Thank you God for Jesus Christ.

Becacuse He is as close to God as we are going to get. I dont neccessarily think that He is actually God, but I do believe that God made Him, and God made Jesus for a reason. I do believe that God can do anything God wants to do, and I do believe it is always for a purpose and a good reason. I wont accept that life means nothing, that when we die, that is all there is and that is all I will ever be.

Seriously, if this is all we will ever be, then I want Jesus to come and fix it so that at least all that we have will be good. I think it is crap that we have to live this way. I didnt choose it. I didnt ask to be born, and I dont get to choose when I die. And anyways, just because other people who think Jesus is the friggin greatest thing to grace Earth seem to be one way, and scripture repeating, gospel praising people doesnt mean they are wierd.

Dont get me wrong, I dont like it either when people come knocking at my door telling me the way to find happiness, cause here it is. I believe in God, I accept Jesus Christ as the one who is going to come again and save man, I accept that Jesus is the God of Man. There is a difference you know.

God is God, But God created Jesus as God of Man because we will never be able to see God, God for what God is. It is something I cant even begin to fathom. I said once to a pastor, Well, I would ask God, who created you.

So for people like me, who dont neccessarily agree in the teachings of Jesus in the same manner as many do, but I do believe it. Seriously, most have never taken any time to read the Bible or anything yourselves, so you really have no idea what these people are saying. You just asume that they or we are some wierd cult of people who lack intellegence or are weak, or have some crazy desire to destroy mankind, or that they dont care about anyone who doesnt believe in Jesus Christ.

Ask youself, why they would try so hard to get people to follow them if they really didnt care about all mankind? Why dont you ask yourself how much it must hurt them inside when even some of thier most beloved friends and family dont believe. Do you think that doesnt hurt them? But they keep going because they honestly with all thier hearts believe in Jesus Christ.

So while I have discovered many different religions and ideas and like all of them for what they represent, I chose Jesus. Sure in my mind, he is also the representation of all that is evil, but hey God made Satan too, but I dont think that Satan is some creature from the abyss or is called fear, seriously I think Satan is ignorants. Satan cant do anything to anyone accept bring them closer to death which ultimatly brings you to some form of God, be it decomposing in the ground and becoming soil for a tree bearing fruit, or burned to ash and becoming apart of the air we breath, or be it with the best of hope and faith, that God will accept us to a place that is always good. In that place we could shake hands or give hugs to Satan because that sorta thing doesnt exist.

Anyways, I think that Jesus bashers should go and read about Him before you think you know what you need to know about Him, you would probably be surprised. Is He Good or Bad, who knows, but I know He wont hurt me because I accepted him as the God of Man, I dont believe Jesus is going to be upset in anyway with me for regarding Him as second to God Himself, whatever He or It is, but I would take Jesus over anyone else. Cause the way I see it is, God loves and trust that Jesus is the best King or God for Man, and if God says this is what is best, then I know that that is what is best.

I found the Buddha quite helpful in letting go of the things that hurt, because the world is suffering, and life is illusionary. And to be happy, you gotta let go of trying to hold on, thus in my opinion, is the same thing as accepting Jesus my savior because then I can just live and love and not worry about suffering because this world is suffering. Though when I said, well if everything is illusionary, doesnt that make the Buddha illusionary too, I got a little bit of stuff for that remark, but come on, its funny right?

Anyways, the point is, how can you hate something you have no idea about? Certainly trying to find the reason why I should accept Jesus Christ over God, has taken a while, and yes I do believe he is the deciever, but not by His making. Since my adventure in God began, I have seen things I never thought possible, I cant look at anything in life without seeing God in it, I had everything taken away from me, and I have gotten all things back, but the best gift I got from God, God bless you Jesus Christ, courage, understanding, the the desire to live. I know I am not perfect, but I am perfectly imperfect and I believe in the promise of Jesus Christ, because Yes, I am not perfect and no one is, but for the love of God, I have a good heart, I have good intentions, I strive for right and usually end up doing wrong, but what comes out sometimes proves differently.

God Bless people. Believe what you want and how you want, but dont bash people who desire better than this because for some it will never get better and we need a reason to live. I needed a reason to live and now I do.

So what if I like punk rock, so what if I like tatoos, so what if I swear like a sailor or crack jokes, or question the man, who cares. If you want to change the world, you have to start from the inside. If everyone changed themselves, then 6.6 billion would finally be united, and our unity would be that we accept all peoples differences and reasons to live, but mine is the promise of life.

Jesus is a genius. Read it for yourself, then decide, I know what you will find is a lot of contradictions, but when you really want to seek God and understand the purpose of Jesus, then you would be whistlin a different tune. Seeking God doesnt come over night, but once you give your heart up to God, your world will change. Changed mine for sure, and it didnt always seem great but the lesson learned is always right.

Still my story never ends. And I make radical contradictions too, but if you paid enough attention to the things that arent said, you would understand what I am saying, though I did get a lot of help from God. My God. I dont know who your god is, but my God gave me the heart of Jesus Christ, and like Jesus I built my life in the heart of God, the One and Only Creator of Heaven and Earth, of anything you can concieve of and things you havent yet.

Thanks God, I love you so much. Thank you for Jesus and thank you for loving me back. xoxox infinity.