For my love.

While listening to Zeplins, Stairway to Heaven, what came over me, is how much love a person can have, when traslated into music, the words have no meaning.

Everywhere I look, I see this side of love. Its thoughts unspoken, words gone un-noticed. It is buying a stairway to heaven.

What can't peace in your heart and love in love bring you? When I boast about God, it is me, saying that no matter what circumstances I have, no matter how I chose to live my life, I have but one, that above all words, no feeling can express, it's love in it's purest form.

It calls to me, saying Sandy, can you see, you are buying your way into heaven. Heaven comes at a price, at which even the very meaning of sacrifice has none, because in the end what resides in you is so much love that there is no way, no matter what I look like, no matter what I say, not matter how I behave, what is there is the love for something I have only begun to see.

Becoming like a child again is so hard for so many to understand. Reclaiming your innocents is only something that you and God can understand together. No one can read what is not spoken between you and God, no can tell you how or when or why things happen for what reasons they happen for.

This life is full of suffering, and in the end, the one who suffers in a way that finds her or his self to not be satisfactory in the name of God, is lost. When you can truely see all that you are worth to God things change.

What you are to God is in love. I am in love. I don't know really where this love that I feel comes from, but in it possess the true beauty of everything. What can't I know? Who says that because I do things that arent ideal to you aren't ideal to the God I live my life by.

My God is not a toy, he is not something that just comes and goes. God is much more. God keeps me holdinig on for hopes of the best world. One that has no suffering. One that speaks in the souls of all humanity, that says, This is me God, love me or leave me. If you leave me, you were never God to me.

In this love that I have loved like no other before, be sure that you know this love. This love expands far greater than anything you could ever comprehend, what I express is something that words can not explain.

God is everything you want God to be, You will find your place in Heaven when you stop trying to be part of something else. Be in God what you are. Don't forsake yourself in someone elses belief of what there God ask of you. This is not Gods way.

My God is different to me than to you, it will always be that way, but my God loves all of you so much, and I know this because I do the same. Don't let my disqueting words be alarming to you. My purpose is much greater than something you can know. I know God is here. I have heard the words whisper sofltley in my ears.

No one can take that away. My God spoke and gave me something that no one will ever see, and God made it just for me. Am I special? Yes, yes I am so special and the only person who has to know how special I am is the one I give thanks to for being part of something that only a few will ever recieve, to that I know that nothing will ever come between God and I, for our love for each other is powerful, and you can never take that away.

In time, maybe someone will hate me for this, but I can only say, bring it on. I will never die. You might see a carcas, but what is in me, you will never have.

What and who I am will fade away as a trivial alliance for God, but in the end when you know and realize all the things that you could have done, you will say: Why did God love her so much?

God only loves me as much as I love him. In our love we are equals, there will never be anything that can come between us, when something does and you have remembered who you are, and what God is to you and who you are to God, then you can remember Paridise.