As an individual you worked hard to get were you wanted to be. Maybe you put yourself through college, maybe you put in years of hard work in the corporate ladder. You get married, and your individualism becomes a duet with the love of your life. Promises of being equal, both contributing 100%. The decision to start a family is thought out carefully, and both agree that together, you will be equal partners in raising the children you bring into the world.

The first day the new family members requires one of you to stay home from work. Chances are mom feels the need to nurture just a tiny bit more than Dad, so she stays the first time. Then, the next time Dad stays, and hopefully there are not too many days like that. Thats 80% of the way it works for couples who decide to "truly split" raising baby.

What if your child is born with special needs? A case we found ourselves in. Someone has to stay home, someone has to care for them. You sit down, and you find that love you have for this child pulls your heart into decisions that you would not have thought were logical just a few years back. You make the decision that the person who has the job that can best financial care for the family will stay employed, and the person who, though they spent 5 years in college, does not make enough by them-self to support the family, stays with the children.

It's the call of love, that you do not ever regret, because as a parent you know that you will do anything for your child, and your goal is to make their life on this earth as joyful as possible. Medical challenges take up your days and you find yourself exhausted at times, but always grateful that you can provide all your children need, even to the one the doctors gave no chance to. You watch them grow, overcome obstacles, begin to reach their independence and know that your goal, of getting them to the point that they can begin to choose their path in life with security, comfort, and belief in their self is now there. You are not needed 100% anymore in their life. You have succeeded, and now you sit back and watch, and wait for them to ask you for guidance, or advice, or just a nod of approval, but your 24 hour days of being Mom, are now filled with thoughts of "where do I go from here?".

Though you are grateful for the time you had with your children, and know you wouldn't change it for the world, you find yourself in a place, where you need to know, that if you had to, you could take care of yourself. Believing that all you experienced in the years, and the education you worked so hard to complete will be enough to start over, you find out that after filling out over 65 applications, there is not a spot for you. You get creative and invest in a few more years of classes thinking that one more credential, or degree will help you in the field, but the jobs are scarce and opening tend to go to either the younger crowd, or someone who knew someone. It leaves a very sad feeling.

You believe in your heart that if you just take a few more classes it might help, but money is tight, so you have to get a part time job, anywhere, but still no hire. So here I am, looking through the internet for someone willing to allow me the opportunity to work, and rejoin society. Hot jobs-writing part time-employer HUBtool. Do I have a chance? We will see.