Who am I? I AM ME!

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By Hawkesdream



Life will never be the same, there I was walking along the beach taking note of the sun streaming down upon the water and dancing upon the crest of the waves. I could feel the sand creeping between my toes and thought to myself why is it that the ocean conjures up so much emotion in me.


Have you ever caught a glimpse of yourself in a puddle, the reflection is always different than when you look in a mirror ,somehow all the imperfections disappear and what you see is the real you ,the image of how other people see you. I suppose we as human beings are so intent and critical of ourselves we fail to notice the projection that we send to the world.


Fifteen years ago , I was involved in a serious car crash and suffered multiple injuries including facial lacerations. When I look in the mirror all that stares back at me is the scarring and to me that is all that others see too. Looking in a puddle ,there are no scars and that is how others see me.


When I look down over my body I see fat and how I long for a slim firm body, but, looking in that puddle there is no fat just a slim body walking tall and straight, the body that I have always longed for is there , in that puddle, for all the world to see.


Why do we as human beings beat ourselves up, When are we going to realize that what we perceive to be is in the mind, who we are and what we look like is in the eyes of the beholder.


It took me such a long time to learn this, and now, what I try to do is project the inner me, that way,not only do I feel more confident but I know that that is what everyone else sees. They don't see the scars nor the shape of my body, just me, I like this idea a lot. No more do I wear baggy clothes or a paper bag over my head I AM ME and I cant say anymore about that.


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hilltrekker profile image

hilltrekker  says:
10 months ago

A very true expression and philosophy. Sweet pic.

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
10 months ago

Thanks hilltrekker much appreciated

C. C. Riter  says:
10 months ago

As Tolden said, you can't judge another critter by it's skin. sorry I called you son on my comment. I got too many fans to keep 'em all sorted some times. Good material, keep it up now.

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
10 months ago

thanks for the compliment, it's good to hear. Sometimes you doubt yourself but I was pleased with this one.

Lgali profile image

Lgali  says:
10 months ago

nice expression

shrikrishna profile image

shrikrishna  says:
9 months ago

great

k@ri profile image

k@ri  says:
9 months ago

Such wise words, a chill ran down my spine. It is hard to rise above our perception of ourselves and understand others may see us differently. And even harder to keep remembering this. Thanks for the wonderful hub!

marcofratelli profile image

marcofratelli  says:
9 months ago

Very true.

Me? I'm someone else! :)

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
9 months ago

Thanks K@ri, much appreciated.

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
9 months ago

Hello marcofratelli, pleased to meet you and your friend, hope you soon pull together.

SEM Pro profile image

SEM Pro  says:
9 months ago

Lovely - of course I see you as a bridge in the forest *wink*. Lately I've been saying the grander plan of not seeing as well as we age, is profound. When we look in the mirror as an older person, we not only see less wrinkles, but somehow the reflection is younger from so many memories. Personally, I love the you, you project :)

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
9 months ago

Thank you SEM Pro for your compliments, I am humbled.

badcompany99  says:
8 months ago

You deff have a way with your words my friend, still love the poem the best though, but your writing deff touches me.

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
8 months ago

Thanks bc, I enjoy your work also , working on another poem for you.

Haunty profile image

Haunty  says:
7 months ago

Thanks for writing this, Alison. Your perception is wonderful! I have quite a bad perception of myself and the people I love most are those who seem to not see my flaws.

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
7 months ago

that is the way it should be Haunty, those that see the flaws , need to ask the questions and not to assume the answers.

BTW my perception of you is, a thoughtful and considerate person , and also one of intelligence. Have a hug on me!

Haunty profile image

Haunty  says:
7 months ago

Thanks Alison, much appreciated. :)

If only I lived closer.

RedElf profile image

RedElf  says:
6 months ago

Thanks so much for sharing this - deeply personal and deeply moving. I need to find one of those puddles, I think. Thanks again.

fortunerep profile image

fortunerep  says:
6 months ago

Beauty is skin deep and through your words your beauty shines. Very touching.

dori

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
6 months ago

Thank you so much for reading and leaving such lovely comments, much appreciated.

RedElf, the puddles are everywhere, even in the most unexpected places

fortunerep, hugs to you, and thank you.

ralwus profile image

ralwus  says:
6 months ago

Oh my, I remember now, I thought you a lad at first. LOL How stupid of me then. Lets go puddle jumping together sometime dear.

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
6 months ago

Thanks for revisiting, we can go puddle jumping anytime, kind sir.

ralwus profile image

ralwus  says:
6 months ago

What the hell? I am not 'kind sir'.LOL I'm charlie, dear. You know me too well for that sir stuff. May as well call my Laird Tearlach. I don't recall that wonderful picture of the clouds, is it an added feature?

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
6 months ago

OK Charlie me Darlin, we can puddle jump anytime, the picture has always been there, maybe you see it differently lol

ralwus profile image

ralwus  says:
6 months ago

Yeah, I think I just forgot and now I see even more in there, pretty cool it is.

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
6 months ago

Thanks Charlie, you have cheered me up.

ralwus profile image

ralwus  says:
6 months ago

hmmm, well gee I am gald to do that dear. Any sun over there yet? I ate too much yesterday. Amazingly no whiskey an only 2 beers.

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
6 months ago

Sun, heck havent seen any for two days lol, so you are feeling stuffed and no whiskey to wash it down with, Shame, here you are, passes the favourite tipple, get on the outside of that.

ralwus profile image

ralwus  says:
6 months ago

Haha, will see you later in the tree house, we'll do some climbing of new heigths. bye fer now

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
6 months ago

see ya later

Teresa McGurk profile image

Teresa McGurk  says:
6 months ago

Scars aren't damage -- they are healing; they aren't a defect -- they are the completion of successful healing.  You will say that I don't know what I am talking about if I don't have as many scars as you do.  And I reply that someone I cared for saw one of my (many) scars as an ugly blight on my skin and turned away from me.  He was wrong.  There is nothing ugly about surviving and regaining health.  Nothing at all.  I sure don't miss him.

P.S. your avatar is beautiful, though!

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
6 months ago

Teresa, i thank you, I am sure that you know what you are talking about, and I do go about daily life mostly without thinking, its just when the photograph business comes up, I cant do it thats all

Thank you so much for popping in and leaving your wonderful words.

katyzzz profile image

katyzzz  says:
5 months ago

You made your point so clearly and so well, love the written images of the beach and the picture, no wonder this hub has done so well

Hawkesdream profile image

Hawkesdream  says:
5 months ago

Thankyou so much, Katyzzz, for the comment and for reading. Always a pleasure.

Madison22 profile image

Madison22  says:
3 months ago

Very nice!!

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