Do you wonder what's missing in your life? I mean, you are surrounded by people, but there is still something missing. You wake up each morning and go through life’s routines, only to find that the night has rapidly approached and another day has seemingly been wasted.

I do have many things to be thankful for and I have a wonderful life. However, sometimes, I just want to feel something. I do not know what that something is, but it is always burning deep inside my soul. It seems that life is spinning by so rapidly and I am missing out on the important thing that I am supposed to do.

Maybe I feel this way because that’s just how life makes us feel. How many hours do you spend online? I know I spend many hours online writing and doing other various things, but mostly searching. Searching for what? I find myself searching for a purpose. Some days I search for meaning. I find self fulfillment in writing; I find meaning through other people’s writing. However, at the night’s approach something is still missing.

I think we get lonely in today’s society. I have developed quite a few friendships online. Why do we find it easier to communicate with people we barely know than people we see everyday? Maybe it is because online, you can just block the person out if you get tired of them. In everyday life, we can’t do this so easily. You have to deal with the difficult task of maintaining the relationships. This brings me back to what’s missing. I have found that most of the friendships that I have always end up falling apart for various reasons. Maybe, that’s what’s missing. Maybe I just need a genuine friend. I have always been told that you can count your true friends on one hand. As I have gotten older, I am beginning to see the truth behind this statement.

I have a nice house, a nice car, and a nice family. I go to school events; teacher’s meetings, volleyball games, and wrap myself up in my children’s lives. I have a boat that I can walk on my pier and turn the key to see the most amazing sunset. However, something is still missing.

Maybe the something that is missing is right in front of me and I just can’t see it. Do I just take things for granted? I always try not to do this. I try to appreciate each day as if it were my last. I always try to take notice to nature and breathe in every moment of beauty as I see it. I always try to appreciate the fact that no matter how bad things may seem, they could be worse. I never take my health for granted and always take the time to help out someone in need.

Maybe I have lost myself somewhere along life’s path. I got married at a young age. I became the wife and mother that I was expected to be, and have enjoyed it. However, I have to ask myself, “Did you lose yourself along the way?” Maybe that’s what is missing. I am missing me. Then there is the “what if” question. What if I didn’t choose the path I took? Would I be the same person that I am now? I will never know the answer to that question, because I didn’t take a different path.

Maybe everyone feels like something is missing in their life. My question is how do you find what’s missing if you don’t know where to search? I assume you start by taking a long look in the mirror and find yourself first. Then, maybe you can begin to find what “yourself” likes and needs. After you have found yourself, maybe, you can find what you like to do. Maybe, at this point, you can follow your dreams and find what’s missing. Maybe, when you find yourself, you can find true friends and maintain relationships.

In summary, for those of you who feel fulfilled and who never feel like something’s missing, you may not truly understand what I am talking about. But, for those people that feel like they have lost themselves somewhere along life’s road, you know how I feel. You understand that burning inside you to find the part of you that is missing. I guess you just keep having goals and you have to keep searching for your purpose. Each day that I wake up, I hope that I will find what’s missing.