Missing You and...Blah, Blah, Blah
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I am sitting in front of my desktop still wearing my office clothes. I have no intention to visit hubpages or write something for hubpages. I have so many articles to write for my part time job as a blogger for this month. And I left my laptop in my office because I was going out to dinner. I just need to read Cris A's response to the comments I made for his hubs. Then I saw Tom Rubenoff's smile in one of his comments to my hubs, then there goes goldentoad and benjimester and the list is so long.
I have been saving my articles instead of posting it in HP, because I have deadlines and I get paid in cold cash. Thing is, I write in hubpages because I love it.
Recently, I never seemed to find the time to read a book and I am finding it hard to create something. My English vocabulary sucks because I have not been using the language as my every day means of communication. I noticed that my tongue is confuse, it's having difficulty uttering worlds in English. Yeah, I know that it's a bummer. But the girl has to fit in to the world that she is currently existing.
In the blogosphere, when you get to know the best bloggers/hubbers (and most of them is from hubpages) you would realize that you're not the best. Perhaps, I am speaking for myself but damn right I'm a mediocre writer. I envy Cris A, every word he writes becomes magical. But the man knows that I am proud of him. I admire Benjimester's ideals and for the man that he is. I love goldentoads attitude in writing and his sincerity. Tom Rubenoffs' understanding about life and his versatility. I wish I could have all this qualities as a writer but I am just myself. So what kind of a writer am I?
So you wonder what the hell am I saying? I am just writing my thoughts and practicing myself to think in English again. If you happen to read this accidentally or you're some fan who wants to know where I'm at in my life, let me tell you something...Life has been good to me so I never find the inspiration to write something from my soul. And right this moment, I fear the other side of the thread. Although, I want to create a masterpiece out of garbage, (and by that, I mean when you feel like shit) I pray that this moment will linger.
xoxo to all my cyber friends in the house, you know I love you guys!
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Well it's so good to see you again too. You are a fine writer and sooo much fun. We have missed you sorely and yes, it is not the same here without John. Cris is still creating great things too. Love and hugs now dear, CC
Immartin -thanks very much, your the first one to accidentally hit the fan. I trying to be spontaneous. You know writers have a thing with words. We want to use the most appropriate and really nice to listen to. Thanks! =)
CC - big, big, big hug and kisses for you! I miss you. Just that I forgot your new name. I like CC better because it's more familiar to me and I guess for the rest of the hubbers, too. Good to hear from you. Thanks much! and take care, ok? Return to FB...please!
well well well look at what the bored cat dragged in! hey there missy, nice to see you here, and writing too! anyway..
here on HP, everybody is their own rainbow. we all write for reasons only known to us - and sometimes we don't even have a clue as to why we write. thanks for the mention and the kind words. you know how much it pleases me when i please you with my hubs. yeah, i'm still here, still slugging it out. but there are days, even weeks, that I'm not my old self as far as hubbing goes. that said, i'm sure glad there is an alternate universe for us, facebook!
i hope you find the time to hub once in a while if only for your adoring (and lonely) fans :D
For you Sheena darling, I might. Am working on a painting of you.
Cris - Adoring! You make it sound like I'm some kind of superstar. You're making me miss HP more. I haven't done this in a long while...and the comments...aaahhh...so addicting.
Your hubs, wasn't I right when I called you the Big O? You inspired my friend, Rosselle to write. I was in a coffee shop when she and her boo joined me for coffee and we UNDRESS YOU IN THE DARK. Man, it was awesome! LOL
CC - I sure want to see that painting of myself and brag about it. Promise me one thing...make me sexy, ok? eheheheh
How can I improve on what you already are to me? I promise you will like it. I will send you a preview of it before anyone else gets to see it. Love now sexy, as always CC
Love you back, CC. You're the best!
LOL yeah i remember that comment and I think your friend did mention you. It's one of the coolest feedback I received.
PS You are a superstar here, I'm sure you haven't forgotten the days when HP was our playground. (sigh)
hahahahha. The playground of the online junkies. Back in the day when we were trying to figure out what we wanted to do and differentiate it with what we needed to do. But you know Cris, every bit of that moment was a joy, no regrets, including the one's that were not written. =)
Hail to you, hail to the wonderful Cris and hail to the phils :) At least you expressed something :) And, by the way, this is my 1000 comments on hubpages... Yeah, I read 1000 hubs, and I left 1000 comments... Hell ya :)
Shamel - Hey you, old buddy! Congratulations to your 1000 comments. Glad that you hit the 1000th for my hub. Cool Profile, huh!
Great to see you again, Sheena! I think that many of us miss your presence here on the hub. Good knowing that you are doing well--best wishes to you and -hugs-
Am I dead, yet? Hello my poet friend. I'm glad to see you again. Thanks for dropping by. I hope to get hook again with hubbing. Are you with Cris on the Poetry Contest?
lol, there is a poetry contest? If so, I will never have the advantage Cris has! -he is way more brilliant and way smarter than I can even imagine- I missed you here! -hugs-
Its original and written out from your heart. LOL We all need to be in touch with our English every once in a while. ya?
That photo above looks very familiar!!! LOL Well maybe one of these days our paths will cross somewhere in Cebu. (grins)! As to your writing, you write great! Could feel you right there between the words :) take care of you.
You are just awesome. Write more, dammit. :0)
Sheena - I like the way you write and more importantly, I like you. So clearly there is something that you are getting through here at HP. I happen to write from my soul because so much has happened to me in life and I think real life is more interesting than anything that can be "created" from ones imagination. In any case, every one has to write what they feel to write. Otherwise it won't be very good. You keep doing what you are doing, I think you do it well. : )
I haven't read a lot of your material, but what I have read I enjoyed. Your English is just fine.
Sheena! I miss you too :) I hope you are well!
lmmartin says:
3 months ago
Hey, your English isn't so bad, not bad at all, downright good, in fact. And there's nothing wrong with a little stream of consciousness now and then. It's like foreplay and gets us in the mood for the real thing.
Cheers from Canada.