Like many of you, I have started this blog in an effort to find and talk to others that have lived and experienced the sorts of paranormal things that I have, in hopes of gaining insight to the demons lurking all around us. For most of my life I have trained myself to ignore those things that made little or no logical sense to me, never wanting an explanation. So until recent, I have lived my life in fear that if I had to face whatever was responsible for haunting me that I would only encourage it and invite it further into my life, something that I do not need anymore of.

When we think of a "haunting" most (including myself) associate the phenomenon with a particular location, and not so much a particular person. To many (also including myself) it is a real form of possession in one or more of three significant ways. First it is believed that there are forms of ghostly possessions, whereas the spirit and soul of a passed-on human has for some selfish reason, attached itself to an individual. Secondly, there are those unfortunate enough to undergo a much more intense form of personal haunting, the demonic or malevolent sort. The third is comparatively different from the first two, and lends a certain scientific approach to the situation. It is that a person, based on his or her past has accumulated so much negative energy in their life that it can manifest itself outwardly, without that person realizing it. Most, if not all of the signs for this type of haunting shows itself similar to the symptoms of manic or depressive behavior. Psychiatrists seem to love prescribing lots of expensive drugs to treat the problem, often to some one's peril.

Imagine all of the people that have lived and died throughout the many cycles of life on our planet. I think that it is safe to say that the dead outnumber the living. Unfortunately among the dead there exists hatred, jealousy, anger, depression as well as many other things that we as living people also experience on sometimes a daily basis. There must be some sort of explanation why a certain entity might attach itself to a chosen individual. The most rational reason would be control, preying on a person's weaknesses is almost always the case. Although the evidence would point to an undeniable fact that people for the most part inherently possess a necessary element to the survival of the human race called free will. But free will can be manipulated, sometimes very easily, living people do it to other living people every second of every single day, it is sometimes just called "talking someone into something". At least for the living one person can see the other one coming, and can deduce the other's reasoning attempts. They use their free will to decide if they are going to allow themselves to be manipulated. However, if you cannot see where the influence is coming from or who it is coming from, you couldn't possibly know the methodology of the attack.

If a person lives a life of jealousy for example, would it not make more sense that a like spirit would be attracted to that attribute, than say an individual with a higher sense of self-esteem? I would go so far as to say that the people central to a haunting become the objects of jealousy for the attached ghost, wanting to keep others away and in turn becoming a devastating influence on any personal relationships the haunted are in.

By most accounts this form of haunting is the most feared, and rightly so. This is nothing less than a true and very real possession of a person's decision making process. Demons exist in a realm of constant dread and anxiety over what awaits them. They know and live in a world where they believe themselves to be at the very end of their existence. Ages ago when demons knew they had more time to work their evil, their tactics were more methodical and precise than we experience today. In our day we are actually experiencing the legions of evil demons trying to inflict as much pain into our collective soul in as little time as possible, before the sands of time are emptied for them. Frantic and panicking, these demons want all to suffer as they see themselves about to suffer.

How many times have you watched the news on television and seen the horrible things that even parents do to their own children, or the many ungodly types of murders, and asked yourself or others "how could they do that?". Unspeakable crimes have been committed against others that have no explanation other than it is not at all a trait of humanity. Yet, it has to come from somewhere. People who allow themselves or are unknowingly susceptible to the powerful influence that a demon yields, they are merely a means to an end for it.

For the skeptical, a more scientific approach to explaining certain negative occurrences surrounding someone in particular are more suitable. We all feel the need to make sense of our world, for some this means an attempt to eliminate outside sources as a cause for disruption, and look inwardly for answers. Thus was born psychology and psychiatry.

An example of this might be, a child born into an environment where dysfunction is the norm. A place that love and things associated with constructiveness does not exist on a sufficient level to allow the positive to outweigh the negative. When things are so out of balance, flourishing in a positive direction is quite impossible. This is where my own experiences lay. My childhood was full of all types of abuse and dysfunction, and in a developing soul from the age of birth, I am in my mind living proof that what is rendered early in life can follow you throughout time. Don't get me wrong, I do not seek attention or sympathy for my childhood or adolescent misfortune, nor do I look to blame or find a scapegoat for where my life has lead me Therefore I will not spend any time describing details for they are hardly the point. I do however, know the feeling of a negative manifestation of the forces of our own energies, I have seen it outwardly in myself and in others in my family, almost like a curse to my lineage. Paranormal aspects have emerged in my life seemingly in cycles over the years, from unaccounted for bruises, the moving of objects, overwhelming feelings of despair at moments, physical exhaustion and extreme manic-depressive behavior as well as unpleasant psychic visions of the future and the past. It is not uncommon for a doctor to diagnose post traumatic stress disorder as an explanation, then of course a strict regimen of medication for the affliction.