Rape Escape
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The Rape
As far as I can remember, one of the worst incidents as a child occurred when I has taken and raped. I haven’t even started kindergarten yet. I don’t even remember how old I was but know enough how scary it was. I remember it was night time in the middle of some apartments. It was me, mom, and my two other siblings. Not sure which sisters it was. We were getting ready to head back home. My mom stopped and had a deep womanly conversation with another lady. She was enjoying the chat so much; that she didn’t notice some teenage boy had snatched me and carried me off on his shoulder. I screamed for help as he carried me up the steps. I remember, one of my siblings was tugging at my mom’s white dress and pointing at me, probably trying to tell her that I was taken. The next thing I knew, he threw me on the bed and pulled my pants off and told me don’t cry. Suddenly I saw my siblings had actually atempted to rescue me by the door, reaching out with their little arms. The guy easily push them back out. I was still crying hysterically and pulled my pants back up. He managed to lock my siblings out and proceed to rape me. I was in pain and still screaming in tears. From then, I remember waking up, covered in sweat and tears. I don’t know where he went, but I pulled my pants back up and head out and went straight back to my mom. I was so scared and confused to what he did, that I said nothing about it.
Rape Again
I’m embarrassed to say this, but I’ve been raped a couple more times around the early primary school year by a cousin. We were at my aunt Judy's house most of the time while my parents worked. I was best friend with my cousin say her name was Lilo, whose step-brother was Lu. He would take us in to his room and rape us. I don’t think I was the only victim, since I saw a few of my siblings walk out of his room, dazed and confused from what he did. I’m afraid to share this with my family too. My aunt was the only adult there, and having to put up with 13 kids running the place must be hard on her. I don't know if she knew that her step son has been raping us repeatedly or if it was something acceptable. I really don't want to know. I would be hurt if she did or did not notice anything about his sexual behavior.
Being a child who has no knowledge about sex was difficult. I mean, how was I to described it to anyone at that age? Sadly, more children are raped more by their close friends and relatives more than from a random stranger.
Story Unfold
Now I did told a school counselor of all the incidents that’s been going at the house. She was very concerned and called in another therapist who then called the police!? I was so scared and uncomfortable from what he was asking where this guy was touching me?! I was confused and mad for the fact that no one would report this so sudden?! It happened over 10 years ago all the way back in California. I am now in North Carolina for 15 years now. Later I found out, the report was closed.
As of today, no one in the family knew about this incident. I want to share this with them, but scared that they’ll get mad at me for not letting them know this long. This story was almost blown off by some idiotic social worker who refused to pull me out of the home to foster care. We’ll get in to that foster care matter later.
I do eventually plan to share this with my siblings as they had witness what these horrible monster had done to us. But telling my mom about it, would make matters worse. I am thankful to not have any disease from those monster and let this story be told.
Since the rape, I am still jumpy and aware of my surroundings. I use to be so afraid of getting my change back from a guys hands and avoid them as much as possible. That's another reason why I don't want to rush in to having a boyfriend any time soon. But I am gradually learning how to forgive them and be able to trust certain ones.
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Thanks Teresa,
I was declining to write about this mess, but after going back to therapy I knew I had to release all that nightmare and be able to share it. Some people prefer to leave their rape incident alone but I believe its best to start opening up and tell others that they are not alone.
May, I cannot express the emotions that are churning around in my head at the moment. There is anger at the rapist/s, sorrow for you for going through this, horror for what happened, so many things. I for one fully understand the devastation of rape, you also read my story, so this story cuts even further for me.
I am so proud of you that you told this story, you are so very brave. We have nothing at all to be ashamed of for telling our stories, the only ones who should feel shame is those who have committed these unspeakable crimes. You have great strength, and an incredible heart, I always believed and knew that, I am so proud to know you May. May your strength be a light to those who have also endured the pain of rape. Love ya chica- babe(hugs) xoxoxoxxoxoxoxox
Yeah, I thought about it for a long time. It's no good to keep it a secret and hide from this incident. Thanks for sharing your side of the story too.
All I can say May is, this is a sick and twisted world at times and such things do happen. I am so sorry that it happened to you, or any other wee girls of such a tender age. The truth needs to be told to all comcerned and I know someday you will have the courage to do the proper thing and confide in your Mom. But that is your choice. Chin up girl. (((hugs)))
It was very difficult for me to accept any guys as friends instead of predator. I am gradually getting use to the fact that they mean no harm. I think its best to not tell my mom. She would feel guilty for the rest of her life for not protecting me and my siblings. Hate to say it, but from my hub attempting suicide, she was also one of the culprits in wrong doing. But through time and healing, I am learning to forgive them.
Oh May, my friend! My heart hurts with you. To have held this in for so long. Too long. You have taken a brave step here. You are safe, and so very loved, you can't imagine. I listen to what others say in hubs and you're like our favorite little sister. Forgiveness is what you do to heal you, not for them. We will keep your heart safe here!
I guess it wouldn't hurt to virtually hug all of you for your kind words!
I'm sure I speak for all of us {{{hugs}}} back to you, May!
Words cannot express what I want to say. It saddens me, and it saddens me more that it happens everyday. Writing will help you and you need to continue to express your feelings before they express you. Hang in there, my fellow NC friend.
hugs, dori
I am just sitting here speechless, I don't think I could put into words my feelings except you are one brave lady for writing that and take a hug, I hope writing about it helped.
You are a strong brave person. By putting forward what has happened to you, may help others overcome their reticence to report these horrible crimes and make young people realise that they are not alone.
My heart aches for your pain.
fortunerep, thanks for stopping by. I had to learn to write these things out before going through with my therapy session. Glad to be a carolina gal.
BC, you're such a sweet kind soul. I am no longer trapped in my own past and looking forward to a better future.
sityorso, we gotta thank BP for her inspiration. I kept hesitating and putting this off for so long. But I'm glad that I had a lot of emotional support from everyone.
I'm so so sorry you had to experience this. I have a younger sister that just got out of the the hospital in the past month because her ex had raped her and beat her so badly. Yet, she wouldn't mention his name due to the fact that she still loves him (or at least she thinks she does). Rape is an awful thing and my heart goes out to you.
I hope that my younger sisters won't have to go through this hell again either. I had a friend who was going through the same thing as your lil sis. She thinks that he is the only one that will love and hold her even though he's abusive. Glad she put a stop to it, when he pulled a gun to her head. It's still scary seeing this guy who is bugging me about her and now wanting to hook up with me?! ( Like that's ever going to happen?!)
That sounds terrible and I have been raped and it was nothing so intense and for that I am sorry
mayhmong, may the force be with you. You are a strong woman who will transcend this evil. It's a good idea to write about it, can be cathartic.
I wish you all the best!
kwiist, you are not alone! No girl should be force to do this dirty job.
DynamicS, thanks for dropping by.
I am so sorry that you had to deal with this. It is always good to be "aware" of your surroundings. You are not alone. I am shocked at how many of my girlfriends or friends have also been raped. It is a horribleviolation of ones being. Especially at such a young age. I am glad that you wrote about it. You are strong for doing so. I get so enraged hearing about it. It is totally unforgivable on the rapists part. It seems to be normal to keep quiet about it for some time. I hope your family is understanding, as they well ought to be. The more people speak out, the more people will be willing to say something sooner and get these creeps off the street. No one should ever have to go through that. My heart goes out to you.
Oh my, a lot of girls are raped and its something that we fear of saying anything about it. I'm suprise to hear that some people had admit of being rape victims. Papermoon, thanks for dropping by. (hugs)
Yeah, I know you're speechless.
Don't worry, I got the email. Thanks for lending your kind words.
Stories like yours, May, make me ashamed for my gender. I will never understand how some men can take the tenderness, closeness, and even holiness of sex and twist it into something as grotesque as a weapon to hurt someone. Your story tells me that you must be a very strong and good person indeed to come through this ordeal with your humor and positive attitude intact.
I'm really feeling Sorry for you - For this Islam has the best way to stop such sort of acitivities - islam has a punishment for rapest that he would be burried half in the earth and then beaten by stones till he dies and I assure everyone if this law is applied and people knows the punishment - no one will rape again.. 2nldy I would say that such activities are only happen because of opening everything to everything before the Time, We should Stand against those persons who never care about other feelings and to relax themselves only for a couple of mintues they just ...
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My heart goes out to you. So many of the rapes or other sexual attacks of young children are by family members or close friends, and as children, we're often too afraid to talk about it to someone who can help. I hope that writing this has begun to help you heal. It took me over 40 years to find forgiveness for my own father.
Tom, everyone thinks I am just a carefree laid back silly girl. But in reality, I have been violated and hurt. Thanks for dropping by sweetie.
rizari, I have no idea what you're comforting me about, but I appreciate you coming by and understand.
nolimits nana, my heart goes out to you too. I'm sorry that he had done that to you. I also have a member of my family sexually harassing us almost everyday. Its something that takes a long time to heal and forgive.
May...they say that rape is more about taking power from someone than it is about sex.....if that's true....you took your power back by the telling of the story. I'm just a carefree laid back silly boy wishing you nothing but good things in your life.
Thanks R. Blue. Now I don't feel so blue
I'm always Blue....can't help it...hope you're feeling better.
((((((HUGS))))))
I do feel better now, I can't stop thanking everyone for stopping by!
gosh May, I feel so horrible for you. Nobody should ever have to go through that. That you managed to make it through to where you are now is amazing and inspiring. How very difficult it must have been for you, especially at that age when you had no idea what was going on or what to do about it. My heart goes out to you.
Awwww....you're loved here...for sure!!
Oh May, I wish I could just hug and embrace you rape should not happen to anyone as it is horrific and can destroy a person's life for a long time. There are so many sick people in the world. I will keep you in prayer my little friend and you will come out strong.:)
So terrible story. My sympathy and love with what happened to you last time. Hope this story will help for other women who has the same experience with you.
I cannot even start to imagine how painful those experiences that you shared. And writing them meant you had to think back. I hope those were and are the worst parts of your life and that everything that will come and happen are good things. Keep the faith :D
I want to just thank and hug every one of you who stopped by here! I am suprise to receive some personal e-mails from other rape victims. It's something that we shouldn't be hiding and be afraid of for the rest of our life, but to stand up for ourselves.
i have no words for you. Here while writing I am so much angry you can’t even imagine and I am hitting the side wall with my fist.
I am very much embarrassed that I am not there to help you BUT at least I can object the evil systems of Humanism and Materialism who are the major cause of these types of incidents. These evil systems have totally drawn human beings out of religion. And since there is no fear of God, no fear of life after death, no fear of heaven and hell after death, no fear of being trialed after death, no concept of God watching and noticing our acts then these types of evil and animal societies develop. Even Muslim societies as a whole are very badly affected by their evil injections constantly being inserted by the ways of Media and Honorary Freemasons. Freemasons and Zionists behind these systems portray it in sentimental songs like "IMAGINE THERE IS NO RELIGION" by John Lennon. Even Obama recently gave hype to this song recently, sang it with innocents like you in a gathering. They ultimately made people in monsters and devils.
They don’t like to give death penalty to the Rapist just because most of them are SADIST. They give them 2, 4 or 6 years imprisonment due to which when these rapists come out they rape again and these sadists enjoy watching people being raped again and again in the society by each other.
May Allah show them the right way and if they make mockery out of it then may Allah curse them all who are behind these pagan doctrines.
........Please don't hurt yourself over this! I'm okay!
It is so sad and healing certainly is a slow process. And I hope you find a good man who understands you and will love you.
Btw can't you anonymously report him. I mean every day that person is out could lead to another potential victim. Such people sometimes tend to be serial rapists and need to be taken care ASAP.
Oh btw I checked Mr.Usman published that hub and it got me curious to read yours and like you it just doesn't make sense to me either(for a comment to become a hub). Have a good weekend.
Every time I read a rape story, I wish the rapist to be punished with a punishment that would surpass the agony of the pain that his vicitm felt. Something so torturous that any other potential rapists wouldn't even dare think about carrying out such a heinous crime. 20 years or a lifetime in jail is just not good enough!
Take a Hug from me May. Always be as strong as you are ,as that's the only way to defeat the rapist. Also, you never know and you mayone day become a becon of light for others who have gone through similar ordeals. Or you may head a successful movement that would be able to pass a law against rapists to be punished with the worst of punishment in the history of mankind!
Hug! You are very strong. The same story happen all over the world. But No girls can write it and tell others.
countrywomen, I don't understand why usmanalia81 published a hub about his comment here. Hmm.. But I did report to the police and nothing was done about it, since there were no physical evidence that long ago. (Figures)
nazishnaism, I wish that they could stay in jail for their whole life! Taking away one's innocence by force is just plain cruel. And yes, I had received some private e-mails that girls were also being rape and thank me in return for sharing this.
Dvn, Hugs to you too! No one really tells this secret eithere?
It is very upsetting that so many woman and children have to go through these traumatizing experiences. It is unfortunate that our physical and mental abilities make it difficult for us to recover from incidents that cause us so much pain. Mayhmong you are a brave and courageous soul to express such a personal and private matter. I am sure you have helped many others just by letting them know that they are not alone. The one thing I would like to express is - Please don't let this unfortunate incident control how you go through life. I hate how one person and experience can shape our lives forever. These people go on and live their lives normally and the person affected by their behaviour deals with lifelong trauma. It is not right; and like R. Blue stated, you have to take back your power and live your life for you. These sick minded people need to get help and figure out why they are doing such harm to others. Coming from abuse doesn't give people the right to abuse others. These people need to find better coping methods instead of taking their pain out on innocent people and creating a revolving cycle of pain and trauma to others. Keep your head up girl! Just remember that you are in control and not those guys who hurt you. Show that you will not let them control your life, and take each day step by step until you build up a comfort level around men. Not all men are out to hurt others. There is alot of good guys in the world who will treat you the way you deserve to be treated. Just make sure you are fully aware of their behaviours and emotional stability before entering a relationship. All the best to you my dear. *HUGS*
Awwww....that's soooo sweet of you to say that. I'm gonna cry.I shall try my best to be back up on my feet again. My next hub will be based on healing and overcoming my obstacles.
May, just like the others before have said, you are very brave to be able to open up about all of this. And you are very loved and supported here.
I know that shame goes along with something like this, but I promise you that you have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to be ashamed about! With crimes like this, fear and confusion and a feeling of not knowing who to trust go right along hand in hand. And at such a young age!! Talking about it, no matter how far in the past will help. And I'm sorry you were let down by a justice system and a child welfare system. It breaks my heart to hear those stories. But even more so because you are a friend.
I don't know your family, and only you know what is best, but if deep down, you know they will support you, telling your family will be a good thing. If not, you have us here.
Big Hugs to you! And lots of admiration for becoming such a wonderful person despite the pain and abuse you have suffered!!!
Ooh may, my stomach is churning as I felt your pain and feeling alone and confused. There will never be enough words for me right now..but I just want to hug you close. Can I? Sending you some healing love...
Mr. Usman tends to see zionist/freemason conspiracy in every problem. Now I just prefer to ignore him. Anyway what are the laws in regard to a group of women (who have suffered under him) reporting the matter much beyond the statutory medical examination phase. I know in most of such cases due to family pride matters tend to go unreported and in fact those perpetrators relish in the fact that since it is within family you won't dare to report it to anybody.
I tend to believe in Karma/Reincarnation and if not in this life time then surely he would have to pay for it in another life time. I just feel like hugging you and comforting you. If there is a God above then surely he would see the pain and send some good blessings your way so that your future is filled with love and happiness.
Dear CW,
If I blame Freemasons and Zionists then their is a reason for that and you know it very well. Regarding converting my comment to a hub, the good news is, you became informed about the mishap happened with mayhmong via my hub.
ripplemaker, I need all the support I can get through this. Thanks for stopping by, <<<HUGS>>>>
I have no further comments about what's going on with ya usmanali81. I still don't get it....
Mayhmong- Ditto even I "don't get it". And his justifications or so called "reason" seems to be a terrible case of brainwashing by someone who has fed such stuff to him. Anyway we all are there to support you in this difficult journey. Have a great day.
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Oh my goodness what a horrible situation you were thrown into, you should really invest in martial arts, any will do, that should help get you a little more comfortable around guys, knowing that if they try anything you can knock them on their butts.
Thank you for sharing your story, I am sure that any other rape victims who read it will find their situations a little easier to cope with knowing that there is someone out there like them, after all, it is always easier to deal with pain when you know your not alone.
Why do I get the feeling, people from different parts of the world is leaving me strange message... Anyways, book_worm, I would love to take some martial arts class! Problem is, I don't ever have time to do anything else but work my ass off! But I had received numerous private e-mails from victims who are also starting to open up about themselves.
I do not know how I ended up on your hub, I typed in food in the serch and it brought me here. I was taken from a playground nad held for two days and raped repetely. I also was raped again. I do not talk about it at all. I just hold it in 37 years later. Thank you for sharing. You are not alone, it still affects my life . You are very brave to share and are helping others rather you know it or not.
May you are very brave and I commend you for it. Get all those "negative" feelings out now as soon as you can so you can be free from the hurt at an early age. A similar thing happened to me but my parents did not support me and hurt me really bad. I carried it around for 35 years before I cried one day and thought I would never stop. God bless you child.
I think it was meant to for you to come here melshomecorner, even though it has nothing to do with food. I'm sorry to hear that you were taken and gone for two solid days?! There's no need to hold on to the pain any more. I finally forgive him and released it out of my system. Giving you some extra hugs.
DonnaKocurek, how could your parents not support you?! Well, at least you let them know about it. I haven't said a word about this to my parents yet. But hey, I went and seek professional help and received more comforting advice than I expected?! Especially from you hubbers out there!
Well done, and now you are empowered, and wise.
May you strengthen more and empower others also.
I just dont have the words mayhmong. God has given you the strength to come through such a terrible ordeal to be able to write about it. I have always wished for a much tougher sentence for rapists..this dastardly deed does not only affect the body, but does worse things to the mind. Huggggggggs.
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May - You are indeed brave - so many who have gone through similar experiences keep their feelings locked inside, because they think no one will understand, and people will think bad of them. You have been blessed with strength and courage, and it shows. My heart goes out to you my dear, you are loved and respected by many, and your story has touched and inspired us.
Mayhmong, i am shocked when i read this, it shouldn't be happen, your brave and strength had impress me, i support you.Wish you all the best from now on.
I am sorry you had to endure all of this. I have been in some situations like that before to. It does affect who you are as you get older. It makes it hard to trust people.
May...congratulations on the perfect 100 score on this hub....and First Place on the "Hot" list!!!!
As a former Chaplain and rescuer of missing children, I have this insight: Rape occurs most often as a dominance issue, not sexual. Your cousin chose this method to dominate you, because of his own feelings of inferiority.
I pray this insight helps you to understand, and realize men do not rape. They love.
This has gotta be the most dreadful hub I ever wrote?! Why a score of 100?!
May - I'm so sorry - no child should be made to go through this. It's hard but you need to tell youself that for every man like that out there, there are ten good ones. I do hope you find the find the love that heals and makes you forget.
Hi May, thankyou for sharing ,especially for all the innocent children and past hurts that many adults still carry , it offers them the most hope ,and perhaps the only flicker of light in their tortured day!
I used to work with sexually abused children,and the statistics are staggering ,which is possible why your hub ranked so high (sadly) also 80% of perpetrators are known to the victim , a friend , neighbor,relative etc, another fact that society likes to shy away from. And I know for a fact that it happens all across class systems , the richer offenders can just afford better lawyers is all. So you go girl !!!...celebrate that rich beautiful soul that will be your legacy.xxoo.
May.....I suspect that you scored really high with this story because of your bravery in telling it and telling a true story that came from the heart. I guess you feel this was your worst hub because of the subject matter....but so glad you shared a bit more of Mayhmong with us....helps us know you better. You deserve all the recognition you get from this hub.
Very sad story. It's unfortunate that this kind of stuff happens all of the time but that fear and embarassment often keep these things from coming out. I am so sorry to hear your story, but like everyone else has said, you are extremely brave.
....and I wish you more than anything a good lawyer! ,maybe theres a hubber (or law student) who would help...
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"I’m afraid to share this with my family too"
It's really frustrating, I know (it happen for my little sister too), but if you can't talk to your own family, try finding a close friend. Like my sis did, she found me. And I was so pissed off that I called all my friends to find a good connection to the local police office.
That way, I was able to get to know a police officer (that now became a friend of mine) and put togheter a flagrant scene for that idiot.
He now has 2 more years to spend beyond the bars ... And by the time he'll get out, I'll look out for him... :)
Mayhmong, dearest friend you are so brave by letting this all out, and i believe you have done a great job by washing away the ashes and trying to rise above all what happened to you and your siblings. I do respect you for all what you have done and especially for your honesty. I hope by time this pain will ease and you will be able to talk to your family as well. I do hope you find comfort in talking with us here because if i learned something important here on hubpages it would be that we all have to stick together, and give each other the hand needed to help us stand. Know that our hearts will always be with you through out the journey of life. May God give you all and of us strength, peace, and harmony.
Mayhmong, write, write, write, and write some more. You have bundles to say, girl. I never survived sexual abuse, but I know emotional and physical abuse intimately. Writing can help you keep and/or regain sanity. You are brave. Stay brave and be well.
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Let me rape....... ha ha just joking. nice hub. thank you for sharing...
You're brave enough to write about this and it's appreciable. I don't know what to say, it's so sad.
Thumbs up for being so bold!!
I feel sorry for you but luckily you are brave enough to stand up again. It takes times to eliminate the phobia but do not loose hope in your life or in a man especially the one who will going to share your life.
God bless!
I hope you feel very proud of your courageousness mayhong, in sharing this horrible story with the world - if you can - continue to write about it which may then lessen the pain and power it holds in your daily life.... you are one great lady - (((((hugs)))))
May when I saw the title to your HUB I was uncomfortable opening it. You did the right thing my heart breaks for your pain. This the most vile crime of them all the perpetrators cannot be allowed access to our society to them we are not people we are prey. We must protect our children at any cost, we must remove sex offenders from our midst's. One event is too many they should never get a second chance. I'm so sorry May you were exposed to this evil behavior so young. Work on your trust in your own comfort zone, in your own time. Your courage is remarkable I hope you find a warm soft place surrounded by friends. Peace.
May, I was speechless after reading your article. You are such a brave woman to share this. God Bless.
There is nothing worse in my mind than rape. Where's our Boondock Saints killing all the rapists?
Similar happenings are so prevalent in the villages of my country Nepal. It is so sad, my prayers with you.
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I'm really feeling Sorry for you - For this Islam has the best way to stop such sort of acitivities - islam has a punishment for rapest that he would be burried half in the earth and then beaten by stones till he dies and I assure everyone if this law is applied and people knows the punishment - no one will rape again.."
I think that's a great law to be applied, even though it is rather extreme! Being stoned to death does not even begin to compare to the kind of trauma a rape victim goes through. One of my closest friends has a 3 year old sister that was raped by their brother, and since he was under 18 at the time he is only going to be imprisoned for the rest of his teenage years. Then he's out. Just like child molesters that only get 3-10 years of imprisonment. Sadly, rapes have been going on since the beginning of the human species, and it didn't become unacceptable until we became more civilized. When will people choose to act civilized and take control of their physical desires???
May, you are a very strong woman for sharing your story with the world, and God bless you for it. I'm not the most religious person but I do believe in a God and a heaven and hell, and that those that have treated people like objects and less than animals will suffer in the long run.
That was a really painful hub to read. I my heart goes out to you. I admire your strenght and courage to write this hub.
May God bless you.
You are really a brave girl May but one thing I would like to say you is that if you had with your siblings reported that instance when it happend for the first time, your life had been different. I know it is very tough but crime grows when it is not reported. I know we cannot stop crime but we can limit it to a certain level. Besides this, all my best wishes are with you and may you get a good partner who understands you well than anyone else and will try to soothe down your feelings about that cruel crime. If there are cruel people in this world, there are also good and kind people in this world. Best of luck for your life and forever.....
This is a very sad hub, mayhmong. There is a favorite verse I carry in my heart that is Psalm 34:18 that helps me get along. This helps me handle my own frailties one step more today, seeing from your other hubs you've seen better days. Thanks for sharing and Numbers 6:24-26 for you, my dear. And now I'm going to go somewhere where I can cry uncontrollably until, feeling better, I will be. And don't worry mayhmong about those that made you fall because God sees all.
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I accidentally bumped into your hub and was really sad to read it.I really admire your mental strength.Hope you forgive and move on with your life.
Took me a long time to forgive the culprits and move on.
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Good grief this is a terrible story to have to tell - you are brave for writing about it, and I hope you can get some of your feelings out in the open. My thoughts and good wishes are with you -- hugs, T.