I WAS 35 WHEN MY PANCREAS STOPPED MAKING INSULIN.I WAS CONSTANTLY THIRSTY AND URINATING EVERY FIVE MINUTES.I COULDN'T QUENCH MY THIRST,IT SEEMED AS THOUGH I WAS GUZZLING GALLONS.I KNEW THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME,BUT I IGNORED IT FOR A COUPLE MORE DAYS TILL I COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.I FINALLY GOT THE NERVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL TO GET CHECKED OUT.AS I THOUGHT THEY KEPT ME THERE FOR MORE PART OF THE DAY.THEN A WHOLE PARADE OF THEM CAME OUT WITH ONE OF THEM HOLDING A NEEDLE,TELLING ME I HAVE DIABETES THE KIND WHERE YOU MAKE NO INSULIN.SO NOW THEIR EXPLAINING TO ME THAT I NEED TO RETURN TO THE ER THREE TIMES A DAY TO RECEIVE INSULIN SHOTS UNTIL THEY CAN SET UP A VISITING NURSE TO COME TO MY HOUSE TO TEACH ME HOW TO TAKE THE SHOTS AND HOW MUCH TO TAKE.NOW I'M THINKING TO MYSELF, I DON'T EVEN LIKE NEEDLES CAUSE I WAS A TODDLER WATHING MY FATHER SHOOT UP HEROIN AND I REMEMBER EVERY MINUTE OF IT.

THEN MY SECOND WIFE SEEMED TO LIKE PLAYING NURSE,SO FOR THE MOST PART SHE WAS INJECTING ME WITH MY INSULIN.THEN WE HAD OUR UPS AND DOWNS AND SHE WOULD LEAVE SOMETIMES DAYS ON END,AND WITH MY SEVERE DEPRESSION ME AND THE NEEDLES DIDN'T COOPERATE.I'M NOT GOIG TO LIE TO YOU THERE WERE TIMES WHERE I PURPOSELY DID WAY TOO MUCH INSULIN,SO THAT I WOULD GO INTO INSULIN SHOCK, HOWEVER IT NEVER HAPPENED THE LOWEST I EVER GOT MY BLOOD SUGAR WAS 14.IT WAS THEN THAT THE DOCTORS TOOK AWAY MY HUMILIN R THE FAST ACTING AND MORE DANGEROUS INSULIN AND LEFT ME ON THE HUMILIN N THE MORE SLOWER ACTING OF THE TWO.ALONG WITH THAT HE PUT ME ON 2,000 MG OF METFORMIN WHICH IS TOTALLY USELESS AND DOES NOT WORK AT ALL. NOW I'M WITH MY THIRD SIGNIFICANT OTHER AND SHE DOESN'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH NEEDLES.SO I TRY TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR MY OWN DIABETES,SOMETIMES I FORGET ALL TOGETHER AND SOMETIMES I DON'T CARE.I'VE HAD MANY LOW BLOOD SUGAR ATTACKS WHEN I HAVE ONE I SHAKE LIKE A TREE OR I SWEAT PROFUSELY AND HAVE TO EAT SOMETHING TO BRING UP THE SUGAR.RIGHT NOW I'M AT A STAND STILL WITH MY DIABETES.