We Fear What We Want Most

Love, Monogamy, Marriage...

The same people who HATE those words, (BLECH!),

CRAVE those words. How could that be?

The same exact people who are afraid of commitment...

The ones that never fully let go and end up running away...

Are the hopeless romantics who dream of meeting that special person and settling down together... Raising a family... living happily in harmony.

How can a girl who's willing to change her last name for a man be afraid of taking his engagement ring?

Why would a guy who wants to meet his future wife act like such an asshole around women?

It's a paradox and a contradiction, or so it seems.

I am one of these people. Sometimes it's hard to figure out why.

These are people who've learned too well from their mistakes. They have also learned from the mistakes of others around them, specifically their exes.

On the exterior surface, they may seem cold and distant at times, or on the contrary, some become overly emotional...

The truth is that something so real scares them more than anything. The depth of their thoughts are something that they do not wear on their sleeve.

Our emotions and feelings are so strong and our standards are so high, that we honestly

Expect Disappointment.

Not only do we want it,

We want it NOW!

Why waste another 2 years on some chump?

Screw up, just fuck up now, so I can move on with it.

And the cycle begins again...

These are the same people who walk away from True Love.

These are the same people who stay and then are proven that it wasn't worth it.

Sometimes, we fear the very thing that we want most of all. What we must learn is not to fear love, but to embrace it. Open your heart and let it in.

It's very easy for these people to flip a switch and shut it all off. Sometimes, it's better to feel nothing at all it seems.

But if you feel the pain and backlash of a broken heart, rejoice in the fact that you are still alive with feelings left to hurt you.

If you fell on your face and IT DIDN'T HURT, then you'd really wonder what was wrong with you.

So, why not now?