I can remember taking my son back home when he was born. I had to leave him in the hospital for a few days to have his body temperature stabilize.

Oh I had such great expectations of motherhood. I bought all cotton diapers determined that I will be "eco friendly"...This lasted two days.

I was in the process of writing my dissertation. I thought, well, I have the computer at home, I only have a couple of more experiments to do, it will be a breeze.

It was bliss. I loved taking care of him. I almost always put my head on his heart when he slept. He slept so soundly. There was only one problem, he slept soundly for an hour or two and then he would wake up again. Because of lack of sleep, my head was empty and there was nothing I could write about. I would read the sentences I wrote and would be incredulous that I even wrote it.

I had to make one of the hardest decisions in my life. To either take him home to the Philippines for my family to take care of him while I finish my doctorate, or we can both go home together to the Philippines and have my family take care of both of us. I chose the first one.

That was eighteen years ago. Today we were talking about a girl. How does he determine whether he wants her from the ego's standpoint or from the heart. The answer was not easy.

If it is from the heart then he would be happy for the girl regardless of whether he is with him or not, as long as the girl is happy. If it is from the ego, he would want to possess the girl and would be very unhappy if she chose someone else, and in this case, she had many other men to choose from.

Taking my son back to the Philippines was truly a yesterday,but even my going to the supermarket this afternoon to get his favorite dessert, is also a yesterday. It is done,in the past.

The NOW is when the past, present and future converge.

We can not undo the past. No one can. And yet for the majority of us, we hang on to it. The past hurts,the past victories. We are almost always trapped by it.

If we could only see that NOW is when we have the power to create, to be fully in the NOW is the only objective of our life, and that our future is created in the NOW, we would always welcome the saying 'Say Goodbye to Yesterday' even if it happened only a few minutes back.

In this moment lies all the power you can handle.

© 2009 by Melinda M. Sorensson