Life is to be treasured...

On January 3rd, 2009, I was riding in a car down the freeway on my way to spend an evening with friends. Across the embankment separating the lanes, I saw a car torn to pieces. There a body in a black body bag lying on a stretcher and another laying in the middle of the freeway. It appeared that the car had ran into the back of a trailer hauling hay. The trailer tore the top off the little car that the deceased were in. There were two more people in that car that left that accident with their lives. I'm not sure about what injuries the driver of the truck pulling the trailer walked away with. I just know that he walked away.

The families of those who lost their lives in that accident will never again have those individuals there to cherish and love. They would never see those faces smiling at them or cry with them through whatever pains life may bring.

When I saw that I thought about how precious life really is. I thought about my children, my parents, and others that hold a special place in my heart. That could have me that in that car. I could have lost my life that day, and I have not really lived. I have not fulfilled any of the dreams that I have held in my heart. I have let love slip through my fingers, and I have a relationship with one of my children that needs a world of work. I don't want to leave this world like that.

That's why decided to make this my New Year's resolution. I am going to live. By that, I mean that I am going to take the time to do all the things that I have been holding back on. I already started by following through on my dreams to become a published author. My first book is going to released soon. The thrill of knowing this and the hurt of seeing death staring me in my face has made me realize that I need to live my life. I have been so wrapped up in fear that I have not made the choices in life that would make me happy. I have been so afraid that I will let someone else down that I have let myself down.

I am going to try and fix my relationship with my child. I am going to work on taking better care of myself, and I am going to rekindle the love that I let slip away because of fear. I know that the last will be the hardest to do, but I know that both he and I are both willing. It's just a matter of getting over my fears that others will disapprove. I'm even taking more time to fix my hair and put on a little makeup before I leave the house. I plan to go shopping to get out of my baggy sweats and oversized t-shirts. This is my life, and it is time that I started living it.

Take a page from my book. If you are not living because you are laying in a bed of despair wrapped in a blanket of despair, get up dust yourself. Get a new look and a new attitude. Change the way that you look at life because life is too precious to just let it pass you by.

I'm not living on the sidelines anymore, are you?

I am not a professional in this field. I am just a person who knows that life is for the living so why why not live?

By the way, I later found out that the accident was the result of drinking and driving. Be safe this year. Buckle up and don't drink and drive. Have a safe and happy 2009.

Tootles!!