So the other day an acquiantance asked me about my Valentine's Day plans, which sort of bothered me a little bit. He is married with a son and fairly nice to me, but I think he feels sorry for me because I am single. I could be wrong because he is a really nice person, but he talks a lot about his family and seems to find it odd I am single. Gee world, with my dating track record I am not about to go find a one time date for Valentine's Day. Why must I be paired off during this one particular day of the year when every other day I am single? Why must I resent Valentine's Day just because i am single? I heard a single lady the other day say ba humbug about Valentine's Day because of her ex-husband, but why must I feel that way about the holiday? My feeling this year is Valentine's Day is for the single girl too!

I have enjoyed every single Valentine's Day I have spent as a single person, and the two times I happened to be dating someone around Valentine's Day I felt worse. The first time in 2002 he was away and sent me flowers and candy to wish me Happy Valentine's Day. Back then we had just met, but our telephone conversations were so horrible in that long distance relationship because we seemed to have nothing in common. All he could ever talk about was Everquest, and I being the clingy one cling to those words. I tried to fit some of my interests in, but he trailed off with silence when I mentioned those. It was a nice surprise to get flowers and candy that day, but it also felt sort of hollow too. I knew he was trying to like me, but the only thing he ever liked about me was my appearance.

We dated on and off for a year and our second Valentine's Day was a nightmare. He talked about how women ruined relationships on are double date with another couple, and I felt like this was Chinese water torture. It was his idea for us to go on that double date, but the whole time he kept dropping snide comments about clingy women that ruin relationships. Well the mistakes I made was calling him too much and trying to form some mutual interests. Gee that was a big mistake and sort of made me only want to be single during Valentine's Day.

I have dated men during other times of the year, but the sum of all my relationships has resulted in me being one of the most single women the world ever did see. Back when I was 25 I had a one year long relationship that was probably the most consistent of all two I have had, and even this one was just a farce. He was a divorcee that used me as his rebound girl. Boy oh boy it felt good to find out recently he is engaged. You see I see to be a magnet for men who do not want to settle down and marry me, but they usually end up getting married a few years after dating me. Heck is probably me because no matter how suave and independent I try to act I always get critiqued. I never tried to change men I dated, but I guess they hated me for wanting to have a relationship where I actually saw them on a consistent basis. Well I am just not good enough, hence the desire to quit trying. Dating is so boring!

My first boyfriend hated that I called him. The second one hated that I wanted to spend more than twice a month with him. None of these dating sceanrios made me feel good about myself. One guy I went out on a blind date with said other women seemed like they might cheat on him, but I seemed like I would be faithful. Well come to find out he did not say that as a compliment, but because he found me to be less attractive than most women he dated. He also admitted that he was not the most attractive guy in the world, but he did expect to have a trophy on his arm.

Gee after all of these fun dating scenarios I just want nothing more to do with it. At one time I imagined myself as a wife and mother one day, but I never see that in my future. Last year I stopped trying to even date because the last guy only wanted a good time. I am better than that, and I think this requires that I spend the rest of my life alone, which means no strings attached. He actually still calls sometimes and wonders why I do not plan to see him. He even made some flimsy excuse about how he would try to go out with me in public this time, even though last time he made it perfectly clear he does not like to go to public places.

However, dumb me I think maybe lied about being single and he was still with his girlfriend when we went out last year.  He swore up and down he was single because I would not see him if he was not, but at the same time he was a afraid her friend living in the area might see us inside McDonald's! Yes folks, he was even embarassed to be seen with me for ten minutes inside McDonalds when we ate hamburgers, so the few times we hung out we drove around. I do not want to just drive around with a guy, and I would like one that asks me where I would like to go and what I would like to do. Since this is not going to happen I would rather end the pity party here. Today I am focusing on how to make Valentine's Day for the single girl!

 I buy myself a cheap box of chocolates whenever and wherever I am when I feel like it.  Since I do not expect a guy to present me with a box of chocolates, will present myself with the box of chocolates when I feel like.  This means I probably eat a box of chocolates in one setting per week, but who cares!  I love chocolate and I am not worried about looking slim for a guy.  Heck, when I did look skinny and sexy they still did not want to be with me in the end, so I would rather enjoy several yummy boxes of chocolate this month than worry if a guy thinks I am fat.  I watch romantic comedies because even real relationships are not that perfect, so I get the most out of the days leading up to Valentine's Day as couples do.  Actually I think maybe I enjoy it more than some couples because I am not worried about the perfect date or what my significant other will get me.  I know I will always enjoy time spent with myself and can buy my own chocolates, so why should I fuss about being alone.  Happy Valentine's Day to all the single ladies out there, and do not forget to buy yourselves and big box of chocolates whenever the mood strikes!