Oftentimes, we find ourselves standing at the doorway of two roads. Deciding which road to take is of no doubt, very stressful for there’ll always be pros and cons linked in each of the roads. Just like the rest of the world’s population, I often find myself caught up in that difficult situation of making the right decision.

A few days back, I was so strained in deciding whether I should leave my present job and take a giant leap of putting up my own business. I was so anxious that time. I even had sleepless nights and zombie-like working moments. There were times when my colleague would ask me if I want to go out for lunch and I would just stare at her for seconds. Making the right decision is really a great thing for me. More so for this decision I’m going to make since it directly involves my family’s future and mine.

I weighed things over. If I will stay with my present job, I am definitely assured of a monthly income, great benefits, and the prestige that comes along with it. Even my father’s medications are also assured since the company I’m working for also gives health benefits for its employees’ dependents. Indeed, staying with my present company is like leaning on a strong wall that could very well survive global economic meltdown.

The problem, however, is that I am not happy doing my job here. True, they could provide me monetary satisfaction and assurance but my inner self could never be satisfied with just that. I definitely know what I want in life and I know that my present job isn’t part of it. I am not fond of office jobs, corporate settings, and power corporate attires. I just want a simple space inside our home where I could write my thoughts and work things on my own. I simply want to be a writer. But being the eldest in the family, I know I have to be responsible enough to provide for my family, especially that my father is no longer capable to provide for us. My family is the primary factor why deciding to follow my heart’s desire is always a difficult thing for me.

If I choose to leave and just push through with my plan on putting up my own business and then continue my writing stints, it would surely be a very big risk. It might be quite hard at first but I know that pursuing your dreams will always yield success. I just have to map out a back-up plan just in case. It’ll definitely be a difficult journey but I know that I could be assured of a much deeper sense of satisfaction and pride in the end.

I thought things over for days and nights. Prayer was my great armor. I sincerely prayed to God for His guidance that I would be able to decide well. I know that whatever decision I make, without God’s blessing, it would be senseless. After I got a seemingly go signal from God, I created plan A and plan B. I know I can’t afford to be impulsive this time. I set aside my emotions and just focused on the practical and functional side of the matter.

Now I’ve already made my decision. It might be too risky for me but I opted to look on the long-term benefit of this decision rather than the temporary gain. Being able to come to this decision is quite an arduous task, but with careful planning, envisioning, and completely submitting your plans to God, it would be a risk worth taking. After all, I believe there’s no such thing as ‘right decision.’ You, as the decision-maker, have the power to make your decision right.