I had always thought that spirituality was something that had to do with religion. I guess it can be that way for some folks that had a positive experience with religion growing up and still practice those beliefs. For others it may come in the form of a faith as well as a belief in themselves. As I lived a life that was riddled with depression, alcohol and drug abuse, my spirituality never had a chance to get off the ground. I had some sort of a belief that there was a higher power, but I felt that this omnipresence had me mixed up with someone else.Somebody that was strong and emotionally stable. I have none of these personality traits. My feeling is those are the traits that come along with the malady. There may be varying degrees of this in others. That is where the common bond of alcoholics and addicts gets lost. That's where some might think they are different from others. In some ways, they are.It is interesting for me to observe people when things are going their way. They are secure in their job, their families, and they get a huge dose of self esteem from these resources. Whenever any of these are threatened, that's where people have a tendency to lash out. That's where fear creeps in and takes over.This is where faith gets tested.This is the point where some can go off the deep end. When there is money in the bank, our relationships with our spouse is good, and our jobs are secure, we feel on top of the world. It is very difficult to keep those three things in balance.There is always going to be one that needs more attention than others.But when we are in a state of acceptance with the way these are going, we are on a pink cloud. We wish this could last forever. We might think that this is what it must feel like to be in heaven.Then life has a way of moving on.Life happens and things change.Our little safe haven commences to change and becomes the opposite. How could this be? I think we all might have a feeling that everything is going to be o.k. based upon faith. But things will be o.k. so long as they go the way we think they should go, or the way we want them to go. I have a faith today. A faith that everything is just the way it is supposed to be at this very moment. With or with out me. Despite all my plans and all my dreams and schemes. The bonus is I get to keep on keeping on inspite of who and what I am. That is the beauty of it all.