Mirena Bad Side effects

Ok here goes I have posted on here once before when i first saw this site right after i had mine put in back in aug i think it was aug 23rd i got it in and i posted the next week. well i had stabing and poking pains where it was and you know how its in there pointed side down so they can pull it back out. Well guess what! I went for my follow up visit to check placement and they couldnt find the strings! I freaked out i thought it fell out so and i had been having sex and thought i was going to end up pregnate again which i dont want or need i already have 2 kids and a soon to be step daughter that agervates me beyond belief. So they did an x-ray and it was still there thats what the girl that did the x ray told me. So i went back to the room thinking that they could just go and get the strings and put them back where they need to be. WRONG! The dr comes in and says well its still there and then he proceaded to tell me the damn thing is UP SIDE DOWN!!! How in the hell does that happen?! I asked him if it would still work and he said yes cause of the hormones. Then i asked him if since the pointed side is up instead of down like it needs to be if it could rupture through my uterus and he said IT SHOULDNT! Ok now im thinking well it shouldnt have turned up side down, and now your telling me it shouldnt rupture through. So i preceaded to ask so when the time comes to get it out how are you going to get it out? He said "I dont Know" "Maybe it will flip back around to how it needs to be by then"

Ok thats not it. I stay up very late like right now its 3:30 in the morning and i havent slept yet and when i do sleep i can sleep all day long if my boyfriend doesnt make me get up. I am always tired and i have no energy. After i had my daughter i had alot of energy i had lost 90 pounds on my check up after having her the scale was 90 pounds less than what it was 4 months befor i got pregnate with her, so of course i had lots of energy. Then i got this put in and now im dragging ass so to speak. And now im wishing i would have gotten my tube tied instead.

I have hot flashes, i am always hot even when im out side and its like 30 degres out there now. I dont wear a coat just because i will start to sweat like i have been working out for hours.

Sex is VERY painful, put me into tears painful. I will take it as long as i can befor the pain is unbearable and i start to cry and sometime scream because i cant handle it. That is putting a real big strain on our relationship. Also to top this off i am Rapid Cycling Bi Polar. Im 23 years old my kids are 20 months and 4 months then my boyfriend has a 5 year old daughter and i loose my cool with her alot. My meds are not even able to controle this anymore. (and i take alot of them) My mood swings are not just aimed at her but towards my boyfriend who i have been with for 5 years and that girls mother and grandmother they get alot of my anger.

I have very rude out burst like i have terets or something i am not myself anymore by no means. I have turned into a mean person. but my kids i can keep my cool with them for the most part except when my son the oldest one starts throwing his fits that last for ever.

I cant concentrate at all and that is hurting my grades alot in college.

My house is not staying clean because i dont have the energy to get up and clean it and if i do i cant stay focused long enough to do it all (wich that could be related to my bi polar syndrom)

I dont want to have sex at all still.

I dont know if all of this has to do with my bi polar or if its the mirena.

I dont want it out because i dont want anymore kids and i dont have insurance to even go see if its still in my uterus. but i get bad stomach pains and i get really hot then very dizzy and start seeing black and purple spots and feel like i will pass out. My psorisis has broke out even worse.

I have started noticing joint pain.

Im not suisidal or anything but sometimes i go to bed hoping that i dont wake up in the morning and that could be bi polar getting bad but i really honestly dont know what to do. Because if i get it out i cant afford the pill which i wont remember to take, and i will need to get my tubes tied which i cant afford and dont know if i might want more kids when mine get older. But i AHHH!!! I just dont know what to do anymore. I would like to sue the pants off this stupid company cause of how i feel and they might have to do surgery to get it out which can ruin all chances of me having more babies forever.