I picked this verse because your light can't shine to bright until you deal with the darkness that is in your life. That's another reason for this verse, my fear of the dark.

My husband had to go out of town. He decided to take Rusty with him, which is our youngest son. In my article "Take This Tree Out of My Eye". I told you I was watching Joyce Meyer and I prayed that same day for God to take the splinter out of my eye. That same night I heard a noise outside. Fear jumped on me for a few minutes, then I realized what was going on, God was letting me know that it was time to face some fears. I got past that one, it must have been a cat in the bushes.

When I was getting ready to go to bed, It dawned on me that I was alone and would have to sleep by myself. When Bobbys' had to go out of town before it didn't bother me because Rusty was there and all I had to do was say, Baby you want to sleep with mama tonight? I didn't have to give him an excuse, all he knew was he gets to sleep with mama. This particular night though he wasn't there and our son, BJ was there but he was to old to be sleeping with mom.

I had to deal with sleeping by myself first, then I went to bed with the bathroom light on. I always leave a light on somewhere when I go to bed. The next day is when I knew I had to sleep in the dark that night. I cryed and boohooed all day. I cryed so hard that my son BJ said Mama, why don't we pull the mattress off the bed and put it in the living room. You can sleep on the mattress and I'll sleep on the couch.

I told him that I couldn't, I had to face this fear. If I didn't face it now, God would send Dad out of town at some other point and I'll have to face it then. I don't want to go through this again. I just want to get it over with. I'm telling him all this while I'm crying my eyes out.

Its time to go to bed now and I'm panicking. I turn the light off and God is so good. I could see light. BJ had gone outside earlier to feed the dog and left the back porch light on. It was darker in the bedroom than when the bathroom light was on but not completely dark. God was walking me through this in baby steps.

The next day was about the same, crying all day. At that point I knew I was going to have to be completely in the dark tonight. Well, BJ had to work that night, his first job, Pizza Hut. He was getting off work somewhere between eleven an twelve o'clock. Now I have another issue, I have a truck with dead tags and no insurance. I have two options, I can drive this truck or call a friend to get out of bed to go pick him up. I couldn't call anyone. I couldn't do that to them. I was going to have to pick him up.

I head out and now I have another fear, fear of a cop stopping me. I was half way alright until I saw a car coming up behind me. This was just to much, I said Lord, I can not take this! You know what I have to face when I get home! You have to make this car turn off! It wasn't but a couple of minutes and the car turned off. Not another car came up behind me the whole way there.

On the way home I'm watching to see whats going to happen. I saw a car coming and I didn't say anything. I just watched to see what God was going to do. A few minutes later, the car turned off. God spoke to me then and said, I got your back. You don't have to fear anything, I'll protect you. I went home and turned off the light with no problems, no fear, no nothing just knowing that I was protected and God had my back. Thank you Jesus