Do you still love your man?

Questions from Inside

When did things change

When did l change is the question

How did l loose my connection to being a whole women

A lover, a queen, mother and sometimes a child.

My children brought love and loss

Why because l am mother, what changed my opinion of me

I can’t be as sexy to him as l once was

l physically changed

My most secret places changed

l am no longer who l was

l don't feel the same, how could any women

Why now do l worry so much

l lost my freedom of thought as well as self,

now l have others to think of

l am the creator of these thoughts

l alone changed who l think l am

l created my life, my husband, and my children

l wanted equality and got too much

l wanted respect and got too much

l hardened my self as a female to prove my equality and in turn lost the women, my self , my essence

With that loss came no more dates,

no more kissing in the park for hours just because,

no more fascination with silk and how l know he’ll feel when he holds me wearing it

No making love all night, going to work smiling from how he makes me feel

What did l do

Did l grow too strong

Did l stop showing signs that the female within me needs that raw connection to my male

Did l stop enjoying his smell, the powerful energy of his voice

My children are my life, too much of my life

How easy l let my self get lost, the me lv not seen for years

l see her sometimes when a stranger, a male wakes up who l am

Igniting my body with just a few words, or his presence

Why don't l wake up with my husband any more

There are sparks, quick flash’s sometimes that keep me alive

l know within the connection is still there, our love is obvious, but

Is that enough

The truth is no

l want to breath and be alive, not breath to survive

A women needs the mush and the goo

We need the father as well as the lover in you

The smile that holds so many unspoken words making the goose bumps rise giving our whole being “life”

How as women do we balance the world today with the true nature of who females really are, and have always been and l am sure we always will be.

Do you know?

By Cory Cochiolo