Dear God,

as a rule I am not normally a religious person, in fact you could say I am a total non believer. How ever I am breaking my own rules on religion as this is the only way I can get you to listen to me.Although I am not in to praying and church,I am aware that some thing 'up there' must exist and the word God at least acts as a pet name.Having established that some thing has actually created the life in which we live I now have some questions that I have always wanted to ask.

The questions I will ask you are not exceptionally out standing or probably of any great importance to you. To me though they matter and I feel have moulded me in to the person that I am today. So now I will begin.

Firstly God why did you make me so short? Have you any idea how hard it is to reach for things on the top shelves at super markets? It is a nightmare and I usually have to stand around like an idiot waiting to attract some one's attention.This robs me of my independence and I always feel silly.

Secondly God why did you make me feel inadequate about the way I look?Had you chosen to give me boobs instead of jelly tots then perhaps my confidence would be slightly greater. To you this probably seems a rather shallow comment to make but to me I feel it has affected my life.I realises boobs aren't every thing but it would have made a difference to me if I felt more womanly.

Thirdly God why did you decide to make me an easy target for the bullies I have encountered over the years? I consider myself a nice person. A good friend to the few I have, a good mother to my child,a lovely girlfriend to my partner and hopefully a good daughter to my parents.Have you any idea at all of the damage these bullies have done to me over the years? They made me a nervous wreck and only added to my already depleted confidence. Some of the bullies merely objected to my accent(apparently it is too posh). So why did you make me sound like this?

I guess I don't hold you fully responsible for the way my life has panned out so far but I do feel that you haven't helped.Since every one always talks about how God created man, then don't you agree you have to take a portion of the blame?

Perhaps if you had made my body more desirable,my accent a little less 'posh',added a few inches to my height and basically provided me with a little more confidence.....Then who knows how my life might have gone then.

Well I guess at nearly forty one years of age I am becoming a little more used to my image and with any luck may be a little more confident.So I guess I will have to forgive your lack of thought and move on....I don't ever think though that I will suddenly find'God' in the religious sense though.I know on that score I will never be forgiving enough to become the thorough Christian I am sure you would like me to be.

On that note'God',thanks for listening and I wish you well for your future plans.

Yours sincerely Miss Bev Maher.