Hello fellow hubbars.. I just wanted to take a moment to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Some things have changed for me and I have to tell you, this is probably the worst year ever for me. Through the years, no matter what, I have always made sure that my children had a Christmas. I have always worked and always provided for them. This year is going to be different. Some things happend that were beyond my control, and I had to leave the home I was in. I am now staying at someones elses home for the time being. My children have had to go and stay with thier fathers...they are both now about 2-3 hours away from me. The situation is, I have zero income now. Although, thank God, I was hired for a postion at minimum wage, but that won't begin until January. I am owing so many people it's not even funny.

Anyway, I don't have the money to even be able to see my children for Christmas. I don't know when I will get to see them...probably not until I can get a paycheck, and then, even after that, I have to pay some very important things or I will be in big trouble. SO, I still won't be able to save any money to see them or to try to get a place. I will be having no Christmas this year. I explained to the children that next year will be better! You know how kids are though. It's hard for them to understand. I cry even thinking about it. I know that it could always be worse. But it really hurts...this situation that I am in. I had the Salvation Army come and take all of my furniture, washer and dryer, and other belongings that I had no way to move. I figure that one day I will be able to get different things. Although, yes, it still hurts. I'm homeless,(thank God I was taken in for now though by some nice people), broke and I am crying inside and outside, for my children. You know, you never know when things like this can happen. One day things are ok, and then, boom, your world is turned upside down. I could probably deal with things better if it were just myself I had to deal with. But trying to tell your children that you have to give everything away and have to be separated for awhile, and that you can't get them a gift this year for Christmas, is just so painful.

What I really want you to know is this, wherever you are, whoever you are....appreciate what you DO have. Appreciate that house you may be in that you continue to complain about being too small...appreciate the coat your wearing that is from last year, as others don't have one at all...appreciate that income you have that you may complain about being too little...some don't have one at all...appreciate that bed that continues to squeak..some wish they had a bed at all...appreciate the presents under your tree as you say how you wish there were more..as some don't have a tree at all, and nothing to put under it if they did have...and so on and so on....mostly, appreciate eachother..appreciate the life that you have. No matter what is going on in it...know that there is a plan for you. God has a plan for all of us. Right now, I'm having a hard time figuring out what my plan might be, but I know there is one. And I will continue to struggle on until I find what it is. I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas and A Happy New Year. Pray for me and my children as I will pray for all of you. God bless.