I can’t think straight
 
                                                             Directed by SHAMIN SHARIF.
 
 
"I can't think straight" is a last movie I saw this week on dvd.
 
But this isn't something I am writing about, now let's move to business "I can't think straight" is movie about homosexuality. I know lots of people are not going to read it  any further but I am going to write it for them who are going to read it further.
I have watched lots of porn movies and in almost cases I try to skip lesbian movies finding it difficult and unnatural to watch.
Last Hollywood gay movie "Brokeback Mountain"  made me believe that they could only make either critical or comedy gay movie. Yeah but for sure this new movie has change my way of thinking. Like gays, gay movies also can come from different varities like comedy, action, tragedy and trendy. Here like we had made our mind it’s not true that  gays  belong to only one kind, one character and they have only one story. They are human being just like us and for sure are different, different kind of people and have differnt characterstics beside being gay. And homosexuality is their sexual identity only not whole personality of them.Its for sure doesn’t mean if somebody is gay he\she will have to be like this. If you get what I mean. 
 
Ok back to the movie, the kissing and intimate scenes of movie were oshiom. I really watched it again and again. Not because it was a girl on girl taese (and I am a guy) but cuteness and sensuality it has is unexlainable. Like I said I really don’t like this type of scenes but this was a different experince. It was not like they were forcing themselves to do this but they were loving. It was definetly not a scene made by porn movie to seduce their male viwers. They were lovely and ideal gay couple.lisa ray and sheetal sheth has portait best of them and look real gay on screen.
 
But this was not all I just want to write about the main thing I am concerned to is how gay are living in our society with their secret identity and listening bad gay jokes.
The way parents of movie have accepted it and way parents will react in my society.
The way a girl has admitted it in a movie and the way girls will have to push this feeling in my society.The way parents have accept Intercaste and interrace marriage  I have heard about has kept from beliving that how could a parents accept their children’s homosexuality just because they are happy that way. No, that is not something which matter, it did’nt matter if their children are happy or not but what matter is what society expect from them and how do they upgrade their parents prestige with crushing their own hopes away.

I really see homosexuals in darkness in future , It really freak me out what if I was a gay too. Only because I think in different way lord knows the qantity I had suffered what if I was supposed to carry a different sexual Identity from them it is hard to imagine way they would have treated me. I can see the sufferings of homosexuals and homosexuality in future. Nepal is a country where parents have to carry a burden since a girl is born how they will see their homosexuality. There were lots of questions which keep runing in my mind. Even lots of westerns think homosexuality inapporiate way to live life and an unnatural thing. But I do belive it’s not against nature but for sure it’s against society. And we have already sacrificie millions of women in name of witchhood, and million of million people in name of religion and racial riots. I don’t think society deserve more sacrifices; I do think gay people should go open, announcing it they are what they are. It’s nothing to be shy of or nothing to hide anymore. This is the time when they can fight for their rights as every privilaged community are fighting for it. They could spread awareness about homosexuality where even people from backwards community could knew what homosexuality is and how homosexuals should be treated. If not now it will be too late to start it. And its LGBT job to do it but all of us should be actively involved in it. That; s when dark future of homosexuals will be bright in future and they will no longer enforced to hide their identity and live as straight. Like homosexuality to us straight is unnatural for them so will be the case. This awareness could let them pursue a natural life and they don’t have to think any more  I can’t think straight.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
BIKASH JHA.