This is crazy...having a problem starting this hub! Let me tell you about Joyce, when I think of her several words come to mine: head strong, steuben, loving, silly, very beautiful, that was my sister. Growing up, she always had my back, we shared rooms, so very date she went on, I had to wake up at midnight to hear about it. Thinking back when she started dating her future husband, I loved following them on outings, dates, you name it! Sometimes, they would say I could not go, then I would hide in the back seat of the car until they would be to far away to turn around......those where the days (smiling).

They married on June 21st, it was a day after my mother's birthday. There was 2 children born. She seemed to have the perfect life, but it wasn't. I talked about her in my Postpartum hub. Know matter what health problems she may have had, if I needed her, Joyce came running! After the mental issues, me moving away, the closeness kinda drifted, but when her husband passed away in 1996, I was right there for her and the kids, like she had always been there for me. We shared so many laughs, cried endless tears, through it all, we where not just family, but friends (my favorite sister). Growing up over the years, she was always there for me, through mischief and strife, she helped me understand the lighter side of life.

Joyce was killed in a car accident on June 21, 2008. I have so many emotions going on and I'm sure it's because in a few weeks, it will be a year that she left us. Remembering when her husband passed, it was like angels comforted us together. I miss her so much, and also angry at myself for not staying in touch more, visiting her, etc. She now has a grand daughter, wish she could have met her. Mya is her name and she looks just like Joyce.

Whenever, there is a loss of a love one, please talk about it! Trust me, it helps. Sometimes, I don't know what to do, but I realize it's going to work out for me. I cry, let it all out, I tell myself, cry your last tear, realizing it probably will not be my last tear, but it's going to be alright! It really hurts alot, but through his grace things will get better.......

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