I found something I lost 13 years ago
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What I Lost
About 13 years I lost the most precious thing in the world to me. My faith, my friendship with God, my family in the Church. I made my own choices. God never left me, I left him. I made choices that I knew weren't right. I just didn't care. Going to church used to be the most important thing in my life. Now, because of choice I made my children don't know or understand the joy of His love.
I miss my relationship with God sooooo much. I know that I am lost and just have to reach out to him, it's just so hard now. It is a commitment. It is a way of life. I know that I need God, first, to help me make changes.
Okay I am getting a little side tracked. Yesterday, my children and I, went to church. We have tried before and it just wasn't there. But, yesterday was incredible. I felt a real connection with the people. The music touched me. The message from the minister was about fellowship. How we need fellowship and are designed for it. I had tears rolling down my face. I need God back in my life. I want it more than I have wanted anything in a really long time. I want the friendships and fellowships with Christian friends. I want their support and comfort.
This Church was so welcoming and friendly and warm. I felt like I belonged there. I haven't felt that in a really long time. With my past it is hard to just go into Church and connect. Trust. This was different. People went out of their way to introduce themselves to me and my boys. That was so important to me. My boys want to go back. They had fun. Met other boys their age.
My husband won't want to go. But, I think in time, maybe he will change his mind. Right now, I am going to focus on my relationship with God. Learning how to pray again. Learning how to put Him first in my life again. Making Him my first priority. Any one out their who has help for me. Please, I am open. I need support and encouragement to re-give my life to God.
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I am so glad you found a church where you fit in. It is hard to do. My wife and I have found a church that we feel comfortable in, but it is in Vancouver and we cannot afford the ferry every Sunday to go, so we have to settle for once a year. Though I wonder if we should try to get a branch of this particular church started here in Victoria.
Community is important in a person's relationship with God, being with others who share your Faith helps so much. Be strong, I am sure your husband will follow eventually.
Love and peace,
Suiiki
I am so happy for you and that you've found a great fellowship where you can feel comfortable. Let me encourage you to hand in there and become active,thisis especially important for the children. god hears even our faintest cries and knows the thoughts and intentions of our hearts. God bless you and your family.
We all get lost, or least those that get found must get lost first, and when prodigals return, not just the angels rejoice, but God Himself.
For when we are lost, He NEVER stops looking for our return, and He never takes His hand of our lives... we shake His hand away and lumber on wallowing in the mire until one day we awaken.
Welcome home, enjoy this Sunday meeting and remember, wherever you are seeking God, there is ONLY one church, and we are all in it.
Feel free to email me if you need any encouragement, I've been out there, I was lost until I was 41 years old. I've been found 17 years, but even then I was out in the wilderness for seven of those years.
I am glad you wrote this. One of the most important things is to remember this feeling you've had, especially when you start feeling lost again. I had that feeling once, that I knew God was there, but it was a long time ago. I still try and hold on to it when I struggle.
ftgfmom says:
4 months ago
Angels are crying for joy right now because you came home. Welcome home. God loves you. :)