This is Part 5 of 'Too Deep For This Time Of Day'. I will be covering the following points:

Lust

Agnostic

Realistic

Experience

Cope

Self-Control

So strap yaself in... and please, CONTROL YOURSELF! ;-) 

We all desire... some more intensely than others - that I must admit. We've all heard of the seven deadly sins - pride, envy, gluttony, lust, anger, greed and sloth. I am pointing out the seven deadly sins mainly because of lust but they all apply to my point to some extent.

Lust n 1. strong sexual desire. 2. any strong desire. v 3. have passionate desire (for). Lustful adj Lusty adj vigorous, healthy. Lustily adv.

Mmm, enticing... I never was into religion, but hey, they do say that God forgives all... so he/she will just have to live with my agnosticism. I mean, come on people, I am a realist! I think a bit of realism would do everyone some good.

Agnostic n 1. person who believes that it is impossible to know whether God exists. adj 2. of agnostics. Agnosticism n.

You see, in my reality, seeing is believing, and I ain't seen nothing yet.

Realistic adj seeing and accepting things as they really are, practical. Realistically adv. Realism n 1. awareness or acceptance of things as they are. 2. style in art or literature that attempts to portray the world as it really is. Realist n.

Just like a very good friend of mine, as well as my mother, I am a fatalist. If something happens, good or bad, it was/is meant to be. I guess that if you live with a "meh, shit happens" kind of attitude for long enough, you might just stop fearing death. Look on the bright side - you can't fear, let alone feel, when you are dead. YAY...! As I've always said, "Only the dead know what we're in for."

It's ard to think that once you're dead, that's it. How can it be that, one day your loved one is standing right before you and the next, they no longer exist? It's like some sort of sick magic trick - now you see me, now you don't. No wonder it is so hard to let go and move on. The thought of never seeing some of the people in my life, ever again, brings me to my knees.

The ideal way to live your life would be to never become attached to anything or anyone. That way, if you lose it, you can erase it. We would never see a grieving widow/widower cry over the lost of their husband/wife of 60 years, ever again. But that's what life is all about - getting knocked down, kicked while down, getting back up again and doing that all over again until the day your body decided it's done. Life is cruel, yet so rewarding in so many ways. I absolutely love the irony that comes with life - it's something I wish to laugh about on my deathbed. Mainly because the suckers surrounding me don't know what they are really in for because I love them too much to tell them... am I graciously cruel or what?! Hey, everyone's gotta learn - why spoil life's lessons by giving everyone the heads up? Personal experience is the best kind of experience... even if the experience is undesirable. We need to learn to live and as we live, we learn.

Experience n 1. direct personal participation. 2. particular incident, feeling, etc, that a person has undergone. 3. Accumulated knowledge. v 4. participate in. 5. be affected by (an emotion). Experienced adj skilful from extensive participation.

Experience is what builds us and matures us to our full potential, well, eventually. As I have said before, "Age is just a number". It is the life experience that determines our sole abilities. That is why someone aged 16 can be more mature than someone of the age of 25. My counsellor once said to me, "You have been through more in your life than the average 35 year old...", I was 15 years of age at the time. Does that mean I am more mature than a 35 year old? No, of course not. Your maturity all depends on how you use your experience and how you expect to learn from them - that is, if you wish to learn from them at all. But we all cope differently.

Cope v (often foll. by with) 1. deal successfully (with). 2. tolerate, endure.

Cope has another side to it which we must all possess - self-control because without it, we may not be able to cope with one another, let alone, ourselves.

Self-Control n ability to control one's feelings and reactions.

Self-Control is a key element when coping with desire. Oh yes, I took you in yet another circle... ain't I clever?! We all need just a little bit of self-control and we all have it, it's just that some of us don't know how to use it... or maybe don't wanna know how to use it. Either way, desire is a desirable thing... who wants to hold back on something like that? Ha... self-control... yeah right! Bring it on, baby!