No, I'm not an Atheist. I just Pray to Bob.

I was raised with a very interesting family dynamic. My mother is Christian (Lutheran) and my father is agnostic. Each and every year I went to religious based camps for weeks at a time. This ranged from when I was about 10 years old, to about 15 years old. I can honestly say at these camps I saw things that were very "ungodly". Maybe this has shaped my opinion on religion, I am not certain. But I can honestly tell you that I do pray. I pray to Bob. I'm not mocking religion what so ever, I am telling the blunt truth. I don't believe in "God", I believe in the universe. I believe in myself, and I believe that something has put me into existence. What it is, well I am not certain. I am a realist after all. If I can't see it, touch it, make sense of it-- I have a hard time believing in it fully.

Now I do have faith, don't get me wrong. I do believe that there is something that has a certain power over the world. I just don't believe in organized religion, or putting a label on anything. I have faith, and quite a bit of it. A lot of it revolves around my beliefs of positive thoughts and actions. I pray on a daily basis, and I ask for forgiveness when needed. I ask that my loved ones will be alright, and that things will change for the better. I just don't go to Church. I refuse to go every Sunday and act like a different person then I am every other day of the week. Some "Christians" (by the use of the word I am not referring to all that claim) I know are some of biggest pathological liars out there. They do wrong constantly, and believe that it is ok because their "god" forgives them. I am sorry, I just don't agree with this.

I swear like a sailor, I am pretty sure that is ungodly. I am a sinner (although religion teaches us that we all are). I would laugh in someones face if they offered to "save" me. But none of these things, in my sense of religion, make me a blasphemist. I try my hardest to be a good person. I try my hardest to give to those who need it. I try my hardest to help people when I can. I do all of these things not because I belive in an afterlife, but because I believe in the moment. The whole reason behind why I can't claim myself as "religious" is because I don't want to lie. I don't want to say that I believe 100%, when I don't. I feel as though I should be honest with myself at all times.

Just because I don't believe in "god" in the tradition biblical sense, does not mean that I don't believe. It doesn't make me an atheist, it doesn't even make me agnostic. In my opinion we can all have our views of what we believe god is. We should all be able to choose our religious destiny. Who is anyone else to say that I am wrong, and they're right? Its not possible, because it is all personal preference. So no, you won't be seeing me in the pews on Sunday. You wont hear me talk about "my lord and savior", and please don't offer to "save me". I'm find just the way I am. I've got Bob on my side.