The Life Variety Show
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I'm sitting in this old chair, in front of my computer, contemplating on how things turned out to be as they are now. I miss writing hubs without boundaries and without rules. For a couple of days now, I have been excruciatingly whacking my brains out to produce something to pay for the tuition fees and to put food on the table. Not that I am ungrateful for all the things I Have learned. I am.
Today is a Saturday, it's my rest day. I'd like to make it my "me" time even just for a few hours here writing my own thoughts. Perhaps, I would be able to produce something for work when I am done.
You know, I wish I have a genie in a bottle. Life is a bit hard sometimes. I hate to complain but I can't help but ask God why wasn't I born a genius? Even with just one single field where I would truly excel. Say for example, now that I am writing articles, Can't I just be a great writer? I hate mediocrity, it's not just my style but the moment I put my two feet and my heart into a certain field. I am always not the best because now I found out that there are people who's actually better than I am.
When I was younger, I love to sing and I joined competitions. I can sing alright but not the winning piece kind of voice. I represented my school a couple of times in Inter-school competitions but I always bring home the 2nd or 3rd runner up trophy. I left that dream to become a singing superstar when I got a little bit older because I realized I wanted to wear a suit and be in the field of professionals. When I worked and became who I wanted to be. I was doing great but I found out, I wasn't the best.
I know that line in "Desiderata" that goes:
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Truly, when a person knows so much, he then realizes that he doesn't really know any better. This is humbling and yet it is the truth. What is it about life? It calls for you to be great, to let your light shine and conquer all your fears and yet there is no specific manual for you to follow. You must walk like a blindfolded man and when you make mistakes, you stop, ponder, and read your life backwards to understand what went wrong.
Should I stop and call this hub in honor of life as "The Life Variety"?
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Am I dead, yet? - I am glad to see you again. I was just around, busy. why do I feel like you are better than I am? LOL. It's an interesting thought. Perhaps, we always look at the things we do not have and we end up frustrated. How about we settle with, "we all have our light to share in this world?"
Thanks gurl, appreciate it!
I like the sound of that, thanks Sheena. Lovely picture by the way =]
Am I dead, yet? - thansk again! You are an Angel! :) Hugs
hey now tomorrow is another day. besides, it's a saturday and as you said your "me day". let your hair down, drink lots of you know what and puff all the negative vibes out. :D
LOL. I totally laugh at your puff metaphor! Thanks Cris!
Anything to make you smile. And and AND we, er, you have to focus on getting rich, right? :D
hahahha. Yes, anything to get that dream. LOL as long as I don't wear some hooker heels. Oh Cris, I wish I am there, really, with all my heart I pray for it to happen...and soon please.
My mother always said there will always be someone better and there will always be someone worse. You have to be your own best and be happy for what you have. Missed you much! Got tremendously excited to see a notice for a new hub in my inbox. By the way, am I mistaken or do I sence a hubbers romance?
Sheena! It's great to see you again. I've often asked myself very similar questions. I hate mediocrity. I love the poem by Robert Herrick:
"Gather ye rosebuds while ye may, old time is still a flyin
And this same flower that smiled today, tomorrow will be dyin"
That poem always encourages me to go out and make my life great. I do think you're being hard on yourself though. I think you're an awesome person with a great mind. Anyone who can randomly have an intelligent conversation on Song of Solomon, as you and I have, definitely is much brighter than your average person.
Hi Frieda,
Thanks so much for that warm welcome. You're mom is right but sometimes I can't help feeling inadequate. Douglas Adams said, "writing is easy all you have to do is sit in your typewriter (now computer) and bleed." It make me frustrated at times when I got deadlines and I haven't thought of anything to write.
No fancy romance going on, Nada, Zero, especially in cyber space. LOL
Benj - I missed you, terribly. Thanks for the comment, soulmate. I'm quite in a hurry now to get to your page. And thanks for the encouragement!
Having a hubscore of '90' puts you in the top 10% of all writers here, which in my my book is totally amazing. Don't be so hard on yourself, I think you are great!!!!!
Thanks for sharing this. I don't worry if other people are better writers than I am...I know there are plenty. I just write to the best of my ability...and not always...
Sheena - I totally related to this one. But what some of the others have said is true. There will always be someone better and someone worse. Perhaps that is the lesson we must learn. We are who we are and we have to accept it. We cannot be perfect, we cannot always be the best and we cannot always come in first but that doesn't mean that we are not great at what we do, especially if we put our hearts into it. The "best" we can be is in doing the "best" we can do. Thank you for a thoughtful Hub!
hi nice to meet you, I have seen your face around for a while, and intended to join you before now, but here I am better late than never
Am I dead, yet? says:
7 months ago
Sheena, I have missed you here on HubPages. I still believe that you are unique in your writing style, and your ability to tell your life stories always impress me. Your honesty and caring for others, well, in my world, Sheena, you are definately better at it than I am. Welcome back -hugs