So, I'm at work. It's weekend and the day is slow. And I'm gonna be here aaaaaallllllll day! No anime for me and the patients are stable (you'll know that I'm a nurse if you read my profile)... These damn computers block flash so slackers like me can't watch things like anime instead of doing actual work!

But I'm still thinking a bit about it... anime I mean and hubpages. I didn't write for hubpages in a while now. Also, I'm recently always thinking of things like SEO, and keywords and trying to improve my hubs so I can get one more click and a few more cents each day... You know, that sucks!

So this post isn't search engine optimized. Anime ramblings is not an high paying keyword. Heck, nothing anime related is actually! I just chose a really bad niche to try to make some money online.

Then why do I do it?... I guess the answer is obvious, I really like anime! It's the topic I'm most comfortable talking about. I also think anime is underestimated and undervalued in almost all the world (excluding some Asian countries) and that plain sucks in my book.

I understand the value of a good soap opera, I really do. It's got real people, with intrigues that could happen in real life, albeit not as many to the same people at once. I actually enjoyed watching soaps when I was a kid - because there wasn't any anime around.

But come on people - right now, I would take almost any anime series (mind you, there are still anime genres and bad series out there, as in all things in life) instead of a soap opera. Because of the creativity, the style and yes, because of the intellectual stimulus it provides me while watching it (of course, I'm talking of the good shows).

What are good shows? Well, you can start for some of my recommendations. I could write many, many more, but I'm also a slacker at writing online in a language I'm not that familiar... and for cents, too, that's not that motivational.

I tried to write about other topics. As almost any good hubber out there I got myself an alias, where I wrote about other topics. Hubpages, credit cards, gadgets, things like that... Well, it wasn't that fun to write about! Because I don't put heart in it.

In anime hubs, I actually do. Sometimes I'm inspired and write a hub on a flash. Those usually work the best. Others I try to be as minucius as possible and can take several sittings to complete. Call me narcissistic, but I think my hubs are really good! And I read them a lot of times after writing them, basically because it gives me pleasure... "hey, I wrote this and it's actually pretty good!"

My real life has been having so many twists. A break-up with a girl which I was almost married got me quite depressed. I still feel a little empty and confused inside - with emotions as rage, despair or numbness fleeting on my mind on occasion. Watching some good anime - and most of all writing about it - provided me with an anchor not to kill myself. I'm being true here, don't doubt.

Of course, it was'nt my main one. Friends and fammily gave me a great deal of support and I couldn't left my hole without them. But anime was important too!

Now I sold my house and lost a lot of money with it, but I will finally detach myself from that she-devil. Split the furniture, moved to somewhere else, I'm steadily doing all the f*** up steps a man has to do when this kind of s*** happens.

It's not easy, but hey, I'm here. I still laugh with anime. So I guess I'll be alright.

Ramblings on anime... well, I should rename this to rtamblings on myself. Anyway, I just realised, this is also a thank you hub. To all my readers, to all the hundreds of thousands of people that read a word I wrote on anime or viewed a movie I published. Thank you!

You helped me staying on. Even if I'm still a slacker, I have a bit of myself in the net and something I'm proud of. That little thing (maybe laughable to some) makes me proud.

Love you all, love anime and starting to love myself again.

Until next time I write

Nanet!