A few months ago, I came out of a 2 year relationship where I was the 'dumpee' not the 'dumper' so to speak. Rejection is always a hard thing to 'gracefully' accept, if accept at all. We are all only human, and no body likes being rejected!

I am going to share with you the last letter that I ever wrote to my former partner. I left this on his computer desk the day I moved all of my stuff out of his place. I know for a fact that he was feeling very guilty about the situation and I decided to put a positive spin on the circumstances. He didn't cheat on me or anything like that, he just 'stopped' loving me. So, that all being said and done, here it is.

AJ,

Well, what can I say? Some journey you and I travelled together, huh? Guess it's time to turn the page and enter the new chapter...? I never was as keen on doing that as you are, but it need be done; I'm ready.

I'll always love you AJ (even if it is, just as a friend). Smoker or non-smoker, drinker or non-drinker; at the end of the day, I frankly, never did give a chit. I've always loved you for who you are - I never meant to seem as though I was trying to change you - never ever.

Don't feel bad and most of all, don't feel guilty - it's not your fault; nobody is to blame. This kinda thing happens everyday. Yes, you've broken my heart but no, I'm not gonna let it get me down and it sure as hell isn't gonna kill me.

There is a difference between moving on and letting go. I have a hard time doing both but I usually find a way to move on. Just like everything, it takes time.

There is an upside to everything - even a frown (it's called a smile by the way). That being said, if you're happy, I'm happy just knowing that. I'll always feel a little hurt knowing that it isn't my presence but rather my lack of, that is making you happy but you're happy and that's the main thing. I'm happy - content but not complacent.

I look back now at the way I treated you about ya addictions and I think, "you f**king idiot!" but then again, I've learnt something from that, so it's not all bad. Chit happens - I did! LOL! But seriously, go for it - live life the way you want to 'cos we only live once! I live life the way I wanna regardless of how I am judged and looked upon. Past 'mistakes' aren't worth the worry - why waste emotion that you could be using in a positive way rather than a negative? Logical, but that's just me... okay, sometimes me.

I wish you well with anything and everything you do - even in new relationships! Go for gold my friend - you've done it before - ya chose me once upon a time - LOL, I'm not modest or anything!

Look after yourself, and no, I won't come over and do your laundry - don't love you THAT much!

Ya friend for life,

Jaymee-Lee

So there you have it! - my positive spin on a not-so-positive situation. I believe in every word that I wrote. I am not bitter about it, nor am I in the state of feeling like I am just going to crawl into a corner and die of rejection. I am hurt, of course I am, but we need not cry over something we can not control - and we most definitely can not control others feelings. I loved AJ - still do, but certainly not in the same way as I did. I am with someone else now whom I love with all my heart, and what has happen, well, I wouldn't change a thing. Would you?