just don't have the foresight he does :)

The real trick to reaching your goals is not to pray for the resource (money, love, sex etc..) but for what you really want, and let the universe show you the quickest route to it.. for me I believe money is the quickest resource for my goals but I trust that if it's not the universe will facilitate it none the less in another way (which is fine by me, I'm not motivated by money, but results).

Good Luck!

p.s.s. When I win the lottery what say we have a huge party for hubpage authors and I fly everyone out to it from whereever in the world you are (remember that movie brewsters millions?)