I have been your go-to-girl for everything for a long time. Your mother who is dating someone half her age, who abandoned her family for someone who doesn't respect her or love her the way a woman should be loved, who you she does everything for.

You tell me that you can't stand how she never listens, but you don't listen anymore either... You tell me how you feel like she loves him more than her own family...well...me too... You tell me how you feel like you can't tell her anything anymore, and you don't because you don't feel like she deserves to know, because she's never there...but guess what...

You obsess over your boyfriend. You give him everything he asks for because you're afraid that if you don't, he'll leave you, and you can't stand that thought. You're willing to trade all of your friends, for some guy who doesn't treat you the way you deserve to be treated, who doesn't love you like you deserve to  be loved, and you're oblivious to the fact that you and your mother are more alike than you thought.

I don't know how to tell you this though...I don't want to hurt your feelings. I guess I can just tell you how I feel.
I feel abandoned by you. Tossed aside and forgotten for something that doesn't even treat you the way you deserve to be treated. Maybe people think I'm jealous, and the truth is that I am. I am jealous that you have replaced me for someone undeserving. I'm jealous that I'm no longer your go-to-girl because I don't feel like I can go to you anymore either. We had such an even relationship and now I feel like I'm the only one trying...and maybe I'm not even trying anymore...maybe I've kind of given up...but see the thing is, I don't want to.

I miss you. I'm jealous of your relationship with him. Because I feel like you replaced me in your life. I'm no longer a relationship you HAVE. I'm a relationship you HAD. I'm set aside until you remember that I'm around. Until you no longer have him, and I will be the one to wipe away your tears and tell you how much you're really worth...

True friendship knows no end. Which means I will not abandon you when you need me...but in the mean time I'm gunna go to other people. I want you to know that I wish it was you, but I need company while I wait for you to remember me,

I love you. I miss you. I'm waiting.

Your friend,
simply amy