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Knowing the people we know

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By nigelking

Knowing the people we know
Knowing the people we know


I have squandered good friendships in the pursuit of other things that, at the time, seemed to be more important

I know many people. Well, I say I know them but really, I just know of them. I am not sure how many people I really truly know, beyond general pleasantries. It may be hundreds, possibly thousands. You may be one of them, if you are ‘hello to you’. The people I know come in all sorts of shapes and sizes and from many different backgrounds. Some are well off and some are poor. A few are very wealthy and a few are bordering on destitution. Some of the people I know are horrible people who I cannot stand. Others are people I love with all my heart and a few I would love more if they allowed me the opportunity and if I made the time. The people I know include parents, siblings, cousins, aunties, uncles, nieces, nephews, children, stepchildren, ex wives and, last but not least, my darling wife. I also have neighbours, work colleagues, business associates, Facebook friends, and a small number of friends who are just occasional drinking and eating buddies. Some people I know are criminals and a few are shallow and unreliable. I know people from my childhood and I know people from all stages of my life since. However, just a few of the people I know are the people who I truly love and care for. You may be one of them.

The thing about knowing people is that they all also know me, even though I cannot remember all of them. Some know me well, some think they know me well, and others only know what I let them know. I guess I am not the only one who is selective in what I say or reveal to the people I know. Some probably hate me or maybe despise me. A few may actually like me or love me.

I have always wondered why I know so many people, but have so few friends. I think it is because I have an inability to trust other human beings. I have never set out to hurt anyone, but I have upset a few people in my time. I have squandered good friendships in the pursuit of other things that, at the time, seemed to be more important. Wisdom has since told me that I was very wrong and I regret losing some of the people I know. I often reflected on the faces ingrained in my memory and increasingly I struggle to match some faces with names. I guess that is the dementia setting in. I do have facial images that are set like stone in the forefront of my memory and they forever come into my minds eye, some as unwelcome images, and a few as spirit lifting smiles, one of those smiles belong to my daughter Aimee.

The people I know may read this hub blathering. The people I love will know who they are; I am making sure of that. The people I hate I will not notify. All the others I will make an effort to know better in the future. Be warned, I may invite you for a meal or take you for a pint. More probably, I will just write on your wall or send you a text.

This is my message to the people I know:

Thank you for your friendship, even when I have abused it.

Thank you for your love, even when I have not returned it.

Thank you for your tolerance, even when I have ignored it.

Thank you for your support, even when I did not value it.

Thank you for your concern, even when I did not deserve it.

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Jon Kirkman  says:
4 weeks ago

Still friends Nigel. Always have been. You are worth having as a friend and I have always thought that since I first met you.

Jon

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Mary Moon  says:
4 weeks ago

Your the best brother in the world I have always looked up to you and you have been a brilliant roll model for me. You have always loved me you just didn't know it at the time, and I have always loved you, you just couldn't feel it at the time. xxx

Donzy007  says:
3 weeks ago

Well Nigel it's hard to read the above and not wonder which category I would slip into. Although I haven't seen you in quite a while, Iain and i still talk about you and your lovely family often. You have been more important to me than you are aware. So I would like to think I am more than just someone to say hello to. As for me I consider you a friend I love dearly, my life is enriched by knowing you.

Much love Donna XX

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Ghost32  says:
3 weeks ago

Nigel, I just met you through your comment on my Hub, but I guess I sort of know you. At least we have something in common: Ex-wives, in the plural sense. No, not the SAME ex-wives; we don't have THAT much in common. (I've got 6 of 'em, and then there's--to use your term once again--my darling wife.)

About having only a few "true friends": Makes sense to me. In Robert Jordan's classic fantasy epic, The Wheel of Time, there is a chapter titled "The Color of Trust"...in which a song states firmly, "The color of trust is Death". Elsewhere in the same series, it is equally firmly stated that, "...to trust no one...is insanity".

Within those stark parameters, being a little choosy about one's friends makes a whole lot of sense to me!

josh kenworthy   says:
3 weeks ago

hello uncle :)

id just like to say that your time line and your talks

have really helped me get through some of the stuff i have

been through in the past, and i now know where im trying to head with my life and im gonna stick to it till i get it :)

and all you have helped me with means alot although u may not know it, you have changed me alot more than you think :P

lucky you ay haha

thanks alot uncle xx :)

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nigelking  says:
2 weeks ago

Thankyou John, Mary, Donzy, Ghost, and Josh - I'm encouraged!

Garry  says:
2 weeks ago

Aquaintences are easily made and lost and outside influences can play a large role. True friendship is long lasting and can be picked up after a long periods of inactivity. Individuals agendas change through different periods of their lives, but true freindship should be one of life's constants. We have all fit into many of the catagories listed above at some point in our lives, it is how we see ourselves going forward that is important.

G

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