Damn it feels good to be a gangster! I don't know why it's relevant... but it feels good to say it ;).

I've been doing research for my movie. A huge part of that research involved immersing myself in the BDSM world. Since I was dismissed from the ol' Mistress, I have been actively looking for a new one as to continue my experience and research. The crazy thing I've found is that I don't want another Mistress. I don't need another Mistress and I got everything I was looking to have answered from that experienced. I just thought I was doing it wrong and wanted to find out the right way to be in a Dominant/submissive relationship. So, from now on, I simply interview BDSM people for their experiences since I already have my own.

Another unexpected outcome in my research... um, really unexpected... somehow I ended up with a girlfriend. She's gorgeous too. I'm in the midst of learning a lot about love in this process. It's been 2.5 years since I've been in a romantic relationship. I don't count my current marriage because it's not a typical situation. We didn't do the relationship thing, we just got married. Nothing is complicated about it -- it just works effortlessly. This new relationship is a new level of relationship I've never experienced. If you've been following me from the beginning or even just from last year, you'll know every thing I've been through that makes this girl a big deal. This is an experience I look forward to more than anything else in my life as it is already redefining who I know myself to be in love.

It's quite an extraordinary outcome... who would have thought I would redefine love in my search to make a good movie? I should make a movie just on my experience of writing a movie! That would be the 6th movie that's come out of writing this one... nice!