I've had dark moments where I feel like even my own family doesn't care about me. But know this : There is one person that will never, never leave you -

No matter how you feel or what you've done. Nothing is so bad that Jesus can't forgive. NOTHING. NO thing. Like I've said, I've had moments that I felt so alone in the middle of a crowd that I just wanted to dig a hole and crawl in, but I remember one of these times when I realized (or remembered) that God loved me and was with me right there and then, in that moment. When I felt Him there with me, I cried. I cried because I wasn't alone and I felt like He understood everything. I didn't have to say a thing, or even think anything for Him to know. He was and is there. Always.

Hebrews 13:5-6 says: Let your conduct be without covetousness, and be content with such things that you have, for He has said, 'I will never leave you, nor forsake you.'

This very verse, though I don't read the Bible as often as I should, popped into my head (rather the Holy Spirit spoke to me) when I was grieving my mother's death. I was in so much pain and I "heard" The Lord speak that to me and I knew He was and is with me. What a comfort that was to me to have the right words at the right moment from my Savior.

God is so good that (speaking from my personal relationship with Him) - He is so good and patient that I can go weeks and not pray or open a Bible and yet He shows up when I need Him. No, let me correct that - He doesn't show up, because you have to leave and then come back. He never left! But He waited with me and comforted me and still comforts me because He watches me, waits with me and stands next to me in hopes that I will spend a little time with Him. I am ashamed that I haven't taken the time to be with Him. And I wonder why I get overwhelmed. I cry and fall into a depression because I can't handle this or that. But if I would just let Jesus take some of the burden, I wouldn't have to be overwhelmed.

I keep a journal of Letters to God. I don't write in it everyday. I don't even know what I will write sometimes. I sit with my notebook and a pen and write "Dear Lord," .....then I wait and whatever comes out of my heart, good, bad and ugly, I let it go. I figure, God knows the ugliness and bitterness in my heart anyway, I'm not surprising Him by writing it down. But it helps me seek Him more truthfully and sometimes I just thank Him. If I feel discouraged, I can only think of a few things to thank Him for then the list grows and grows until tears flow down my face because I realize how much He's done for me, even when I don't deserve it.

Oprah Winfrey had the right idea of keeping a gratitude journal. Well, I challenge my fellow Christians to start keeping a Dear Lord Journal (if you don't already do something simular) and see how much closer you feel to God and see what it can do for your "walk" with Him.