Sharing the woes and windfalls of pregnancy

Twenty three and not quite ready to give up the lifestyle I've been accoustom to, I found myself pregnant.

I stumbled to the bookstore to find anything to ease the worry that has clouded my brain in the hours since I peed on that little stick. What I found at the bookstore wasn't comfort. I felt lost in a world of planned pregnancies and teen motherhood. I fit in nowhere. Where were the books for "Oops! I'm an Adult who Accidentally Got Knocked Up" or "Not Married, Own Nothing, Few Responsiblities, Here's Baby!?!" I lazily grab a few books off the shelf and head to the check out. Could the woman behind the counter tell that I'm buying these books already impregnanted rather than those well planned thirty-somethings who are just being prepared? That I had no idea what doula was? I felt judged at every turn. It was like a scarlett "P" had been emblazened on my "unsuitable for mommy" tee.

I got home and began reading. Knowledge is power, right? Skipping the first few chapters about trying to get pregnant, I finally found the comfort I was looking for. Seeing the drawings of the alien living inside my belly made this experience real for the first time. I felt a connection to my "mistake."

Despite not being one from the mold, I look forward to being a mom. I hope for all the women out there like me, who haven't found where we fit in just yet, can find comfort in knowing that there are plenty of "us" out there. If you have found anything helpful please feel free to comment and let others in on your secrets.

I found helpful:

www.babycenter.com/

www.babiesrus.com