The Moment:

‘I awoke with a sudden jolt electrifying my body, I’m burning up from inside out - my chest bulging to explode. Choking, I gasp for air as a blinding brilliant white light pierces my eyes, so bright I can’t see, I can’t see…..breath - I can’t breath, gasping, choking, chest crushing?’

‘I feel faint, I’m dizzy, flashing lights of colour beaming down on me, the room is spinning and so foggy, misty bright?’

‘Where am I? Somebody talk to me? Why can’t I talk, my voice, I want to scream, Please help me, somebody help me!’

‘My body is like jelly - I can’t move, what is happening to me….? Oh Lord what is happening to me, dear God, Oh God, somebody help me - Oh, why are there so many people crowding around me, somebody please tell me??’

“Children come to Pappa – Hurry my Angels….Paris, Prince, Blankett…..? where are you? Oh God my kids…..Mamma……Pappa……..I beg you where are you, my soul is spinning, I can’t see any of YOU, but why there other people here, so many shadows around me??? Who are you people?” Can’t yell out, HELP

And with a sudden jolt of electrifying lightening, time stands still....complete deafening silence. Waves, A thunderous boom permeates my body, A blinding flash pierces my eyes.

Pop, body bursting, my Soul surging, I’m leaping, spinning around….God - Suddenly I look and there I see ME..???????

"I am looking down on me? I am floating, above my body -light and free, the pain is gone, my GOD!" (flash - pulsating waves surging through me).

"Am, am I…., please God am I really here, Oh no, have I gone? Oh no, oh no, oh no, no, no, no, no, no, no "- (sobbing, screaming, my heart rips apart, tortured chilling screams, Soul is burning!). Mamma, Pappa, children, I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU….(Screaming) PLEASE HEAR MY VOICE?"

A new reality dawns on me like a waking dream….Everything stops!

A Voice

I hear a gentle voice beckoning my name. Michael, Michael, Michael!

“I’ve been waiting for you,” said the voice.

I look around to see HIM.

“You have made it through safe and sound bro, safe and sound with me now, you’re going to be ok, the worst is over!” Your moment across has been so very traumatizing, painful for you. Take a moment, take a deep breath brother – You are really Free now Michael!!!

“This can’t be happening, it’s not real, how come this doesn’t feel real, my body feels so light..?” I am filled with exhilarating buzz. I am euphoric, yet ……… sobbing sobbing, crushing ...

“Is this you, my God, Brandon, it can’t be? We talked and played as children, you were always there even when I couldn't remember or see you in my dreams. Your gentle smiling face whenever I needed you!

“Why, why, why, why now Brandon, this can’t be it………I wasn’t FINISHED? How can my life suddenly end this way, I’ve been robbed!! I’M RAGING……!! I HATE YOU GOD, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME…???

“My children are now without ME,………..sobbing, screaming, I’m broken.”

“My life can’t just end like that in a snap, a breath - in the whisper of a wind.”

“My children, My God, my angels are alone, they are alone forever now!!!” Weeping

“I’m raging, thundering scream, my pain is crushing my soul, I can’t breath with agony! My angels are gone from me….Why oh why did you do this to me GOD??? I am wild with anger and bitter rage, for “This was not it for me!”

“Mamma, can you hear me, please listen to my voice. Please hear me mamma. I have not gone, I am here… mamma can you hear me??

“Michael, take my hand my little brother, I love you, your children love YOU, the clan loves you - the world loves you my main man, YOU were It - a shining STAR with the Voice of an Angel, and you unleashed your GIFT to the world. That was how it was to be my bro.” You were bigger than life

“And then you had a dream, your biggest dream, and saw the face of your three divine children; Paris, Prince Michael, Blanket..???? Then you became the great father that you are. You showed the world what it meant to be a Father and through your eyes - the world saw the pure unconditional love you showered upon your children.”

“Michael -Your journey begins again and is revolving eternally, you have just entered through another gate!! To see what awaits you Michael, take a deep breath….Embrace me little brother, come take hand and step over the edge………..!!!”

To be continued