Something I have discovered in the last few months about myself: If I haven't spent any time around people all day and then I go somewhere that requires interacting with other human beings, I become the most socially awkward person in the world. I've probably been this way my whole life... but I'm just now realizing it.

Summer has just started for me, well almost. I've been out of school for three weeks now I think and as soon as finals were done I did this thing where I didn't want to be around anybody for a week and achieved this by staying in my room for long periods of time and not really answering any calls or texts. I would literally sit on my computer for hours surfing the net, going on forums, posting pictures on my Deviant Art page, and playing on Facebook. That's just about all I did next to cleaning my room, my car, my bathroom, my life... After the semester I just had it took me the entire week after finals to get my life back together.

I did have a couple of friends over to chill but it's not hard to socialize with these friends so it wasn't anything big.

Okay, biggest pet-peeve ever: Hanging out with someone who actually has to do something while you're hanging out. These people are the ones that can't just sit there and enjoy your company, or can't just sit around and watch a movie or talk or look through magazines or anything like that. They literally have to be doing something the WHOLE FREAK'N TIME that they're with you. You either have to take them out and go shopping, take them out to eat, go see a movie, go to a park... anything, SOMETHING to keep them entertained. I hate hanging out with these people. Thankfully I don't know very many that are like this.

I'm not saying this to be mean or tell people that if they want to hang out with me they better expect to not to do anything. I'm just saying that when I come off of a high stress semester in college and go straight into summer the reason I probably didn't call you up to hang out was because I knew you were a high maintenance friend. Not that I don't love you! I wouldn't call you my friend if I didn't love you.

Anyway, back to my original topic. Socially awkward... That's me! That week after finals I still had work and where I work I'm constantly interacting with people all the time. I work at the theatre that puts on shows... not a movie theater... a THEATER theater. And my job entails handling the audience, the actors, and the crew all in one. So basically my position is a glorified babysitting position. And all that week I wouldn't see anyone for hours and hours during the day and then I had to turn it all around and actually see people and deal with them and talk to them. Imagine! Talking to people can sometimes be so difficult!

It's not something that you think its difficult ever... but when you can be as socially awkward as I can because you've spent most of your days as a hermit in your room... it can get pretty difficult.

So one of these days I was sitting up in the sound booth waiting for dancers to arrive for their rehearsal before the show and some dancer walks in and comes straight up to the sound booth, sits down next to me and starts talking to me. The first thought in my head was "What do you want I don't want to interact with you please leave me alone." But she kept talking and talking and socializing and I kept nodding and agreeing and mhmming. And them some of the crew members showed up and were talking and blah blah blah and finally I told them "When I haven't spent time around people for the beginning of the day and then I come to work like this I become this incredibly socially awkward person and the first thing I want to tell people who try to talk to me is to not."

That ended up breaking my ice and I was fine from then on cause everyone else felt more awkward than I did.

So what is my point in writing this blog? I'm not to sure. It's just an observation that I've been observing for the last few weeks. I see how kids who get homeschooled and don't interact with other kids can become incredibly sheltered and awkward. This is a problem in our society. And I guess this week my topic is going to be awkwardness so I think I'm prefacing this week with this blog. I'll be ranging from an aray of different subjects from dating, to pick up lines, to friends, to awkward situations... we'll see where this one takes me! If you have any awkward stories you'd like to share feel free to leave them in my lovely little friendly comment box! I always enjoy getting comments. I get so few because I just started blogging! Sad day.

Okay so what are the facts? I am a socially awkward creature who likes her solitude and doesn't like to be talked to when she's spent hours alone on her own.

What are my thoughts on this? I think that I've solved this problem by telling people exactly what I've written in here. Once I do that the ice is broken and I'm all good from then on!

This week's blog topic: Awkwardness In Its Worst Forms

                                                Happy camping awkward little kids!

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