“College days are the best and one must take full advantage of the same” said my uncle on a family trip while remembering his college days. College days are completely new life to explore. For some it is a time to make new friends and do all sorts or wacky things with them while some choose to explore new ideas and earn money out of it and start new business. Some may do nothing and be what they were. Luckily, I did none of above and yet my college days became the most memorable days of my life. I fell in love! I fell in love with the most beautiful girl in the world. Yes, you heard it right, she was the most beautiful girl in the world and she will always be.

Being with her I found no other and no better reason to make my college days most memorable. Four years, full four year we were together. We used to find every excuse to be with each other. I never got a chance to even look at any other girl; in-fact I myself did not wanted to even think about anyone else. We both were completely happy and content with each other. Believe it or not, we were regarded as the best couple in the college, we used to be called “different bodies, same soul”. Unlike most cases, our relation was not based on infatuation. Yes I am sure about it because infatuations do not last for full four years. We were very serious about continuing our relationship beyond the boundaries of our college walls. It may sound strange but at that age itself we had chosen our life partners forever.

We know good things never last forever, in-fact they will finish sooner. College ended and it was time to face the harsh realities of life. It was time to talk to our parents about our relationship. She came from a very conservative family but she still managed the guts to speak about me to her parents and that was the end to everything. Not even in my wildest dreams did I think about the end of our relationship but it did happen and it happened in a way that it left me completely devastated. The last time I spoke to her face to face was on her birthday 11^th of June 2006. We though that her birthday will be the perfect for her to speak about it but it turned out to be the worst birthday for her (I still hold myself responsible for it). She was almost locked in her own house. Not allowed to go out, not allowed to talk over phone.

However, she managed to call me one day, “Hey my parents got very angry when I spoke about you. You know them, they are a bit conservative but don’t worry everything will fall in place, trust me. I just need to follow their instructions for sometime. That means we will not be able to meet or even talk to each other. But once the things cool down I will speak about it again and will make sure everything is fine. Don’t worry we will not be away for long.” After that, we were not in touch for about one and a half months.

Then one day I came to know from one of her friends that she was leaving the town along with her family forever. I at once knew that she must have spoken to her parents again but it appeared strange, just because they did not wanted their daughter to see me they were leaving the town for good. Anyways I did not think over the matter much and went to the airport. I thought we would definitely manage five to ten minutes together when I would ask her about what is going on and if she is fine. But when I saw her she looked sad, very sad. She smiled but the charm was missing, it was a forced smile. I tried to talk to her but she signalled me not to even approach her. Everything looked so strange, something was wrong. Life was so simple and all of a sudden it looked so complicated. That was the last time I saw her; 6am 12^th of August 2006 and that was the only time when I was right in front of her and couldn’t speak a word with her!

I thought she would communicate later when things settle down but all in vain. Her mobile number changed, she never replied to my mails nor did she come on chat. Even her best friends didn’t know about her whereabouts, in fact they expected news from me. Days weeks and months passed but there was no news of her. Then I decided to look for her on my own. We all know in the present age it is just impossible to live without using Internet. Now my effort was to just know about her, where is she, how is she doing and if she is fine. My attempts were more to know about her well being then to get her and make her mine. I decided to use all possible means on the Internet to find her.

Email : This was the first and most simple means of communication that came in my mind. I used to mail her regularly telling her about my news and asking her for the same.

Chat : I used to drop her offline messages and used to be online when I thought she could be online too. Generally she preferred to go online in late afternoon after lunch.

Social Networking Sites : She used to use Orkut. She was an occasional visitor. So I thought to check her activities, profile and her scraps but it looked that she had not visited the site ever since she left the town. However, I kept trying, not only on Orkut but on some other sites too like Facebook and Myspace. On Orkut her profile was known to me but on other sites I had to search. I kept searching!
For your information this is the place where you can find a list of all major social networking sites http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_social_networking_websites.

Wikimapia.com : I was not expecting any result from this but I just gave it a try. On this site just like Google earth we can look for a place and can even mark it and leave our comments there. I did the same marked her house and left a message for her to reply to my mail or offline messages. I thought maybe out of fun someday she might come here to find her old house, so I made sure to leave her a message here too. I also used to keep checking this site often-on thinking that maybe she just leaves a comment here as a reply.

People Search Sites : These are a kind of online yellow pages. You look for people here. Give the first name or last name or any information you have and they will return a whole bunch of information that matches your search. I had her phone number but that was abandoned while her name and email did not return any fruitful result. These people search sites that I used gave information about people in USA, it could be possible that she had left the country altogether and that is why the site did not return any result for her, maybe!

I used the following sites find.person.superpages.com, intelius.com, classmates.com, wink.com, spock.com and wikiworldbook.com. If you want to look in some more such sites and I would suggest you to do simple search on the Internet with following keyword “people search”. It will return you a list of such sites.

Social Security Death Index (SSDI) : Not having heard from her for a long time I was forced to look here at this site ssdi.rootsweb.ancestry.com as well. You will say how can I even think like this about someone I loved so much but I was desperate to know about her and took all measures to find her. I knew her name will not come here and was very happy to see the negative result.

Google Search : There are lot of trades and trick that we can use while using Google search and that is what I used to search the whole Internet. It was not easy searching for someone on the entire Internet I’ll tell you. To know how to use Google search effectively read my Hubs Google Hack : Finding Accurate Result and Google Hack : Finding User Information.

I kept searching for her using all of the above methods for almost two years. Yes I did that! But none of the methods proved strong enough to let me know about her. I should have realized that she is not coming back, not coming back at least for me but somehow I was not ready to accept it.

It was late 2008 when suddenly one of her friends gave me the news that she is already married and is living happily with her husband. The news almost killed me. I thought

“How can she do this to me? Here I am still waiting for her and she got married. She didn’t even care to communicate with me, didn’t even care to know if I am living or dead. Just because she got a better life, she forgot me. I was such a fool to waste my time behind a selfish, self-centred girl. I was such a fool not to understand the true nature of the girl in full four years. Wish I never met her, never loved her!”

I was completely broken but all thanks to a very good friend of mine who helped me recover. He helped me think in the other way, he said

“Come on man how can you even think so wrong about her. Just remember those days when you guys were together, think how much she loved you throughout those four years, think how loyal she was to you and this is what she gets in return? We don’t even know the situation she might have had to go through when she spoke about you. Maybe she was forced for the marriage and now that she is married, she is being loyal to her husband. Whats wrong in that? In fact, she is doing the right thing. Man you should put yourself in her position and then think. Moreover if you had ever loved her truly you would always want her to be happy wherever she. She is living happily now with her hubby. Aren’t you happy for her? This is what you have been searching for the past two years, this is what you wanted to know. Now that you know she is living her life happily, you should leave her alone. Come out of it man, let her live her life and you live yours.”

This changed my viewpoint completely. Yes, he is correct; it is quite possible that she was in a helpless situation all alone. In fact, I should respect her decision instead of accusing her of anything. I actually felt guilty of thinking about her like the way I did. Believe it or not, I actually apologized to her though she wasn't around to accept it.

“Like always, you can never be wrong with the decisions you take. I am sure your decision to leave me is correct too and I am sorry for thinking wrong about you. I know you will forgive me this time too. Congratulation for your marriage and I wish from the bottom of my heart that you get everything you had ever asked for. May you be loved by your man more then I could even imagine loving you. Take care!”

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