Why are teenagers so confusing? One minute they are full of serious attitude and the next all sweetness.I have come to the conclusion that being a teenager is rather like having a personality disorder.Like a coin with two sides a teen has two personalities.

After a very stressful Friday evening with lots of arguments and multiple disagreements(which left us both mentally drained like a sponge),today is a complete turn around. Saturday evening she was very sick and spent the night in bed at her nans(i wasn't neglecting her by the way she had been fine earlier).The illness or bug seems to have carried forth to today,this has made her very quiet and oh so loving.I also now feel very mean that i got angry back at her the other night.

There are times of course besides the affects of illness where my child is brilliant.Funny,loving and caring,i feel proud to be her mum.On other occasions though it is like living with the devil and i feel like i have to walk on egg shells for fear of unsettling the apple cart.

When i tucked her in bed earlier i was given a lovely,warm embrace and i felt like the best mother in the world.How i wish there was a freeze button i could press to keep this happy time.

One minute with your children you would like to kill them(not literally of course) and the next you never want to be a part from them.It is not easy being a parent and every day i think i am learning and making mistakes all at the same time.

I always thought that as my daughter got older that i would have less worry time.....What a mislead idiot i was.I have how ever realised that my title of Mother will always stay with me even when my lass marries and has a family of her own.This means that no matter what she does or where she goes i will always worry about her.I will no doubt still have many arguments with her as well but i know that really this is just life.

I used to wish that i could chip away at the years and relive my teenager days but now i celebrate silently that i can not.Life is hard enough these days with out the added problems of teen age personalities.

So i will tolerate my wrinkles and greying hair and what ever else my old  age chooses to throw at me with a smile.As for my teen,well all i can do is keep taking my pills(lol) and thank the lord for Gin.