I am sharing a small part of me in this brief bit of information. Why? I"m getting ready to write a book about my life and my tetimony. I am saddened by what I experienced, but I am elated at where God has brought me.

What you read below is only a small portion of what I need to share but it gives you a "rythmic" idea of where I have been.

Some of this book is going to hurt feelings. Let me say right now, it is not about you, it is about where God has taken me and brought me through. I want this book to sell, but I encourage you to pray my strength as you read; you might have a story in you that has to come out!

 Over the past few weeks, I have remembered the times I had with a special someone who has left me behind. I remember how we would also go out...how we could look at each other and just smile..have fun...drink...dance..PARTAY.

I have been remembering the good times and the bad, how everything that once was is no longer and how I don't know if I really care that it is all gone. Long Gone....

I sit here, right now...thinking how the love once was; was one sided. Not sure if either of us knew how to share the love we needed to build each other up. I am sitting here now wondering how everything got messed up. Still wondering if I care that it is all gone. OR is it?

My Father in heaven has kept me all these years..my father on earth told me to stop playing the victim. My family lives off the past as a crutch and not a stepping stone. I don't know if I can keep going on trying to satisfy the needs of others..when I know I put the REAL FOOD on the table when I open my mouth. What I mean is, right now, today, if you can't understand the word I am sharing with you, you won't be ready for the sound of the last trumpet.

When you think, you remember.

I sit here, right now wondering if I can get back all that was lost..or does it even matter? It does not.

Love is a choice...as a Christian I have to love everyone with the love of the Lord...as I share with you the word given to me in my spirit..you're not going to like it all..and believe me IT ALL AINT GOOD..but each day as I move forward....the talking will stop. I have heard the spirit say, enough is enough...there is no more to share for a people that can't hear while they are HERE...

I remember the times.......
I remember the love
I remember the everything...
I remember the choices I made
BUT
I will not allow the past to chase me....so I will not keep remembering and suffering the pain again and again...I WILL know that I tried....and I will know that GOD SAW ME.

As I sit here right now, I am thinking I want to tell you that this is the start of my new book and some people won't like it.........